Fall From Grace(93)

He didn’t even flinch from the slap. He just arched his stupidly perfect eyebrow at me, as if I was a joke to him.

“You cold f*cking bastard!  What will you erase it with, your dick?  You really think sleeping with you is that f*cking awesome?  I love someone, Shane, with my whole heart.  Don’t you understand what that means?  Do you even have a heart inside that body of yours?”  I cried.  Hot tears poured down my face.  They came down to defend my angel, the one I could never seem to find.

He drew his hands back and leaned against the door, looking right into my teary eyes, expressionless.  “No, Grace.  I don’t have a heart.  I did once, but I gave it to a girl and I let her keep it when she died.  That’s why I am the way I am, why every girl is just another piece of ass to me. No one has ever come close to making me feel the way she did.  But shit, Grace, I would do anything to erase her, to not feel that f*cking hole in my life.”

I couldn’t look at him any longer.  I would have bet my life on him lying to get me to have sex with him right there out of pity.  Like I would be the one that could tame him. I wondered how many poor girls got their heart crushed by those words.  I’d burn in hell before I became someone’s piece of ass!  “Let’s just keep trying our cells, so we can finally get out of this box, forget everything that’s happened, and move on with our lives.  You can go back to your adoring Pieces of Ass, and I can go back to being alone. Everyone gets to live happily ever after.”

“Holy shit, Grace!  Do you not listen to anything?  Grace, that’s not a kiss I’m ever going to forget.  Looking at the way I f*cking make you cry, I wish like hell I could forget it, but I freaking can’t!  I want you!”  He grabbed my hands and pinned them together.

“Don’t do this, Shane.”

“Why?  Lie to me and tell me you don’t f*cking feel that need between us,” he yelled.

“Really, Shane? You want to go there? What are you asking me for exactly?  You just want me to spread eagle for you right here, let you have your way with me, get me out of your system?  Then we get out of this and you get to treat me like nothing but a PIECE OF ASS?  You can have a great story to tell the guys-all about how you tapped that ass stuck in a snowstorm.”

He had nothing to say, because I was right.  “This is a nightmare, Shane, me and you.  I woke up crying the other night thinking how you kissed me!”

“Really, Grace?  Why don’t you go ahead and ask me what wakes me up sweaty and trembling every freaking night!  Go ahead, Grace, ask me!” he demanded.  He pulled me closer.

“Get away from me, Shane!” I moaned, moving away.  I clawed his hands off me and I yanked open the Jeep door.  It wouldn’t budge, so I shifted my body and kicked at it until it opened enough for my body to climb out.  All the while, Shane was screaming, cursing, and pleading for me to listen to him.  I pressed the mute button and yanked my shirt back over my head.  “I’m a f*cking novelty to you, just because no other girl has ever had the self-esteem to say no to you!”

I pulled myself out of the car. The snowdrift we were parked in was so high that I was able to climb right onto the roof.  Underneath the hardtop, I could feel Shane kicking the passenger side door open to come after me.

The roof lurched beneath my feet and Shane grabbed my flailing arms, dragging me off the Jeep and into the snow.  “Get away, Shane!”

He lifted me up and tossed me over his shoulder, forcing all the air from my lungs.  Carrying me, he climbed the snowdrifts, as I pounded my fists against his back.  When he found an area sheltered by a tree, he eased me off his shoulder, sliding me down the front of his body.  Oh, holy horror was that freaking hot!