Made You Up(80)

“Watch out, babe, she’s dangerous,” Cliff said to Ria, holding out an arm like he was going to protect her from something. Protect her from you, idiot. I gritted my teeth and tried not to look at them.

“I’m not dangerous,” I said, keeping my voice level.

“Yeah, and your boyfriend isn’t a Nazi,” Ria scoffed.

For a second I wondered what Miles ever saw in her. She must’ve been horrible to him, because nothing else would make him hate her so much.

Now I understood why the nicknames made Miles so upset, and I couldn’t listen to it anymore. “Don’t call him that.”

“Really?” Ria blinked, eyes wide and innocent. “Because he’s kind of asking for it today.”

Anger balled up in my chest. “And you’re kind of asking to be called a bitch.”

I hardly realized I was saying the words until they were out of my mouth.

Ria almost dropped her soda. Her voice turned flat and sharp and deadly. “What did you just call me?”

I couldn’t back down now. “You’re a bitch. Sleeping with other guys just to make him jealous”—I jabbed a finger at Cliff—”is pretty far into the definition of bitch, I think.”

Ria’s knuckles turned white around the soda bottle. I really really hoped she didn’t charge at me—my legs weren’t going to move very fast, even if I asked them.

“Take that back,” she said, voice tight. “Fucking take it back, or I swear to God—”

I didn’t listen to the rest of her threat—I lowered my head and walked past them, toward the concession stand, to wherever Miles was. Coming to this game didn’t seem like such an awesome idea anymore. I took deep gulps of air, thinking about the trouble I could get into for saying things like that to people like Ria. I could already imagine them formulating a plan. Fuck. Oh, f*ck.

I needed to find Miles.

I didn’t have to look far. I spotted him walking toward the visitors’ bleachers. My heart jumped into my throat and my stomach dropped, leaving a gaping void in my chest where vital things belonged.

He was a Nazi.

Or he was dressed like one. The brown suit. The black boots and gloves. The hat. The glaring armband. A saber hung at his side and the German flag from East Shoal’s Flags-of-the-World entryway rested against one shoulder. He pulled his hat off and wiped his forehead. He’d gelled his hair back, finally putting it in some kind of order.

It wasn’t until his eyes met mine that the realization this was really happening hit me. When he saw me, his gaze didn’t turn glassy and hard and cold. It softened into something deeper than recognition. The eyes were his. The rest was not.

I hurried over to him, stopped ten feet away, and hugged my chest so he wouldn’t see me shaking.

“You’re going to get arrested!” I hissed, barely daring to raise my voice above a whisper. “What are you doing?”

“They can’t arrest me for wearing an outfit,” Miles said, his eyebrows creasing. “Besides, I’m the mascot, see?” He nudged the saber sheathed at his hip.

“Hey, it’s Schizo Ridgemont!”

Some kids I knew from Hillpark walked by, looking shocked to see me alive. Miles whipped around, yelling at them in rapid German. The Hillpark kids shut up in surprise.

“I realize that you think you have to keep doing this, but . . .” I yanked on my hair. “But you’re dressed up like a Nazi. What about everything you said to Cliff? About not wanting people to call you that?” I hesitated. “How much . . . how much did they pay you to do this?”

Miles didn’t reply.

Someone passing by laughed loudly, and I caught the words, “The Nazi and the Communist.”

“Shut up!” I yelled. “You’re all so f*cking inconsiderate! I’m trying to talk!” I turned back to Miles, lowering my voice again. “You don’t need to degrade yourself like this.”

That was a terrible cover-up, and he knew it, and I could tell that he knew it. The truth was that I was terrified of Nazis, and here one stood. “Please take the uniform off,” I whispered. “Please.”

He stared at me with a strange expression on his face and took a few steps forward, reaching out for me; I took a few steps back in response. He pulled his hat off and blinked at the sun in his eyes.

“Okay. Just give me a few minutes. My other clothes are in the pool locker room.”