After the Wedding (The Worth Saga #2)(30)

Camilla had gone through all the family that would have her and then some. They’d all wanted to be rid of her. Camilla just shook her head.

“There, there.” The woman patted her head. “You’re pretty enough, you know. If you could make it to London, I’m sure you could find some man or such who would be willing to help with your living expenses. And you do seem to be the sort who might thrive in that environment. Take a day and think it over, dear, and you’ll see I’m right. I know it’s not what you had imagined for yourself, but many a woman has done worse, and it is the best you can expect, under the circumstances. For the time being, would you mind staying in the kitchen? I can’t have people seeing you.”

Being told that she’d ruined herself so thoroughly that prostitution was her best option would not have been Camilla’s conversation of choice on the day after her wedding.

Still, she stayed in the kitchen and cut vegetables when asked, and slipped salt in the soup when the cook wasn’t looking.

All the while she dreamed.

Mr. Hunter would come back. He’d been delayed by…a telegraph malfunction? Oh, why not. She’d hoped for far dumber things.

Hope, she had been told, was the devil whispering on her shoulder. But if she listened to the thread of doubt that she’d been told was her angelic nature… She would decide to become a prostitute. She was no expert on such matters, but she was pretty sure that theology just did not line up. To hell with Miles and his entire pack of devils. She was done feeling guilty about wanting good things.

Mr. Hunter would come back, and she would have words for him. It lifted her spirits just to imagine them.

She would be brave and tell him to have some consideration for her feelings. By the time dusk had come around, she’d figured out precisely what she would say to him and how he would react.

He was planning to get rid of her by means of an annulment—that made her daydream excessively awkward—but he’d be kind about it, and he’d apologize, and— “Miss Winters,” Mrs. Lawson said, appearing in the doorway. “You’ll never imagine who has arrived.”

Camilla didn’t have to imagine. Mr. Hunter was standing right behind Mrs. Lawson, a head taller than her. He wasn’t smiling—that was different; in her daydream, he’d smiled when he saw her. His clothing was rumpled and dusty from the road.

What the hell. He’d come back? He had actually come back?

Camilla was used to daydreaming; she wasn’t used to her daydreams coming true. Dear merciful heavens.

“Let me guess,” she said slowly. “Telegraph malfunction?”

He sighed. “I could only wish for such luck.”

“I was here all day.” She had planned out the speech so perfectly in her fantasy that it seemed a shame not to use it. “It didn’t take long for the gossip to arrive. I’ve had to spend the remaining hours listening to advice on the best way to go about starting my new, exciting career as a prostitute.”

At least he winced. That was good.

It was a good thing she’d had hours to imagine going over this speech; she’d never have been able to deliver it off the top of her head.

“You should have sent word that you were delayed.”

“I should have.”

“I know I said I didn’t wish to be a burden on you, but in retrospect, for as long as we are…whatever we are? I should like you to remember that I am a fellow human being. With feelings. And I don’t—”

I don’t like to feel abandoned, Camilla almost said, but it was so close to her real feelings that it crossed the line, pulling her sharply from her practiced fantasy into reality. Reality was the ache of her chest, the throb of her heart.

She dropped her voice instead. “Do you know, they all believed you’d left me. Forever. For good. They believed we were lawfully wed and I’d been ruined and then abandoned. I had to wait for you here, smothered by the weight of their belief, the entire day. It wasn’t pleasant.”

He sighed. “I can see how it must have looked. You must have believed that I’d left for good.”

“Not entirely.” Camilla didn’t want to explain that she was all too good at hoping for the best. “You said you would come back.”

He seemed puzzled by this. “I knew I would. You know nothing about my character.”

“Well, that’s not true,” Camilla heard herself say. “I don’t know everything about your character, but I do know something. I know you told me a ridiculous story last night.”

He made a face. “I know it sounds ridiculous, but—”

“Let me finish, please. You told me that your uncle is a bishop in the Church of England, that your grandfather was a duke, and that our marriage can be annulled.”

“All of those things are true, and—”

She held up a hand.

“You said we would work together, but you gave me the barest description of the situation and disappeared without listening to me this morning, when your supposed mission—finding out about Bishop Lassiter and Rector Miles—requires you to know about the inner workings of a household where I have lived for eighteen months.”

“I will listen to you—in fact, as it turns out, I—”

“Let me finish,” Camilla said. “I also know that whatever it was that happened in the bishop’s bedchamber? You were the only person who spoke up in my defense. I know you have never called me a name just because others did. You were a little thoughtless today.”