Oaths and Omissions (Monsters & Muses #3)(41)

“Boston?” Mama’s face screws up, and she signals for one of the caterers to top off her merlot. “Oh, no. There’s nothing for Helene there but trouble.”

“She seems to do a good job of finding that in Aplana,” Daddy says. He follows it with a chuckle, but the dark look he gives pins me with shame, and I wring my hands together to keep from getting up and letting violence take over.

Rage funnels into my stomach, sifting into my bloodstream until my vision is decorated with splashes of red. The urge to strike is hot and prevalent, making my hand twitch.

I twist harder.

At my side, Cash tries to redirect the conversation. “Personally, I think it looks good for the Primrose name to see Lenny outside the compound. Makes her seem more relatable.”

Mama scoffs. “The media loves her.”

“That’s right.” Daddy snaps his fingers, drawing the attention of a man in a sweater-vest at the table behind us. “Paulie! Remember those commercials we shot back in the day? All Lenny had to do was smile at the camera, and people ran to their phones to invest or donate, or whatever else.”

“She single-handedly raised thousands of dollars in relief funds after the hospital fire a decade or so ago, remember?” Paulie says, tapping a spoon on the table. “The ad copy for that practically wrote itself.”

I see Jonas tense up from the corner of my eye, though I’m not exactly sure why. It’s not him they’re talking about like he’s not here.

“Just ’cause the media loves her, doesn’t mean the people do.” Cash shrugs. “Her popularity is what gets the brand deals and sponsorships.”

“Which she hasn’t had in years,” Palmer adds, like that’s helpful.

Frowning, I gulp down a breath. Release it too quickly, so the air rushes out and I’m left dizzy. “It hasn’t been that long. I took a break when I went to Vermont and haven’t accepted any since my return, because I’ve been focusing on me.”

“Do you have any idea how bad that looks on the company?” Daddy snaps, his frustration mounting along with the crimson shade of his face. “Withdrawing from society is one thing, but now you’re shacked up with a goddamn criminal, and—”

He cuts himself off, seeming to recall too late that there are more guests than family here. One of the suited guys beside Preston shifts, rubbing the back of his neck as if uncomfortable, and a few people from other tables lean in to whisper to each other.

My anxiety skyrockets, bile teasing the back of my throat as I glare at my plate. Wishing I hadn’t agreed to this in the first place.

“It’s a big change, is all,” Mama finishes, giving a placating smile to the crowd. Some people jot down in their little notebooks, and I wonder if they’re reporters or gossip bloggers. “Letting go of your baby girl is never easy.”

Tears form in her eyes, and the child in me wants to believe her. Wants to think she means it, that she misses me and is having a hard time losing me.

But the truth is, my moving out wasn’t a catalyst. It was the final straw. A symptom of a much larger issue that’d been going on under Mama’s nose for months, and she chose not to pay attention.

Chose to take Daddy’s side without even listening to what I was trying to tell her.

“Anyway,” Palmer says, plucking a piece of fruit from Troy’s plate. “When’s the wedding?”

Neither Jonas nor myself answers, apparently too lost in the fog of our own thoughts. I feel the weight of speculation and look up, noting that the entire table is staring at us.

Shifting, I unclasp my hands and stretch them, before tangling them together in my lap again.

“We haven’t really discussed it yet,” I say.

Preston’s jaw almost unhinges. “What? You’re engaged, and you haven’t even talked about your wedding?”

I shrug. “The engagement is still relatively new, and—”

“When we dated, we had everything planned. Down to the guest list.”

Jonas’s eyes snap to mine, and warmth floods my cheeks. It’s not like it was a secret, and yet for some reason, there’s a flash of betrayal in that violet gaze, and it feels like a lead weight’s been dropped directly onto my chest.

Across the table, Preston grins, elbowing his buddy as Jonas sits taller in his seat. “What, did you guys not talk about that either?”

My fingers go numb with how tight I’m twisting.

He tips his head back and laughs, the sound drowning out whatever Mama tries to say next. “Classic bug. Too embarrassed to admit how you used to get ridden hard and put away wet every—”

It feels like my chest caves in, his words making my stomach churn. The brush between my breasts digs into my rib cage, and I consider how much effort it would take to launch myself across the table and drive it into one of his eye sockets.

Daddy’s fist comes down on the table at the same time a hand finds my thigh. I swallow a gasp when the rough fingers pull mine apart, slipping beneath and keeping me from inflicting more damage.

My fingers ache, and I track the hand as it travels up, finding it attached to a thick wrist with a corded bracelet. Jonas scoots closer, his arm hidden by the white satin tablecloth, and his thumb smooths circles over my knuckles.

“Goodness, Preston,” Mama says, casting a nervous look around the tables. Her composure is hanging by a thread, unspooling with each minute that passes.