Full Tilt (Full Tilt #1)(6)
I shredded my solos. All the liquor I’d drunk on an empty stomach turned the stage lights into blurry orbs of white. The faces in the crowd melted together, becoming one roaring, churning, electric mass. I fed off of the energy, sucking in their screaming approval and spitting it back out with every chord and progression until my fingers bled, and at the end of the show, I nearly smashed my Fender onto the stage.
As the last notes of the last song vibrated in the air and then vanished, the crowd lost its collective shit. I was lit up like the Fourth of July, running along the lip of the stage, slapping hands with the front row audience. They grabbed and pulled me over the edge. I laughed and laughed, surfing on a wave of adoring hands, drunk as hell and high on being loved.
The boulder of Hugo and his team rolled into the crowd, hauled me down, and marched me out. But I didn’t want it to end. I called to the crowd around me.
“I love you all so much! Come back with me…” I pointed at random strangers. “Come with me! Let’s keep the party going…”
Hugo dragged me to the green room where the band was celebrating. Champagne spewed through the air in gold and foamy arcs. I grabbed a bottle out of someone’s hand and downed half of it in one draught. I shouted at security to let in the small crowd I’d invited.
“They’re with me!” I cried.
About two dozen pushed their way in. My band mates were all too high on the heady success of the show to care. Jimmy looked like he was going to fly straight off the ground.
Tossing the champagne aside, I grabbed a bottle at random from the long table of post-show drink and food. Jagermeister.
A bold choice, I thought with a laugh, and let out a scratchy whoop after the liquor burned its way down my throat. The room, filled with my new friends, cheered back. Strange faces I didn’t recognize, whom I’d never remember tomorrow. People who were here for the music and the free booze and entertainment and I, their matron saint of Good Times. I climbed onto a table, and they cheered and raised their bottles to me.
They love me.
The room began to spin as if I were on a carousel. It was too packed in here. No air. Security was trying to squeeze in through the wall of bodies. Glass shattered. Some in the crowd cheered, while others cursed.
Lola yelled for me to get down before I broke my ass, then was lost in the crowd. The huge, hulking shape of Hugo parting the sea like Moses. I tried to lift the emerald green bottle to my lips for one final slug because this party was exploding and I was going to hit bottom and shatter into a million pieces.
My father’s words, four years ago, resounded in my head with just as much clarity as if it were yesterday. Get out! Get out of my house!
“No,” I said, then louder, blearily, my mouth thick and clumsy around the words. “You get out. This is my house. My house.”
I raised my bottle in the air. “This is my house!” I screamed and a hundred million voices raised their own bottles and cheered me on until the sound tore through me like wind through tissue paper.
I laughed or maybe cried, then staggered sideways. The liquor bottle slipped from my fingers just as I slipped from the table, straight into Hugo’s waiting arms. I saw the blackness of his T-shirt, then the blackness behind my eyes swallowed me whole.
The sign above me blinked off and on. Red and white. Pony Club. The edges of the metal were rusted and three of the bulbs lining the edge were burnt out. It looked cheap. Gawdy. Like a lot of Vegas. But when I squinted…
The lights blurred and I could imagine globes of white and red glass. Glass beads, maybe. A bundle of them held together with wire to make a bouquet. My mind pulled the red beads out long, making flattened petals. A poinsettia with white baby’s breath. A Christmas bouquet of glass that never needed watering. My mother would like that. Or maybe Dena. I started to pull out the battered little notepad I kept in the front pocket of my shirt to jot the idea down, then stopped.
Christmas was six months away.
A soft ache tried to take root, and I squashed it with practiced ease, like a lump of gum pressed under a table.
Keep to the routine.
I withdrew my hand and left the notepad where it was.
It was getting loud in the Pony Club. The show had supposedly ended an hour ago, but the shouts and whoops of some epic party were loud and clear—if muffled—through the cement of the venue’s back wall.
I pulled my cell phone from the front pocket of my uniform slacks to check the time. It was nearly one a.m. The limo was commissioned only until two, but I could already tell this was going to be a night of enforced overtime.
But what did I care if the job ran late? I didn’t sleep much these days and I could use the money. I’d stay until the band and their manager came oozing out of the venue, wasted and reeking, and take them back to the mega-mansion in Summerlin where I’d picked them up at five that evening.
The upside to driving at night was it left me time to work during the day. The downside was the down time. So many empty hours spent waiting for my fare to get done with dinner or the show, or to finally emerge from the casino, stinking of booze and smoke and—more often than not—mourning their losses at the blackjack or poker tables.
Limo drivers tended to band together at events, lined up outside the venue in a train of sleek black or white vehicles. I saw the same faces at different jobs, and some were my own co-workers at A-1 Limousine. But I had to avoid smoke, and I wasn’t interested in making new buddies. I kept to myself, to my routine.