Indecent Danger (Danger Incorporated #3)(23)

“I think there’s something wrong with me.”

She’d said it out loud.

“Can you be slightly more specific?”

“I–I really don’t enjoy it.” The words choked in her throat. “At all. I’m not sure what all the fuss is about.”

“Is that what all this drama is about? Aubrey, I’m not surprised. You had sex with groping, teenage boys. Men – good men, anyway – do things much differently. They actually care if you’re having a good time.”

“I don’t want to disappoint Travis. What if the problem is me?”

She was well aware she was trying Gigi’s patience. Logically Aubrey knew what Gigi said made sense, but this situation had very little to do with logic and everything to do with emotion.

“What if it isn’t? Trust me, there are a bunch of really selfish *s out there who have no clue about the female anatomy. And don’t care to learn. Just answer me this…do you enjoy it when Travis kisses you?”

Oh hell yes.

“Of course I do.”

“Does the room get warm and your heart race?”

“How did you know that? Are you some sort of creepy Peeping Tom on my dates with Travis? Do I need to have a talk with West about you walking in your sleep perhaps?”

Gigi’s giggles filled Aubrey’s ear. “I know because that’s how I feel with West, and I can tell you from experience that if you feel that way it is not you. I’ve had some pretty crappy sex too. With the right guy? It’s great. The only thing you have to ask yourself is if Travis is the right man. Don’t let me, Travis, society, or anyone else push you into anything. It’s okay if you don’t want to have sex. It’s okay if you do but you want to wait. For later. For marriage. Whatever. It’s okay, sis.”

The only place pressure was coming from was from herself. She’d put herself in this predicament and only she could stop it.

“I want to. You know, when the time is right.”

“There you go. It will happen when it happens. In the meantime cut yourself some slack. Don’t have sex with him because you think you should or because you’re grateful that he didn’t think you were a slut. Neither one of those reasons are good ones. You’ll only regret it afterward and I think you already have enough sex issues without adding to them, don’t you think?”

Too many and it was time to do something about them.

“I want it to be right. I know that sounds childish.”

“You’ve closed off a very important part of yourself for a long time, sis, and it’s only natural that you want your return to it to be something special. It should be. If it’s not, then don’t do it.”

“You make sense. I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself for everything to be perfect.”

Aubrey heard Gigi’s sharp intake of breath. “Ohhhh, I get it now. You want it to be the deflowering you didn’t get in high school.”

Rolling over to her stomach, Aubrey buried her face in a pillow. “It’s so stupid. I’ve heard other women’s stories and I know it’s not puppies and unicorns most of the time, so I’m not sure why I’m so obsessed with making the first time with Travis so wonderful.”

“I’ll easily admit my first time was nothing to write home about.” Gigi laughed on the other end of the line. “The only thing positive I can really say is that it was over quickly, which was probably a blessing because it hurt like a bitch.”

Aubrey remembered her own first time vividly. “I wish my first time was for a better reason than wanting love and attention from some jerk.”

“Do you think my first time was much better?” Gigi scoffed. “Hell, I was pressured into it by my boyfriend who said that if I really loved him I’d put my mouth on his dick. It certainly wasn’t because I couldn’t help myself like with West.”


“I wished I’d waited until Travis. If I had then I wouldn’t be going through all this nonsense.”

More laughter. Aubrey was glad she could amuse Gigi with all her problems. “If you had waited then you’d be nervous about the unknown. Face it, sis. We’re damned if we do and damned if we don’t. If we have sex and enjoy it, we’re sluts. If we don’t have sex or enjoy it, then we’re repressed and something is wrong with us. We should just do whatever the hell we want and forget about everyone else.”

Gigi was absolutely right. Aubrey had been letting herself worry about other people for far too long. “Did I mention that you’re the best big sister ever?”

“I’m always here for you, no matter what.”

“As much as I love Zach this probably isn’t something he could have helped me with,” Aubrey sighed, thinking about her adorable brother. He wasn’t a virgin by any means but he liked to pretend that she and Gigi were.

“If Zach could he’d put chastity belts on the two of us and castrate West and Travis. All of this definitely stays between us. Are you going to be okay now? I was serious about West and I flying down there if you need us.”

Big sister would save little sister at the drop of a hat, but Aubrey had been on her own for too long to allow that to happen.

“I’m fine. Travis is here and so is Shane. I’m as safe as a kitten.”