Along for the Ride(42)

‘No,’ I said.

‘Then what? You’re just out walking the boardwalk in the middle of the night?’

Eli doesn’t talk, Leah had said. To anyone. Ever. But he had to me, and maybe that did mean something, even if it wasn’t clear just what.

‘I don’t know,’ I said. ‘I just… I thought you might want to talk, or something.’

Eli shut the drawer, slowly, and looked at me. The click noise it made seemed very loud. ‘Talk,’ he said, his voice flat.

‘Yeah.’ He was just sitting there, staring at me, expressionless, and I felt not unlike when my mom got me in her sights, a serious squirm coming on. ‘You’re up, I’m up. I just figured…’

‘Oh, I get it,’ he said, nodding. ‘Right. You know now.’

‘Know…’ I said.

He shook his head. ‘I should have known when I saw you at the door. Not to mention at that party. Maggie isn’t exactly known for holding back information.’

I just sat there, not sure what to do. I said, ‘Look, I’m sorry. I just thought…’

‘I know what you thought.’ He picked up a stack of papers, rifling through it. ‘And I appreciate you wanting to help me, or whatever. But I don’t need it. Okay?’

I nodded numbly. Suddenly the room seemed too bright, illuminating every single one of my failings. I slid off the stool. ‘I should go,’ I said. ‘It’s late.’

Eli looked over at me. I remembered how that first night, I’d thought of him as haunted, before I even knew this was true. He said, ‘Do you want to know why I talk to you?’

‘Yeah,’ I said. ‘I do.’

‘Because,’ he said, ‘from that first day on the boardwalk, you were different. You never tiptoed around me, or acted all weird and sorry for me, or gave me that look.’

‘What look?’

‘That one,’ he said, pointing at my face. I felt myself blush. ‘You were just… normal. Until tonight.’

Until tonight, I thought, hearing Maggie and Esther saying these same words, only an hour earlier. Eli was still rummaging around in the drawer, his head ducked, and I thought of him that day on the pier with Thisbe, how easily he’d reached down to pick her up. There are a lot of ways to comfort someone. The elevator was only one of the unexpected ones.

‘You know,’ I said, leaning against the doorjamb, ‘I’m actually really relieved to hear you say that. Because I don’t want to feel sorry for you.’

‘You don’t,’ he said, not looking up.

‘Nope. The truth is, I’m actually kind of angry with you.’

‘Angry?’ I nodded. He lifted his head: now, I had his attention. ‘And why is that?’

‘Because you almost got my ass kicked tonight.’

‘I did?’

I rolled my eyes. ‘Like you didn’t know that was your girlfriend I was talking about,’ I told him. ‘Not to mention looking at while I was talking about.’

‘Hold on,’ he said. ‘She’s –’

‘You just let me stand there and shoot off my mouth,’ I continued, ignoring this, ‘and then, when she came after me…’

‘She came after you?’

‘She poked me in the chest and called me a skank,’ I said. He raised his eyebrows. ‘And meanwhile, you’re off eating cupcakes somewhere.’

‘Excuse me,’ he said, pushing the drawer shut, ‘but you were the one who told me to eat the cupcakes.’

‘When I didn’t know my life was in danger!’ I sighed. ‘All I’m saying is that you kind of left me out there to fend for myself. Which was not very cool.’

‘Look,’ he said, ‘Belissa is not my girlfriend.’

‘You might want to tell her that,’ I replied. ‘If you can, you know, make time during all that cupcake eating.’

Eli was just looking at me, his expression hard to read, and again I felt like squirming. But not for the same reasons. At all.

‘What are you really doing out so late?’ he asked.

‘I don’t sleep at night.’

‘Why not?’

‘It used to be because my parents were up fighting,’ I said. ‘But now… I don’t know.’

This answer was like a reflex, coming without thinking. Eli nodded, then said, ‘So what do you do to pass the time? Other than not riding bikes.’

I shrugged. ‘Read. Drive. At home, I have a twenty-four-hour diner I really like, but here there’s only the Wheelhouse, which is less than ideal.’

‘You’ve been going to the Wheelhouse?’ He shook his head. ‘The coffee there is terrible.’

‘I know. Plus the waitresses are mean.’

‘And it’s not like you’re taking up a table someone else wants.’ He sighed. ‘You should be going where I go. Open twenty-four/seven, great coffee, and pie.’

‘Really,’ I said. ‘That’s the trifecta.’

‘I know.’

‘Wait, though,’ I said. ‘I have Googled every single restaurant for fifty miles, and nothing came up but the Wheelhouse.’

‘That,’ he said, ‘is because my place is a local secret.’