Perfect Ruin (Unyielding #2)(79)

I knew what he was talking about and it was ironic that he was the one who was being cold about her father’s life. I shouldn’t care, but I did because London would never forgive me if I killed him. The reality was, her father was a liability because he knew the drug and that meant he could more than likely reproduce it without the files, but Westbrook was also on borrowed time.

“I know.” But as soon as I said the words, they felt wrong. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t willing to take out a liability and I wouldn’t allow Deck or his men to either.

“What does?” London asked.

Deck was quick to answer. “The situation. Connor is in bad shape. We’ll leave as soon as Tristan can get his pilots here. A few hours maybe—”

Connor’s roar had Deck and Vic running to the basement door. Then there was more of Connor’s shouting and what sounded like a body crashing against the wooden stairs.

“We need to get the drug, Kai.” She was still looking at where Vic and Deck disappeared. Connor had kidnapped her, more than likely the one who shot her, and put her in hell, and still she cared. She cared what happened to him.

I didn’t know how a man like me who never cared about anything was lucky enough to have someone as special as London. I wanted to forget everything and be inside her again. I wanted us to find lightness in all this darkness.

“I’m going to f*ck you now. You good with that?” I didn’t wait for an answer as I stood, taking her with me.





KAI KICKED THE door closed and before I could take another breath, he had me back against it and his mouth on me.

I quivered under his lips and my belly whirled as he kissed me. He locked my wrists together above my head against the door while his thigh shoved my legs apart and pressed into my sex, sending tweaks of need through me.

I never thought I’d be doing this. Kissing a man as dangerous as Kai.

I never thought I’d love so fiercely that it ruined me. Because no matter how I looked at it, that was what he did to me. Kai ruined me. For other men. For life without him.

I’d hated him.

Feared him.

Desired him.

Needed him.

And loved him.

I’d fallen for him before I was Raven, not loved, but I saw something in him. It was the good in him. The need to protect. The desire to care and yet he couldn’t.

Being with him was like breathing in too fast and becoming lightheaded. There were no restrictions as to who I was. Then or now. Kai let me be me and he knew exactly who I was. Sometimes, I think he knew me better than I knew myself. Maybe he did because he pulled me from a place within myself where I’d been slowly dying.

I moaned when his lips left mine then smiled as I ran my fingers through his hair. “Kai.” I whispered his name like I’d done for countless weeks after seeing him through the barred cell. I’d been angry, helpless, exposed, but I was never hopeless.

Never.

And Kai wouldn’t allow it. He gave me the words to hold onto, the cruel words to remind me to never let Vault see the hope. Kill it. Destroy it and survive.

That was when I shut down, not to die, but to survive.

“I love you,” I said.

He tilted his head to kiss me again except this time it was a gentle caress. A velvet touch from his lips reaching deep inside me and taking what I’d already freely given him.

He growled, picked me up and tossed me on the bed then hovered over me, a predator about to devour his prey and I wanted to be devoured.

Kai had found me three times.

He’d found me and brought me back each time. He would always come for me and I wanted to be strong enough to be there for him.

The mattress sagged under his weight as he knelt on it then straddled me. I sighed as he trailed kisses down my neck and toyed with my nipples through my shirt.

I cupped his neck and pulled him in closer. “Show me what you can’t say,” I whispered.

Kai may never tell me he loved me and I accepted that. I didn’t need the words. I just needed him to continue to be the man he was with me.

He stiffened, eyes narrowing as he sat on top of me. Then the corner of his mouth twitched and that playful light reached his eyes. “You brave enough, baby?”

I reached between us and stroked his cock through his pants. “Always.”

He laughed then he showed me how much he loved me.




I woke sore but sated between my legs. I’d been brave, but there was no need to be because Kai had been gentle as he made love to me several times over the last few hours. If I ever had a doubt that Kai loved me as much as he could love anyone, it would’ve been erased last night.

He’d given me the parts of him that I guessed few, if any, had ever seen. The soft, vulnerable parts of Kai. It was why he’d found me. Why he risked everything to get me away from Vault. Why he trusted Deck and his men, and Tristan when he trusted no one.

I reached over to kiss him, but he was gone, the mattress cold where he’d lain with me curled in his arms. I sat up, the sheet clutched to my chest as the bedroom door opened. My heart skipped a beat as my gaze locked on him. God, he always looked so encompassing whenever he walked in a room.

“Tristan says the plane’s nearly at Pearson airport and Connor isn’t doing so well. He’s going to kill himself with all the damage he’s doing.”