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“Swallow,” he groans. “Swallow me.”

I swallow every single drop and when he pulls away and the saliva is spilling down my chin, I lean forward and lick his tip.

“I f*cking love you,” he says.

I—can’t move. I can’t speak. I have tears from the stress of being face-f*cked running down my cheeks and I’m sure my eye makeup is all smeared. I must look horrible.

But he just said he loves me.

“I do, Shannon. I knew the first time I saw you, I was going to love you forever. It was one of those things you just know.”

And then he pulls me to my feet and kisses me on the mouth. A long, deep kiss that says more than his words ever will.

He loves me. I can feel it in my core.

He takes my hand and leads me through the kitchen, past the living room, and into the hallway where I’ve never been before. We stop in his bedroom and he kicks off his boots and drops his pants. He takes my hand again and leads me over to his bed and then he lies down and says, “Rub your * over my mouth.”

Fuck. This dirty talk does me in. I gulp some air and then climb onto the bed, straddling his waist and bracing myself with my palms flat on his hard chest.

“Go on, do it,” he encourages me.

I scoot up his body until my knees are resting on the bed on either side of his head. And then I lower myself down.

His tongue reaches up and flicks against my clit.

Oh, God. I might die of pleasure. Is it possible to die of pleasure?

My hips start moving back and forth, his scratchy chin rubbing my tender folds in all the right ways. His tongue darts in and out of my *. He reaches up and squeezes my breasts, and then he pinches my nipples so hard, I have to let out a squeal. He releases them, but smacks the cheek of my ass.

He stops my hips for a moment and looks up at me. I’m mesmerized by his eyes. “Fuck my face like I did yours. And when you come, I’ll flip you over and show you what a good time really feels like.”

I brace my hands on the head board, my knees trembling from keeping myself positioned over the top of him. And then I do exactly what he wants.

I f*ck him. I rub myself all over his chin. His tongue does a dance that I will never understand, but I don’t need to. It’s not a mathematical mystery that requires solving. It’s nothing but pure ecstasy.

And when I come, I come hard. My head falls back as he laps me up. And then he does exactly what he promised. He flips us over and enters me from the top. His palms cradle my cheeks. His mouth kisses my mouth. And we go slow. We look at each other—gaze at each other—as the pleasure builds to something close to infinity.

We come together in every way possible.

It’s moaning, and writhing, and grunting. It’s sex.

But it feels like love.

I might never have understood what that word meant before, but I do now.

Mateo is love.

We lie there afterward, him mostly talking about what we will do in Hawaii, me still focused on the mind-blowing sex. And then it starts to get dark and I know I need to go home. He helps me dress and walks me across the street, kissing me goodbye on the other side of my patio gate, my head spinning from the leftover lust and the loud hum of the 5 freeway.

I’m addicted to him and what he does to my body. There’s no starting over or going back now. I am just addicted and I need more.

I walk inside and drift around the apartment, ignoring Jason’s bad mood as he gathers his stuff to leave for work. And I realize that I never did take my test today.





Chapter Twenty-Eight




Mateo and I settle into a routine after that. I see him every day but Sunday. The science class at Gilbert finishes up mid-February when all my open-book tests for that semester are turned in and I take the C as a grade. So I stop going to Gilbert altogether. Mateo arranges for us to meet in the library at Anaheim on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and even though this is far less fun because we agreed that sexy times are out of the question with Bowman so close, it’s far easier for me to not have to take the bus anymore.

The rest of the days we meet at his house and do the whole naked tutoring, dick-sucking, *-licking, test-taking thing. I don’t know where he gets his problems from. I think he actually makes them up special for me because every one of them has to do with astronomy and he says each of the answers are something he needs for his dissertation project.

I highly doubt that, but I humor him and solve them after we go over examples.

On Saturdays he takes me on a date and it’s never the same place twice. He took me to the planetarium in LA where he said he sorta works. Who knew? Not me. But I guess his dissertation isn’t on stars at all. Not really. It’s on the educational value of laser shows to generate interest in astronomy and math in young people. He didn’t have a show ready for me that day, that’s why we’re going to Hawaii, he said. That’s the first time anyone will see his project and he needs to gather data for his dissertation defense. I guess he’s been traveling for the past year trying to garner support from universities and organizations who use a planetarium as part of their astronomy program and that’s why he was in Arizona when I got sick.

Overachieving nerd. With star tattoos. And a hard body. And a big cock. And that f*cking chin. Oh. My. God.

I’m falling for him.

No, I take that back. I’m on the goddamned ground banging my head against a rock, because if everything goes well on our trip to Hawaii this week, he’ll be traveling a lot doing much the same thing after he defends his dissertation.