Being Me(Inside Out 02)(83)

His blunt answer disarms me. “No. I don’t think it is.”
“Then we won’t do business with him. Some things, Ms. McMillan, are just better left alone.” I immediately think of Rebecca, but he’s quick to keep me off that topic, asking, “Did you resign from the school today?”
“Yes.”
“Excellent. Then you’re all mine now.” His eyes glint and I know he’s chosen the words fully aware of the double meaning.
“Good night, Ms. McMillan.”
He starts to turn and I don’t know what comes over me but I blurt, “Did you?”
He freezes in place and then turns, fixing me with his steely gray stare. “Did I what, Ms. McMillan?”
“Did you corrupt Rebecca?”
“Yes.”
“And?” I ask because nothing else will come to my mind.
“And clearly it was a mistake or she’d still be here.”
I’m speechless yet again. I just can’t find words. Mark uses the empty space to sideswipe me with another unexpected question. “You do know Chris is thoroughly f*cked-up, don’t you?”
My reply is instant, defensive. Protective. “Aren’t we all?”
“Not like Chris.”
I don’t ask how he knows. It could be the club. Maybe a
friendship that once was and is now lost. It doesn’t matter. “It’s his imperfections that make him perfect,” I reply, and there is conviction in my voice.
His gaze is fiercely penetrating. “I just don’t want to see you get hurt.”
There is a slight break in his voice that I’ve never heard in him before, and I believe him. “Like you hurt Rebecca?”
Some emotion flickers in his eyes and is gone as quickly as it appears. Guilt? Pain? “Yes.” His voice is soft, missing the unwavering command that is his norm. “Like I hurt Rebecca.”
“Is that why she left?”
“Yes.”
I am more confused about this man and his actions than ever before. “Then why attempt to take me down that path?”
“You aren’t Rebecca, any more than I’m Chris.”
He leaves my office and I stare after him.
I exit the gallery’s front door and spot the parked at the curb. The relief that Chris is here does little to eliminate my ap-prehension; I know he’ll be upset about seeing me with Ricco.
The door pops open and just seeing him threatens to consume me. This is one time I do not want to be consumed by all that is Chris. Not with my unsteadiness about where this weekend has led us.
I lean into the car to maneuver my bags into the backseat and Chris takes them from me. For an instant he freezes, and I wonder if he too feels the charge darting through me. He sets my things behind us and I slide into the passenger seat, shutting myself inside the small space with him. I burn for his touch, for him to touch me.
Tense seconds tick by, where neither of us moves or speaks.
With an irritatingly shaky hand, I reach for the seat belt and it slips out of my grasp. Chris reaches over me to help, his arm brushing my breast, the heat of his body pouring into me. His hair tickles my cheek and he lingers, his mouth close to mine.
It’s all I can do not to reach up and pull it to mine, but then he’s gone and I let out a trembling breath. He pops the buckle into place by my seat and settles into his. Still he doesn’t look at me.
He eases the gear into drive and maneuvers onto the road.
My fingers ball on my lap, and I’m about to explode by the time Chris pulls into a random parking spot.
We sit there, both of us staring forward. His silence is killing me and I fight a scream, dropping my head to my lap and tunneling my fingers into my hair.
“Sara, what happened to being careful and telling us where you’re going?”
I look at him blankly, his words so unexpected that I can’t process them.
“I went to the coffee shop to be near you, because I was worried about you. Then you walked in with Alvarez, whom I don’t trust.”
I glare at him. “Alvarez is my job. Just my job. You need to accept that—just like I’ve accepted that there’s nothing between you and Ava.” My voice softens. “But you’re right; I should have told you where I was going. I’m sorry to make you worry.”
“Damn it, Sara.” He twines his fingers in my hair and lowers his mouth one hot breath from mine. “You are the reason I take my next breath,” he whispers. “Why can’t you see that?”
His question steals the last of my anger. I soften against him, my fingers curving around his jaw. “Let’s go home, baby.” He kisses my forehead. “I have something to show you.”