In the Arms of a Marquess(82)

Octavia’s.

He swallowed around the ache in his throat, set his glass on the desk, and took up the letter.

“You needn’t read it. I am here now, so I can just as easily tell you.”

She stood in the doorway, the dim light from the corridor casting her in silhouette. Samuel hovered behind, as though she had gotten in front of him unawares. Astounding. But Octavia Pierce had never been anything but.

“You are here,” he said as though in a dream. But he did not trust dreams. He trusted in very little any longer. Except, perhaps, this woman.

She drew the door shut in Samuel’s face and pressed her back against it.

“I realize this constitutes intruding upon you at home again.” She spoke quickly. “But given everything, I thought perhaps that prohibition might be relaxed, although frankly it probably should not be for the sake of my reputation, especially at this late hour. I did come in a hackney, though.”

“Octavia—”

“This must be tiresome for you.”

He shook his head and barely managed the word, “Tiresome?”

“Well, I always seem to be coming to you in order to share some awful news and ask your help f—” She faltered. “—for another man.”

“Is that why you are here now?”

“Yes. No. Yes. Perhaps. I don’t know.” Her eyes swam with the same distress as that night at Fellsbourne before the rain.

“I will help you if I can.” He would, whether she still wanted Crispin or not. He simply could not prevent himself from doing so. “I will help.”

She pushed away from the door and moved swiftly across the chamber. She halted a stride from him, seeming to balance upon the balls of her feet. Her gaze sought.

“Is this all right?” she whispered. “That I am here?”

“You must know it is.”

She threw herself against his chest and he grabbed her up and wrapped his arms around her.

“I am miserable.” Her words came muffled into his coat. “I want to laugh again. Please make me laugh. It used to be you always could.”

“I did so to see you smile. But forgive me, shalabha, at present you do not seem in a jesting mood.”

A half laugh, half sob stumbled from her throat. She grasped his waistcoat and pressed her body close.

“Then make me sigh. Make me weep with pleasure as you did in the country when I forgot about everything else. Now, Ben, please. I need you.”

His hands rounded her back to fit her against him, his throat thick.

“Making you weep seems to be my specialty.”

She groaned softly, a sound at once of unhappiness and release.

“No. Not in the manner you mean.” Her face lifted. “Others did, occasionally. Perhaps even I did. But not you.” She rose onto her toes and touched her lips to his chin, the sweetest caress that ran through his body like silvered water. “Except that once, of course, for about six months.” Her eyes closed, her lips making a seductive exploration of his jaw, her hands stroking across his chest. Ben felt her, and his body followed his heart’s aching.

“Six months.” He barely breathed.

“Until I returned from Calcutta with my aunt and uncle and learned you had gone. I stopped weeping then. Tears, you know, are born of despair, but also of hope.”

He kissed her open mouth, threading his fingers through her hair and holding her close. But she wanted more. Her hands sought, her tongue hot and her sublimely curved body restless against him. She kissed his neck, unwinding his cravat and unbuttoning his waistcoat with quick fingers.

“Will you again make me ask you to take me to your bed?”

“No. But Octavia, the servants—”

“Are like the king’s Yeoman of the Guard. I have noticed this. And well they should be. But even if they were not I wouldn’t care. I want to live as myself again, Ben. I want to feel happiness, and the last time I felt that I was naked and in your arms.”

He picked her up and carried her to the stairs, taking them three at a time and pausing to kiss her at the top of the flight. She twined her arms about his neck, her breaths heavy.

“Go. Go quickly,” she uttered with the same urgency pressing at him.

In his bedchamber the door slammed shut and their mouths locked, hands tearing at clothing until she wore only a thin shift. He pulled her to the bed, unfastening his trousers and dragging her down onto his lap. She straddled him and twisted to tug the chemise over her head, revealing her lissome beauty in a sensuous stretch that mounted the pounding in Ben’s blood. His hands circled her waist, her butter-soft skin hot and flushed beneath his mouth as he kissed her belly, along each rib, caressing the undersides of her breasts with impatient fingers then sweeping his thumbs over their velvet centers. They rose to his touch. With his mouth he covered a tight pink peak, teased her arousal with his tongue, and she arched to bring him closer.

She was beautiful everywhere, the hearth light illuminating her skin to gilded ivory, her half-lidded eyes rich and sparkling with flame. He slipped his hand between her thighs and stroked her. She moaned, damp and taut to his touch, and pressed into him, impatience in the sensuous thrust of her hips.

“Ben.” Her voice was thin. “I—” Her palms slipped to his face, turning him up to meet her fevered gaze. Tumbling from its pins, her hair like molten fire cascaded before her eyes now wide with passion but another urgency too. “I never accepted Marcus until you told me to. He offered, but I said I needed time to consider. He announced the betrothal at Fellsbourne without my consent.”