One Day Soon (One Day Soon, #1)(24)

“Don’t do what?” I asked, looking up at him.

“Feel sorry for me. I’m okay, aren’t I? All my fingers and toes are still attached. I haven’t been shanked in my sleep. I even got you chocolate,” he grinned.

“How did you end up out here?” I prodded. We had yet to really talk about our pasts. Yoss had never pushed me and I had followed his lead.

But I wanted to know more about this boy who seemed to make it his mission in life to help me.

Yoss opened the bag of Hershey’s Kisses and took out a handful, dropping them on his lap. He peeled the foil off, one at a time, and popped them into his mouth. “These are my favorites.”

“Yoss. Answer me, please,” I pleaded.

“Why does it matter, Imi? Do you really want to hear about my rich daddy who liked to beat on me with whatever he could get his hands on? Do you want me to explain all the horrible ways he’d take his anger out on me when he got drunk? Or how about the day he hit me with a silver bookend so hard that he knocked me unconscious for over an hour. And he didn’t take me to the hospital. He just kept drinking and I woke up in a puddle of my own blood.” Yoss pressed his lips together, reliving memories that I wished I hadn’t made him think about.

“Yoss, I’m sor—”

“I was tired of being scared all the time. I didn’t think anything could be worse than living like that. So I ran away. The * has never looked for me.”

I thought about my mother and her pretty new boyfriend and I realized that no matter how bad my life could be, there was always someone out there that had it much worse.

I hated that that someone was Yoss.

Yoss ate another piece of chocolate. “It doesn’t do anyone any good to talk about that shit, Imi.”

“I just want you to know you can tell me stuff. That I’ll…I’ll listen,” I murmured. I reached down and took his hand, lacing my fingers through his.

I felt him recoil slightly. I knew that he didn’t like to be touched unless he initiated the contact. Any time I tried, he moved away.

I squeezed his hand slightly, loving the feel of his rough palm against mine. Our hands fit together just right.

He was only able to stand it for a few minutes before pulling away. He handed me the rest of his uneaten chocolates before getting to his feet. He pulled out a cigarette and lit it, sucking in smoke and releasing it an aggravated puff. “I have to go out tonight.”

“I’ll come with you,” I said without hesitation. Where Yoss went, I went. That seemed to be a given.

Yoss turned away from me, dropping the cigarette he had barely smoked in a water bottle before rooting through his things until he found his toothbrush and a small, dirty bar of soap. “You can’t,” he responded brusquely.

“Why not? Where are you going?” I pressed.

Yoss’s shoulders were rigid and he wouldn’t look at me. Something about his demeanor felt off. “Look, Imogen, it’s great having you around and all, but I do have a life that doesn’t include you. Now be a big girl and fend for yourself for one evening, alright?” He was being uncharacteristically harsh.

I reared back as if he had slapped me. I could handle nastiness from just about anyone. But not from Yoss.

“Oh. Okay,” I said, sounding small.

Yoss sighed, his shoulders sagging, his face softening. “I’ll be back later. I’ve left a bag of chips and some bagels from this morning underneath my bag.”

“Thanks,” I muttered. I didn’t want him to leave. The Pit was starting to fill up with people who were seeking shelter for the night. Every day new people came and familiar ones left. It was a revolving door. I held onto my fear because it was the smart thing to do. I couldn’t forget for one moment how risky it was out here for a girl. For anyone.

But I hadn’t let it consume me because Yoss had never left me alone.

Until tonight.

I thought about Tag, the guy who had tried to hurt me that first night, and I wondered if he was around somewhere. I had seen him a few times in the last couple of weeks, but he never approached me. And I knew that was because of Yoss. But what if he found me while Yoss was gone? If not him, what about some other guy with bad intentions?

Yoss glanced back, the hard set of his mouth relaxing. He knelt down in front of me, our faces level. “Shane and Karla said they’d keep you company.”

I made a face. “How about just Shane?”

Yoss chuckled. “You don’t like Karla?”

“Are you kidding me? She’d tear out my kidneys and sell them in a heartbeat,” I remarked dryly.

“I think you’re being overly dramatic, don’t ya think? Karla likes you just fine,” he protested.

“Then you’re either an idiot or completely blind.” Yoss’s eyebrows disappeared into his hairline.

“Wow, tell me how you really feel, Imi.”

“She’s totally into you. She sees me as a threat,” I told him, rolling my eyes.

Yoss laughed lightly and then leaned forward, just slightly, his forearms brushing against my knees and I shivered. Why was he always making me tremble?

“And are you?”

“Am I what?” I asked, swallowing thickly. His eyes burrowed holes through me.

“A threat,” he said softly.