Because of Miss Bridgerton (Rokesbys #1)(43)
Billie waited while Mary fixed her with a serious stare. Mary liked to dispense advice. Billie didn’t ordinarily like to receive it, but it had been so long since she’d had the company of her closest friend. Just this once she could be patient. Placid, even.
“Billie, listen to me,” Mary said with an odd urgency. “You cannot treat your future so flippantly. Eventually you are going to have to choose a husband, and you will go mad if you do not marry a man of at least equal intelligence to yourself.”
“That presupposes that I marry anyone.” Or, Billie did not add, that she might actually have a choice of husbands.
Mary drew back. “Don’t say such a thing! Of course you will get married. You need only to find the right gentleman.”
Billie rolled her eyes. Mary had long since succumbed to that sickness that seemed to afflict all recently married individuals: the fever to see everyone else blissful and wed. “I’ll probably just marry Andrew,” Billie said with a shrug. “Or Edward.”
Mary stared at her.
“What?” Billie finally asked.
“If you can say it like that,” Mary said with hot disbelief, “like you don’t care which Rokesby you meet at the altar, you have no business marrying either one of them.”
“Well, I don’t care. I love them both.”
“As brothers. Goodness, if you’re going to take that view of it, you might as well marry George.”
Billie stopped short. “Don’t be daft.”
She, marry George? It was ludicrous.
“Honestly, Mary,” she said with a stern little hiss to her voice. “That’s not even something to joke about.”
“You said that one Rokesby brother would be as good as another.”
“No, you said that. I said either Edward or Andrew would do.” Really, she did not understand why Mary was so upset. Marriage to either brother would have the same effect. Billie would become a Rokesby, and she and Mary would be sisters in truth. Billie thought it sounded rather lovely.
Mary clapped her hand to her forehead and groaned. “You are so unromantic.”
“I don’t necessarily see that as a flaw.”
“No,” Mary grumbled, “you wouldn’t.”
She’d meant it as criticism, but Billie just laughed. “Some of us need to view the world with practicality and sense.”
“But not at the price of your happiness.”
For the longest moment, Billie said nothing. She felt her head tipping slightly to the side, her eyes narrowing with thought as she watched Mary’s face. Mary wanted what was best for her; she understood that. But Mary didn’t know. How could she know?
“Who are you,” Billie asked softly, “to decide what constitutes another person’s happiness?” She made sure to keep her words gentle, her tone without edge. She did not want Mary to feel attacked by the question; she did not mean the question as such. But she did want Mary to think about this, to stop for one moment and try to understand that despite their deep friendship, they were fundamentally different people.
Mary looked up with stricken eyes. “I didn’t mean —”
“I know you didn’t,” Billie assured her. Mary had always longed for love and marriage. She’d pined for Felix since the moment she’d first met him – at the age of twelve! When Billie was twelve all she’d been concerned about was the litter of puppies in the barn and whether she could climb the old oak tree faster than Andrew.
Truth be told, she was still concerned about this. It would be a massive blow if he could make it to the top branch before she could. Not that they’d be conducting a test anytime soon, what with his arm and her ankle. But still, these things were important.
Not that Mary would ever see them as such.
“I’m sorry,” Mary said, but her smile was a little too tight. “I’ve no call to be so grave when I’ve only just arrived.”
Billie almost asked her if that meant she had plans for later in the visit. But she didn’t.
Such restraint. When had she developed such maturity?
“Why are you smiling?” Mary asked.
“What? I’m not smiling.”
“Oh, you are.”
And because Mary was her best friend, even when she was trying to tell her how to live her life, Billie laughed and linked their arms back together. “If you must know,” she said, “I was congratulating myself on not making a smart comment at you.”
“Such restraint,” Mary said, echoing Billie’s thoughts precisely.
“I know. It’s so unlike me.” Billie tipped her head toward the end of the hall. “Can we continue on to my bedroom? My foot hurts.”
“Of course. How did you injure it?”
Billie smiled wryly as she resumed walking. “You’re never going to believe who ended up being my hero…”
Chapter 12
A
t dinner that night, it became quickly apparent to George that one side of the table was the “fun” side.
He was not seated on that side.
To his left was Lady Frederica Fortescue-Endicott, who spoke incessantly of her new fiancé, the Earl of Northwick. To his right was Lady Frederica’s younger sister, Lady Alexandra.
Who also spoke incessantly about the Earl of Northwick.