Love At First Glance (Love at Firsts #1)(37)

“Great. So, how was your day? Did you get my note?” he asks before cursing someone on the road.

“Drive carefully.” I scold him.

“I am, a f*cking jerk cut me off.”

“Okay then. Day was alright, I did most of it yesterday afternoon so I didn’t have much to do, it was rather boring. And yes I did it. You know you should have called me and you could have joined us.”

“Us? You mean, you and Valentine?” he asks getting upset again.

“What’s with you and Valentine for f*ck’s sake? And no, it was me, Alicia and Matt,” I answer getting annoyed.

“Sorry.” He sighs. “I just can’t stand the guy.”

“I know but why? You still haven’t told me anything besides the fact that he’s a dickhead, which he’s really not.”

“Can you not defend him?”

“I’m not defending him. I’m just stating a fact. He keeps asking if we’ve patched things up. He feels bad for pissing you off and mess things up between us.”

“Right. He didn’t ruin things between us.”

“Surely looks like it, you’ve been distant and avoiding me ever since we met him.”

He sighs. “I just don’t like the way he looks at you like you’re a piece of steak.”

“Great, you’ve made me want steak now!” I groan.

“I’m being serious, Have.”

“I know. I was trying to lighten up the mood. Look, I don’t know what you think is wrong with Valentine and clearly you’re not going to tell me, which is frankly quite heartbreaking. I just want us to be like we were before I slipped that stupid note under his door. I want my best friend back. I want my Spencer back. I hate that we haven’t had a single conversation without fighting since Saturday and that we haven’t seen each other at all since it happened. You keep turning me down when I invite you over and you blew me off to go f*ck some woman when you said you had work to do.”

“Don’t try and turn this around on me. You’re the one who blew me off and accepted his invitation when you knew we already had plans. I know I told you to go out more and meet new people, but I didn’t tell you to go out with the first guy you meet. I’m hurt too, Haven.” He sighs and I can hear how much I’ve hurt him.

“I never meant to hurt you. I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal. I thought you’d be happy to see me get out there and say yes for once. I’m really sorry. I wish I could take it back.”

“Me too, Have. Me too…” He sighs sadly.

“Can you come over? Please.” I’m ready to beg if necessary.

“Not tonight.”

“Why not?” I ask. I thought we were going in the right direction.

“I’m still stuck in traffic, I think there was an accident so there’s no telling when I’ll be home. I need to do some thinking too.”

“Thinking about?” I ask worried.

“Work, us, life in general.”

“You’re worrying me, Spencer.”

“I’m worrying myself too, Have.”

“You’re not going to do something stupid, are you?”

He chuckles.” Of course not. Don’t be a ditz.”

“I saw a right one earlier, I actually made her believe there was a ghost in the elevator. Scared her shitless.” I snicker, still worried.

“That’s my Have.” I sigh happily when I hear him call me ‘my Have’. It’s so good to hear. “I promise. I won’t do anything stupid, and if I ever did you’d have my ghost hunting the shit out of you, scolding you every chance it could.” He jokes.

“Don’t joke about that. While the thought of it is funny, I wouldn’t make it in a world without you.”

“You would, you’re stronger than you think.”

“Why do I feel like you’re breaking up with me and we’re not even together?” I try to hold it together but it’s getting hard.

“I’m not, I promise. I just need to think about my life. I promise we’ll have our Friday Night this Friday. I wouldn’t miss it for anything.” I can hear the smile in his voice but something is still off.

“You better keep your promise.”

“I always do, Love.”

“I know.”

“I have to go, I’ll text you when I get home. Okay?”

“Why do you have to go? If you’re stuck in traffic I can keep you company. I don’t mind.” I wait for him to answer, but I hear his car door open and no sound of pissed off people, actually, I hear no sound at all. “You’re not stuck in traffic, are you?” I feel my heart breaking. We’ve never lied to each other before, so why is he lying to me now?

“I…no.” He sighs and I hear the door close.

“Have fun while I worry about you. I thought we would never lie to each other. That’s twice in two days.”

“Have, don’t be like that,” he pleads.

“Like what? Like I’m feeling stupid because you won’t be honest with me and why you’ve been a dick to me since Saturday? You know what? Have fun, call me when you grow a pair. As stupid as I am, I’ll be here for you because you’re my best friend and I love you. I’ll always be there for you, even when you’re being a dick to me. You’re all I have that matters in my life. You’re the single most important person in my life and you’ll always be.” I don’t wait for an answer as I hang up and break down in tears.