Assassin's Heart (Assassin's Heart, #1)(3)

My cloak bunched around me. I struggled against it, my hands shaking to reach a pouch on my belt. Limb weakness. That ruled out all but one. No time left.

I batted the cloak. Val sprang to action, jerking the cloak away from my hands and body. My stomach rolled again.

“Poison.” I gasped at the pain blazing across my skin and through my flesh. “I’ve been poisoned.”





two


“GODS, LEA!” VAL PUSHED HIS MASK TO THE TOP OF HIS head. Worry and panic etched lines across his face.

Free of the cloak, I unbuttoned a pouch on my belt. It held nearly a dozen vials, each tightly stoppered with a scored cork. I ran my trembling fingers across the symbols known only to me, searching for the right one. My heart raced faster and faster.

My finger traced a loop with a line through it. The antidote. I yanked it from the pouch. My hand shook. The vial tumbled from my grip. The glass clinked against the stone street before it rolled away into the shadows.

Tears squeezed from my eyes. I didn’t want to die like this.

The poison raced through my organs. It would attack my stomach, my heart, my brain. Once the full seizures started, no antidote would save me.

I groaned, reaching into the darkness. The poison turned my body against me. My arms jerked like a wounded seabird.

Val pushed me aside, his hands struggling against mine. The scrape of the vial as he snatched it from the street was the most beautiful sound I’d ever heard. He jerked the stopper out with his teeth and pulled out a dagger with his free hand.

“In your mouth or in your veins?” He clutched the open glass and the dagger in his gloved fingers, waiting for my answer. My voice emerged as a groan.

“Lea!” he shouted. “Which one?”

The poison rushed through my body. My head slammed the brick wall behind me. I opened my mouth as wide as I could, hoping he’d understand.

Val brought the vial to my lips, his other hand restraining my head. The liquid poured into my mouth, tepid and sharp. It tasted terrible, like soap soaked in urine.

Val clutched my hands, keeping them still. He took deep breaths and watched me closely, his eyes wide, his mouth tight, lines of worry creased in his forehead as he waited to see if I would die.

My breaths came easier and my heart slowed its racing pace. The pain in my stomach faded. I took a deep breath and Val sagged in relief.

“Gods.” He looked at the street before he reached for his mask. His fingers trembled as he pulled it down. He’d hidden his fear, and any other emotion he didn’t want me to see. These were the things I loved about him, knowing he cared so much that he couldn’t hide it from his face, that he needed the mask to hide it for him. That he’d been scared, yes, but had reacted calmly. He had kept himself under control when I’d needed him.

“It’s fine.” I exhaled. “She knew I had the antidote.”

“She?” He stood. “Your mother did this?”

I waved a shaky hand at him. “She’s been testing me on poisons again. I should have expected this.”

When I was seven, I told my mother I hated poisons. Poisons meant distilling herbs in darkness, meant mixing things but not making a mess. Poisons meant death.

My oldest brother, Rafeo, said poisons were an important skill and that I should be proud I had such an affinity for them, because many did not.

He was only trying to make peace, but I didn’t feel pride over poisons. I was proud of the feathered mask I’d sewn for Susten Day and how I’d only pricked my finger on the needle once. And that the wooden horse I’d carved had a flowing mane.

Mother had not been happy. My attitude was more proof I wasn’t the daughter she wanted, that I wasn’t the proud Saldana girl-child she felt she deserved.

Mother took the mask away.

After that, I stopped playing with embroidery needles, costumes, and childish toys, and instead focused on things that made her proud: knives and poisons and masks crafted from bone.

I unhooked my water skin and poured the tainted liquid onto the street. I’d be filling my own water from here on. Lesson learned, Mother. Again.

My hands wobbled as I restrung my water skin. Maybe next time she’d pick something less violent. Or maybe I could convince her now that I didn’t need a next time. I could find an antidote under pressure. Even if I’d almost died this time, and would have without Val.

“That’s crazy,” Val said. “Your Family is crazy.”

“It’s not any crazier than yours. It’s her way of making me a better clipper. Also, in the future, you shouldn’t open vials with your teeth. You could accidentally poison yourself.”

He stared at me, expression unreadable behind his mask. “That’s what you got out of this? That I could have poisoned myself while saving your life?”

His bravado would’ve been worthless if he’d died. “I’m just looking out for you.”

He exhaled, the air hissing against his mask. “Fine. Is there anything else I can do for you?”

His anger rolled off him like steam, but I’d learned long ago the best way to disarm Val’s anger was to ignore it.

“Yes, actually.” I slowly shifted my seat and pulled a gold coin from another pocket. I handed it to him, my entire arm still shaking from the remnants of the poison. “Mark my kill for me, please.”