Birds of California(19)
Claudia looks unconvinced. “Did you eat?” she asks.
“Yes,” Fiona admits grudgingly.
“Date.”
“Oh, right.” Fiona tugs Claudia’s hair lightly, dragging Claudia’s head back to peer at her upside down. “Is that how it works at school?”
Claudia snorts. “Uh, no. Definitely not.”
“Just for olds like me?”
“And Estelle,” Claudia says. “Probably for Estelle, too.”
“Nah,” Fiona says, letting go of Claudia’s hair. “Estelle is on the apps.”
“Down to fuck,” Claudia agrees, and follows Fiona back inside.
For dinner Fiona makes chicken quesadillas and microwaves some broccoli with butter and salt, tucking a folded paper towel under the silverware beside Claudia’s plate. She always makes Claudia sit at the table, even if she’s the only one eating. “We’re not animals,” she says, when Claudia complains.
She’s headed for the fridge to see if there’s any sour cream left when she catches sight of her reflection in the glass of the microwave door, then frowns and lifts a hand to her earlobe. “Shit,” she mutters. She drops to her knees on the floor, running her hands over the tile and coming up with a palmful of crumbs. “We should vacuum,” she observes.
“What are you doing?” Claudia asks, peering down at her with consternation.
“I lost an earring.” Fiona grimaces. “Mom’s earring. The pearl.”
Right away, Claudia scuttles down off her chair and crouches beside Fiona, her hair making a curtain around her face. “When was the last time you saw it?” she asks, peering under the table.
Fiona shakes her head. “This morning, maybe? I don’t know.” She retraces her steps, the patio and the living room and the front yard, but it’s useless. The thing is probably in the pocket of some cigarette-smelling blazer at the East Hollywood Goodwill, or down the garbage disposal at the diner with leftover hash browns and the curly rinds of orange slices. “It’s okay,” she says finally, sitting back on her haunches, though it doesn’t feel okay. “We’re not going to find it.”
“Probably not,” Claudia agrees, and something about the way she accepts the inevitability of disappointment makes Fiona feel about three inches tall.
“Come on,” she says, scrambling inelegantly to her feet and holding out a hand. Their dad is still shut in his room. “Let’s go get doughnuts.”
Claudia grins.
They get in Fiona’s car and head for the twenty-four-hour Krispy Kreme on Crenshaw, neon lights streaking by outside the glass. They started doing this after their mom left, Fiona waking her sister up at two or three in the morning and loading her into the car for the long haul across the city, both of them singing along to Stevie Nicks or Pat Benatar on K-Earth 101. Krispy Kreme has a drive-through but Claudia loved to stand outside the plate glass window on the side of the building and watch the doughnuts rolling by on the conveyor belt, and Fiona loved how much she loved it enough that she was willing to let Darcy’s goons take her picture from time to time.
Tonight they stay in the car, Fiona taking the box from the girl at the window and handing it carefully across the gearshift to her sister. “Careful,” she says, breathing in the warm smell of sugar and fry grease, the night air thick and soupy through the open window. “Still hot.”
Chapter Six
Sam
He’s definitely too broke to be eating out more than once a day, so when Erin calls to see if he wants to get dinner that night he tells her to come to his place in WeHo for tacos instead. “By which you mean, you want me to make tacos?” Erin asks.
Sam’s mouth falls open at the unfairness of it. “I make decent tacos!” he protests, which is true, but then when he realizes how much the ingredients are going to cost he winds up just going to the place they like and ordering half a dozen to go along with chips and guac. Then, on second thought, he doubles back to get an order of queso, even though he tries not to eat cheese. “It’s fine,” he says, waving his hand magnanimously when Erin offers to Venmo him for her half. “It’ll all come out in the wash.”
She eyes him from the couch, where she’s flipping through Martha Stewart Living, which comes to his house faithfully every month addressed to the woman who lived here before him. “You’re cheerful,” she observes.
“Yeah, I guess.” Sam hadn’t really thought about it. “How’d it go with Hipster Glasses?”
“Oh, I don’t know.” Erin sets the magazine down and unwraps a taco. “Too hip, maybe. I don’t think I quoted enough feminist theory to impress her.”
“Impossible,” Sam says, handing her a napkin. Erin is the most impressive person he knows. And sure, part of it is how killer she is at her job—back in the fall she broke open a huge thing with a pervy coach at a private school in the OC, and since then her career has been on fire, her byline in The New Yorker and The Atlantic and the Los Angeles Times—but mostly it’s how she’s just legitimately good at life, someone who sends actual paper birthday cards and speaks fluent Spanish and knows all the best stuff to get at Trader Joe’s. He knows exactly which one of them scored the better end of the deal when he answered her Craigslist ad for a roommate all those years ago, and truthfully Sam has no idea why she still hangs out with him. He wants to be like her when he grows up. “I’m sure you quoted exactly the right amount of feminist theory.”