Dream a Little Dream (Chicago Stars, #4)(30)

His magnetic speaking voice, bold good looks, winning smile, and charismatic personality were tailor-made for television. Women fell in love with him; men considered him one of the guys. The poor and the elderly, who made up the majority of his audience, believed him when he promised health, wealth, and happiness. And unlike the fallen televangelists of the eighties, everyone thought they could trust him.

How could you not trust a man who was so open about his own shortcomings? With a boyish earnestness, he confessed a weakness for alcohol, which he’d overcome ten years earlier when he’d gotten the call, and an attraction toward pretty women, which remained a struggle. By his own admission, his first marriage had ended because of his philandering, and he asked his television congregation to pray that he could continue putting his womanizing behind him. He combined Jimmy Swaggart’s hellfire-and-damnation preaching with Jim Bakker’s cozy God of love, abundance, and prosperity. In the world of Christian broadcasting, it was an unbeatable combination.

“Come on in, honey,” he repeated. “I won’t eat you. At least not till after we pray about it.” His boyish mischieviousness immediately won her over.

She handed him the prayer cards. “I—I’m supposed to give you these.”

He paid no attention to the prayer cards, only to her. “What’s your name, darlin’?”

“Rachel. Rachel Stone.”

He smiled. “God surely has blessed me today.”

That was the beginning.

She didn’t board the bus with the other members of her congregation that night. Instead, one of Dwayne’s aides approached her grandmother with the news that the televangelist had received a message from God that Rachel was to accompany him as a helper on the rest of his tour.

Rachel’s grandmother had been in frail health for some time, and because Rachel knew how much she needed her help, Rachel had refused a scholarship to Indiana University to stay home and take care of her. It had been difficult to satisfy her deep intellectual curiosity by taking only a few courses each semester at the local community college, but her grandmother meant everything to her, and she’d never resented the choice she’d made.

She’d told Dwayne’s aide she couldn’t travel with the crusade, not even for a short period of time, but her grandmother had overruled her. God’s call could not be ignored.

During the next few weeks, Dwayne lavished attention on her, and she soaked up every drop. Each morning and evening, she knelt at his side as he prayed, so she was able to witness his unfaltering dedication to the business of saving souls. It would be years before she understood how complex the demons were that lurked beneath his faith.

She couldn’t comprehend why he was attracted to her. She was a lean, leggy redhead, pretty in a well-scrubbed way, but she wasn’t beautiful. He certainly didn’t press her for sex, and when he asked her to marry him shortly before she was supposed to return home, she was stunned.

“Why me, Dwayne? You could have any woman you wanted.”

“Because I love you, Rachel. I love your innocence. Your goodness. I need you at my side.” The same tears that sometimes filled his eyes when he was preaching now glittered there. “You’re going to keep me from straying from God’s path. You’re going to be my passport into heaven.”


Rachel hadn’t understood the ominous side to his words, the fact that he didn’t believe he was saved and that he needed someone else to do it for him. Only during her pregnancy with Edward two years later did the last of the romantic scales fall from her eyes so she could see Dwayne exactly as he was.

Although his faith in God was deep and unshakable, he was a man of limited intellect with no interest in the finer points of theology. He knew his Bible, but he refused to acknowledge its contradictions or wrestle with its complexities. Instead, he pulled verses out of context and twisted them to justify his actions.

He believed he was inherently wicked, but also that he was put on earth to save souls, and he never questioned the morality of his methods. His dubious fund-raising practices, his extravagant lifestyle, and his bogus faith healings were sanctioned by God.

His fame skyrocketed, and no one but Rachel understood that his public facade concealed a deeply held conviction that he was personally damned. He could save everyone but himself. That was to be her job, and in the end, he couldn’t forgive her for not accomplishing it.

The beam of her flashlight settled on the door to the master bedroom. She had spent very little time in this room. Her eager sexuality had been a betrayal in Dwayne’s eyes. He’d married her for her innocence. He wanted her, but he didn’t want her to want him back. There were other women he could use to slake that thirst. Not many—he could sometimes hold Satan at bay for months at a time—but enough to damn him forever. She pushed away the unhappy memories and turned the knob.

With Cal Bonner and his wife living in Chapel Hill, the house was supposed to be empty, but the moment she stepped in the room she knew that wasn’t true. She heard the creak of the bed, a rustle . . . With a hiss of alarm, she swung the flashlight around.

The beam of light caught the pale-silver eyes of Gabriel Bonner.

He was naked. The navy sheet rode low, revealing a taut abdomen and the blade of one muscular hip. His dark, too-long hair was rumpled, and stubble roughened his lean cheeks. He supported his weight on his forearm and stared directly into the beam of light.