Heart Recaptured (Hades Hangmen, #2)(35)

The silence around the table was deafening. Cowboy cleared his throat and said, “Lilah, this is f*ckin’ incredible. Your purdy ass better be cooking again soon.”

Lilah looked up as if in shock.

“Yeah, woman, best steak I ever had,” Hush added.

Tears were building in Lilah’s eyes and her bottom lip began to tremble.

“Sweet cheeks?” Lilah finally looked at me and I lifted my full fork. “You wanna cook again for Hush and Cowboy?”

“Yes,” she whispered.

“Good. But you f*ckin’ eat with us too,” I said, and I saw a tear finally spill down her cheek.

“Thank you,” she said so quietly I almost missed it. My gut clenched and I wanted to f*ckin’ pick up her slim ass and carry her to my bed.

And not for sex. Shock-f*ckin’ horror. I just wanted her to feel worthy. I mean, f*ck, she was more than shitting worthy, stunning, a damn sweetheart, and she could cook like Paula Dean.

Hush got up from his seat and went to the fridge, pulling out a Bud. He popped the top, then slammed it down in front of Lilah. Lilah stared at the bottle, obviously confused.

“Beer,” Hush said. “Goes f*ckin’ perfect with steak.”

She looked to me, and I said, “By the balls, Li. Life by the balls.”

She offered a timid smile, lifted the bottle slowly to her lips, tried the beer, spat it out, laughed about it, and damn near crushed my whore heart.

She’d tried it.

Hated it.

But f*ckin’ took life by the balls.

*****



Lilah wiped the last of the countertops with Lysol, then turned to me. She’d been real quiet all night but had answered Hush and Cowboy when they spoke to her, listened and laughed at things they said. It was the most normal thing we’d done since I’d started teaching her this life shit.

“You hitting the hay?” I asked, seeing it was real late.

“Can I go to the river to pray first?” she asked, hopeful. I nodded. Walking to the exit, Lilah followed behind.

The river to f*cking pray. It was every night. She went there every night, throwing herself on the ground, speaking in tongues, and every night, I watched her from the bank as she went into that water—fully clothed—and when she came out, she was always calmer, happier… cleansed she would say. That bitch’s faith was her everything. Ain’t nothing was gonna change it.

We walked to the river in silence. I sat down, my back leaning against a rock, and pulled out a smoke. I pointed to the patch of dirt she always prayed at. “Have at it, sweet cheeks. I’ll wait here.”

Normally, Lilah would go straight there, but tonight she hovered. Lighting up my smoke, I glanced up at her, eyebrow raised.

“May I sit?” Lilah asked and pointed beside me.

I nodded. Tucking her dress in at the back, she sat beside me, her vanilla smell beating off the smoke and filling my nose.

Why the f*ck did she always smell of vanilla?

“You good, Li?” I asked when she did nothing but watch the flow of the river, only lifting her head to watch the stars.

“You let me eat with you,” she hushed out in a tiny voice.

Pulling hard on my smoke to stop a lump building in my throat, I blew it out slowly, trying to keep from losing it. “You cook, you sit with us, and you eat with us. Easy.”

“But you let me eat with you,” she stressed, and I saw more tears fall down her cheeks. She was looking at me like she ain’t ever seen me before. Like I was something special and not some man slut forced to take care of her. “Ky…” She went on. “No man has ever let me do this before.”

As my grip tightened on my smoke, I snapped the f*cking thing and threw the ruined stick to the ground. “Li, you ain’t in that place now. You do what the f*ck you want.”

Her attention fell to her feet. “You complimented my food. You… you said thank you to me for preparing your meal.”

“Christ, Lilah…”

Her hand covered mine on the grass, and our gazes clashed, feeling the f*cking electricity that always hummed between us. “You made me feel like an equal, tonight, Ky. Like I was a woman of worth.”

“Lilah…” I said, exasperated. “What did those f*ckers do to you? How the f*ck did they make you a Cursed? ‘Cause all this self-deprecating shit is hard to take.”

Lilah stared at the grass and said, “I had a family once… years ago…”

My eyebrow rose. “You did?”

She nodded but never said no more. “Then tell me,” I pushed, and Lilah’s worried gaze met mine.

Slumping her shoulders, her voice barely audible, she said, “It all happened when I was six…”





Chapter Nine


Eighteen Years Ago

Commune of The Order

Undisclosed Location





Lilah





“Child. Go play with Micah in the back room. I have business to discuss with Brother Luke.”

I nodded my head, dutifully obeying my father, and skipped down the hallway, twirling my long blue skirt as I did so. It was hot outside, but as a child, I had to wear the long blue dress of pure, modest women. I loved my dress. It made me feel pretty.

Humming a graceful melody to myself, I became distracted. Just as I was about to pass the washroom on my left, the door opened. I immediately stopped humming, immediately stopped twirling my skirt, and lowered my head in dutiful obedience.