Ginger's Heart (A Modern Fairytale, #3)(50)

“So full of yourself.”

And that was it. He just couldn’t bear her rancor anymore. He owed her an apology, and by God, she was going to get one.

“Princess,” he drawled, taking a step toward her, “I know I was an ass to you once upon a time, but I swear I’ve changed.”

“You seem the same,” she murmured, though her face softened with uncertainty. She licked her lips unconsciously, and he knew—beyond any shadow of doubt—that she was suddenly remembering their kiss in as much detail as he was.

“I’m sorry, Gin,” he said tenderly, taking another step toward her. “I’m so f*ckin’ sorry I stood you up that night.”

She clenched her jaw, and though her eyes were severe, they flooded with tears as she stared back at him. “You hurt me bad, Cain.”

He nodded. “I know. I’m sorry.”

“Why didn’t you say anythin’ before now? Why didn’t you ever write to me, Cain?” she asked, taking a step in his direction, closing the distance between them.

“Because you weren’t my girl.”

“I was. I wanted to be.”

His arms, appendages he’d warned not to open to her under any circumstances, spread wide, and Ginger stepped forward, her forehead landing on the bare skin of his neck as he embraced her, holding his breath and closing his eyes. The bony angles of her teenage body had rounded into womanhood, and as she clasped him to her body, her curves cradled his muscles.

And all thoughts of Mary-Louise Walker, and every other female creature, were banished from his mind. Cain had known a lot of women in his life—a f*ckload of women—but no woman made his heart race, made his breath catch, made his insides a trembling mess of longing like Ginger McHuid. His chemistry with her, ever since her twelfth birthday, had been catastrophic and unmatched, and holding her now was no f*cking different at all. If anything, they were both mature adults now, and Cain was hotter and needier than ever.

“I’ve missed you, princess,” he muttered into her hair, pressing his lips to the citrus-scented golden strands. “I f*ckin’ missed you.”

“Cain,” she sobbed, and he felt the moisture of her tears against his skin, sliding between his pecs, baptizing him with her sorrow. “I missed you too.”

“I dreamed of you, Gin.”

“Every night,” she murmured, her lips touching down on the exposed V of his chest and making him shudder. Christ. More.

“Ginger, I . . .”

“Cain, I’m yours.”

You staked your claim years ago.

She’s yours.

Woodman.

He froze, his hands lifting from her back as he took a sudden step away. She swayed slightly, unprepared for the loss of his body against hers. He reached out and put his hands on her shoulders to steady her and took a deep breath, willing his body not to react to her nearness.

“Ginger . . .” He swallowed over the lump in his throat and offered her a neutral smile as he uttered words he’d never before in his life said to a woman. “I just want us to be friends, Gin. Just friends, if that’s okay.”

“Friends,” she repeated dumbly, staring up at him in confusion.

He nodded, pulling his hands away from her now that she was standing on her own. “Yeah. Friends. We . . . we grew up together, Gin. We should be friends, not enemies, don’t you think?”

“Cain, I—”

“I missed home,” he said, trying to explain away the passionate way he’d just held her. “Of course I missed you, but I also missed my pop and Apple Valley and even McHuid’s. I missed home. I dreamed of it all the time.”

Her eyes searched his, boring into his with the familiarity of someone who’d known him his whole life. She was confused and hurt, but talking about it wouldn’t help, would only weaken his resolve. He wanted her so badly, he ached inside, but he wouldn’t take away the girl who was Woodman’s primary hope. Not when his cousin was still so goddamned hopeless.

“Friends,” he said firmly. “That’s all.”

She looked so lost, so disappointed, he couldn’t bear it, so he turned his back to her, clenching his eyes shut against the pain of keeping her at arm’s length as he crossed the kitchen and stopped at the sink. He braced his hands on the basin, his fingers clawlike on the porcelain rim. “Let me take a look at this, okay?”

“Okay, Cain,” she said softly, her voice hitching just a little.

Turning around to look at her, he saw the sadness on her face, but her sweet lips lifted up in a little smile—the first genuine one she’d offered him in three years—and his heart flooded with something big—no, huge—and warm, making it expand in his chest and thunder in his ears.

“It’s okay,” she said gently, and just like that, two little words that were common, everyday, ordinary words became his favorite because she wasn’t pushing him for something he couldn’t give, and accepting what he could.

He exhaled a breath he didn’t know he’d been holding.

“I’m glad,” he said.

And despite the disappointment in her eyes, and the unsatisfied longing in his heart, he was glad. A not insignificant part of him was glad that he’d had an opportunity to betray Woodman again, and this time, he hadn’t taken it.