Entwined with You(30)

I wrapped my arms over his, snuggling into him. I told him about the watch. “Maybe I overreacted,” I finished. “I was tired, which makes me irritable. But God … it hurt like hell. It totally ruined a gift that meant a lot to me, you know?”


“I can imagine.” His fingers drew gentle circles across my stomach, caressing me through the silk of my shirt. “I’m sorry.”


I looked toward the windows and saw that night had fallen. “What time is it?”


“A little after eight.”


“What time did you get in?”


“Half past six.”


I wriggled around to face him. “Early for you.”


“Once I knew you were here, I couldn’t stay away. I’ve wanted to be with you since your flowers arrived.”


“You liked them?”


He smiled. “I have to say, reading your words in Angus’s handwriting was … interesting.”


“I’m trying to be safe.”


He kissed the tip of my nose. “While still spoiling me.”


“I want to. I want to ruin you for other women.”


The pad of his thumb brushed over my bottom lip. “You did that the moment I saw you.”


“Sweet talker.” My depression lifted just from being with Gideon and knowing I was his sole focus at that moment. “You trying to get in my pants again?”


“You’re not wearing pants.”


“Is that a no?”


“That’s a yes, I want under your skirt.” His eyes darkened when I nipped his thumb with my teeth. “And inside your hot, wet, tight little cunt. I’ve wanted that all day. I want it every day. I want it now, but we’ll wait until you’re feeling better.”


“You could kiss it and make it better.”


“Kiss what, exactly?”


“Everything. Everywhere.”


I knew I could get used to having him all to myself like this. Knew I wanted to. Which was impossible, of course.


Thousands of little pieces of him were committed to thousands of people and projects and commitments. If I’d learned anything from my mother’s multiple marriages to successful businessmen, it was that wives were often mistresses, almost invariably taking second place because their husbands were also married to their work. There was a reason why a man became a captain in his chosen field—he gave it his all. The woman in his life got what was left.


Gideon tucked my hair behind my ear. “I want this. Coming home to you.”


It always startled me when it seemed like he’d read my thoughts. “Would it have been better if you’d found me barefoot in the kitchen?”


“I wouldn’t be opposed, but naked in bed would work best for me.”


“I’m a decent cook, but you just want me for my body.”


He smiled. “It’s the very delicious package holding everything else I want.”


“I’ll show you mine, if you show me yours.”


“Love to.” His fingertips slid gently down my cheek. “But first, I want to make sure you’re in the right frame of mind after the situation with your mother.”


“I’ll get over it.”


“Eva.” His tone warned me that he wouldn’t be put off.


I sighed. “I’ll forgive her, I always do. I don’t have a choice, really, because I love her and I know she means well, even if she is seriously misguided. But this thing with the watch …”


“Go on.”


I rubbed at the ache in my chest. “It broke something in our relationship. And no matter how we move forward, there’s always going to be that crack there that didn’t exist before. That’s what hurts.”


Gideon was quiet for a long time. One of his hands slid into my hair, while the other curled possessively over my hip. I waited for him to say what was on his mind.


“I broke something in our relationship, too,” he said finally, his voice somber. “I’m afraid it’s always going to be between us.”


The sadness in his eyes twisted into me, hurting me. “Let me up.”


He did, reluctantly, watching me warily as I stood. I hesitated before I unzipped my skirt. “Now I know what it feels like to lose you, Gideon. How badly it hurts. If you shut me out, it’s probably going to make me panic a little. You’ll just have to be careful of that, and I’ll just have to trust that your love is going to stick.”


He nodded his understanding and acceptance, but I could see it was eating at him.


“Magdalene came by today,” I said, to take his mind off the lingering rift between us.


He tensed. “I told her not to.”


“It’s okay. She was probably concerned about me nursing a grudge, but I think she realized I love you too much to hurt you.”


He sat up as I let my skirt drop. It pooled on the floor, revealing my garters and stockings, which earned me a slow hiss through his clenched teeth. I climbed back onto the couch and straddled his thighs, draping my arms around his neck. His breath was hot through the silk of my shirt, stirring my blood.