Room for Just a Little Bit More(16)

“No problem.”

“No, not for letting me have them. Thanks for trying to sound happy about it.”

Cringing, I covered my face. “I’m sorry. Was I that obvious?”

“Kinda.” He laughed. “But I get it. It’s okay.”

I dropped my hands into my lap and looked up at him, feeling horrible. “It’s not you. I’m just not used to being away from them.”

“I know. I understand. If you’re not comfortable with it, Kacie, we can just skip it.”

“No,” I insisted. “You’ve been a constant part of their lives for almost a year. It’s time. I need to get over my issues.”

His face flushed as he dropped his gaze to the ground. “Thanks. I appreciate it.”

“Excuse me,” a man’s voice called out. “My wife just woke up and said the contractions are getting really bad. She wanted me to ask if you can check her?”

“Absolutely.” I stood up and walked out from behind the desk area, whispering at Zach as I walked by. “We’ll talk later, okay? But let’s plan on that.”

He nodded and thanked me again.





Fast forward to Friday night and I was a nervous wreck. I’d packed, unpacked, then repacked the girls’ bags four times just to make sure they had everything.

“Kacie, they’re only going for two nights,” Brody teased as he watched me rifle through the bags and pull everything out for the fifth time.

“I know, but I want them to be comfortable and have their stuffed animals and—”

“Babe. They’re good.” He walked over and took Lucy’s pajamas out of my hand, gently tucking them back into her Princess Sofia duffel bag. “I know this is tough for you, but in the long run, as much as I hate to admit it, it’s probably best for them,” he said. I could see the tension in his jaw.

“Is this hard for you too?”

“Of course,” he admitted. “Selfishly, I want them to love me more than Zach. I know he’s their biological dad, but they’re such an important part of me, it would sting like a motherf*cker if they ever chose him over me.”

I nodded and looked down at their duffel bags filled with four pairs of pajamas, stuffed animals, and toothbrushes.

“Kind of like it stung for Fred the other night,” Brody continued slowly.

My head snapped up as my eyes bore into his. “Huh?”

“I watched him when you went on and on about that letter from your dad. He didn’t say a word, but I know it must have been hard for him to listen to you talk about wanting a relationship with your real dad.”

“Oh, it’s different with Fred and me.” I waved him off, not wanting to think for a minute that I’d hurt Fred’s feelings.

“Really? How so?”

“For starters, I was twelve when we bought this place, and secondly, he wasn’t even with my mom until a couple years ago.”

“Get real.” He took Piper’s stuffed bunny out of the bag and threw it at me. “They may not have told you they were together, but those two have been going at it for years behind your back. And regardless of when they started seeing each other, he didn’t have to be making out with your mom at night to care about you.”

“I guess.” I shrugged.

A knock on the front door cut our conversation short. I took a deep breath and puffed my cheeks out as I exhaled. “It’s go-time.”

As we walked out of my room, the girls came flying out of theirs, racing each other to the front door.

“You got this, kid.” He rubbed my shoulders, walking behind me.

“I’m opening the door!” Piper bounced up and down excitedly.

Lucy pouted, sticking out her bottom lip. “No, I wanna open it.”

“I’m opening it.”

I hushed both of them as I walked past, grabbing the knob and pulling it.

Zach’s head snapped up quickly. “Hi,” he greeted nervously.

“Hey.”

I tried to sound peppy, but I knew I was failing miserably. I’d had the girls almost solely to myself for the better part of the last five years and I wasn’t yet ready to share, but it had to be done. Like a Band-Aid, just rip it off.

Zach offered his hand to Brody, who didn’t hesitate in shaking it. While those two would never be best friends, they’d been able to come to an understanding of sorts. Zach didn’t interfere or question Brody’s role in the girls’ lives, and Brody didn’t try to stop Zach from starting a relationship with them. I felt so blessed that they were able to see past their pride and embrace what was best for Lucy and Piper.

“So, what’s on the agenda this weekend?” Brody stood with his legs apart more than usual and puffed his chest out. While he wanted what was best for his Twinkies, every once in a while he still had to let his alpha flag fly just a little bit.

“My sister is in town with her husband and new baby girl. I think we’re gonna take the kids to the zoo and maybe let them swim at the hotel pool. Nothing too exciting.”

Pool? Oh my God. I hadn’t even entertained the thought of them swimming.

“Zach, they’ve taken lessons, but neither of them are great swimmers yet.” My voice squeaked as I felt the panic rising in my chest. Brody must have sensed it too and instinctively found my hand, squeezing it gently.