Echo (Bleeding Hearts #1)(74)
“It doesn’t bother me.”
I laughed and rolled my eyes. “Sure it doesn’t.”
“I mean it.” He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against him. “I love your little messes.”
The words slipped from his lips unexpectedly, and I could tell they had surprised him too. Since that day in the hospital, he hadn’t outright told me he loved me again. It was an honest admission, and one that made him vulnerable. Something Ryland never liked to be.
“I have to get going,” he said quickly, wiping the moment from existence.
I frowned and started fidgeting, feeling weird about this whole situation. Now that he was better, I didn’t know what I should do.
“I need to find a job,” I blurted.
Ryland leaned down and kissed my cheek as though he’d expected such an outburst. Then he pulled a shiny black card from his wallet. Knowing better than to try to hand it to me right away, he set it on the counter and gave me a moment to come to terms with it.
“I don’t want you to worry about work,” he said. “I want you to focus on your sewing for now.”
“Ryland…”
“And spending time with Nicole,” he added. “Matt has to go back to work today as well, so he’ll be dropping her off here soon.”
I gave him a suspicious glare, wondering if this was a ruse to keep me busy so I didn’t have time to wonder what he was up to. Of course I wanted to look after Nicole, but I’d talked to her every day on the phone, and she sounded much better.
Ryland strode to the door and my opportunity was slipping away. It had to be said. There was no way that it couldn’t be said.
“What are you going to do about Brayden?”
He spun around, and his eyes had turned to ice again.
“I don’t want you to worry about these things, Brighton.”
A dry laugh burst from my throat as I stared at him in disbelief. “Are you kidding me? They’re my family, Ryland. Of course I have to worry about these things.”
“You’re not like them,” he argued.
“Yes, I am.” I frowned. “I’m from the same stock, Ryland. I’m no better, no different. Their blood runs through my veins, and that’s not something that will ever change.”
My words hardened his jaw, and he looked away. I wasn’t going to lie, it stung.
“Is that the only way you can be with me?” I rasped. “To pretend I’m not one of them?”
He closed the distance between us in three long steps, crushing me against him.
“Of course it isn’t.” He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. “I don’t see it that way. I don’t see you that way.”
His words were meant to comfort me, but they didn’t. Because I knew it was true. That in his mind, he had put us all into neat little boxes. He had separated the truth of the situation from reality. He may have wanted to believe I was someone else to ease his own conscience, but it didn’t change anything.
“You didn’t tell the police what he did,” I said, getting back to the topic at hand. “So that means you must be planning something.”
He pulled away and gave me a hurt expression like I was defending the other team.
“I know what he did was wrong.” I pulled him back to me. “But, Ryland, this needs to stop now. I’m here, aren’t I? I took care of you. That shows you how I feel about you. I’m here. I don’t want to lose you, but I don’t want to lose them either.”
“That’s the whole point of the game, Brighton.” He gave me a sad smile. “Somebody has to lose.”
***
Twenty minutes after Ryland left, Matt and Nicole showed up at the door.
“You’ll take care of her?” Matt asked, lingering in the hallway with a frown.
“Of course I will,” I assured him.
“Go.” Nicole shooed him away. “You’re going to be late.”
Matt left, reluctantly, and Nicole sighed as she wandered over to an empty barstool.
“I don’t need to be babysat. It was a stupid mistake.”
“But it wasn’t the first time it’s happened,” I pointed out. “Everybody’s worried about you.”
“I know,” she grumbled. “But it was just too much, you know?”
“I do.” I blew the hair out of my eyes and collapsed beside her.
“How are things going with you anyway?” she asked.
“Well, they’d be better if I didn’t think my boyfriend and my brother still want to kill each other,” I replied without humor.
Nicole nodded and tapped her fingers on the marble countertop. “What are you going to do?”
“What can I do? Neither one of them will be honest with me. And Norma… well she won’t listen to reason either.”
Nicole nodded, obviously not knowing what to say. Like me, she had no idea how to get out of this vortex, but I didn’t want to keep pulling her down with me. So instead, I put on a smile, and tugged her hand as I stood up from the breakfast bar.
“C’mon, I want to show you something.”
***
“Brighton, these are gorgeous.” Nicole ran her fingers over the tutus with the first honest happiness I’d seen on her face in a while.