A Curve in the Road(29)

I remember waking up in the recovery room. He was there at my side, weeping.

“I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost you,” he said.

“You won’t lose me.”

“You don’t know that, Abbie. Anything can happen. I was so scared when they took you away.”

I promised him that day that I would never leave him, and he held on to me desperately.

The memory causes my eyes to fill with tears, and I cry softly in the darkness. Winston lifts his head, moves closer, and licks the salty teardrops from my cheeks. It tickles, and I can’t help but laugh at the sensation. I stroke his neck, and he settles back down at the foot of the bed.

As I recover myself, my thoughts of Alan merge into another lane. Soon, I’m thinking about the accident, and I find myself going over every word of my telephone conversation with Paula Sheridan in the hospital. I think about her hasty departure from the funeral home before anyone else arrived, and how she stood on the hilltop at the cemetery, watching Alan’s burial from a distance.

My stomach does a series of flips and cartwheels because I hate being in the dark. I need to understand what’s been going on.

Tossing the covers aside, I rise from bed and pad downstairs to grab my purse from the bench in the foyer. While Winston watches me from the top of the stairs, I rifle through the contents, finally locating Alan’s cell phone at the bottom. I try to switch it on, but the battery’s dead, so I carry it upstairs and plug it into the wall with the cord I’ve been using to charge my own phone.

It’s torture to wait for his phone to power up, so I climb onto the bed with my back against the pillows, hugging my knees to my chest, tapping the pad of my thumb against my thigh, and feeling a twinge of guilt over what I’m about to do—snoop through his phone contacts and messages when he’s not here to explain himself. Winston jumps up as well and waits patiently beside me with his chin on his front paws, the big plastic cone like a clown collar around his neck.

At last I hear the familiar chime from Alan’s phone. I pick it up and search through his contacts, but Paula’s name isn’t listed anywhere, and there are no emails under her name either. All I have is the number she called from when I was at the hospital. I look it up, and it’s not the number for Handy Hardware, but that doesn’t tell me much. She may have been using her own phone to make calls to customers. I check the call history, and there are no other calls from that number, except for one earlier in the day. If there was ever any other communication between them, Alan deleted everything.

Suddenly I feel paranoid and ridiculous. Get a grip, Abbie. Why would Alan be deleting texts and emails from the owner of the hardware store? Because you actually think there was something going on between them? Seriously?

It’s nearly four in the morning, and I know there will be no answers tonight, but I can’t go on like this. I need to understand why Paula attended Alan’s funeral. If she has some secret connection to him, she might be the one person who knows why he was drinking that night and driving in the opposite direction from where he was supposed to be going. I take a few deep breaths, then begin to type a text message to her from Alan’s phone.

Hi Paula. This is Abbie MacIntyre. I noticed you at the funeral home the other night and again at the cemetery today. Could we get together for a coffee and talk?

I press “Send,” then slide back under the covers, hug the pillow against my cheek, and wait for morning.





CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

Alan’s phone chimes at 7:00 a.m.

Winston lifts his head, stands up on the bed, and wags his tail. I wonder if he associates the distinctive notification tone with Alan and hopes that he’s coming home.

Still groggy and bleary-eyed from sleep—because I haven’t gotten much of it over the past few nights—I reach clumsily for the phone and swipe the screen.

To my relief, a text has come in, and it’s from Paula.

I immediately tap the little yellow-and-white icon.

Hi, Abbie. I’m so sorry for your loss. I know it must be difficult, but I don’t think I can be of much help. The best thing you can do right now is take time to grieve. I wish you all the best.

I shake my head in disbelief. “I beg your pardon?”

I can’t help but feel indignant because Paula’s text reads like the biggest brush-off of the century.

I glance at Winston, whose tongue is hanging out while he pants. I think he’s expecting me to tell him that Daddy will be home at any minute. A lump forms in my throat.

“I’m sorry. He’s not coming home today.”

Winston lies down again, and I sense his melancholy. I try not to sink into an even deeper pit of despair.

Returning my attention to Paula’s text, I decide that I simply can’t let it go. I begin to type a reply.

Hi again. Believe me, I am grieving, but I also need to understand the details around my husband’s death. Could we please get together for coffee this morning?

Moments pass, slow as cold molasses. Eventually, I force myself to set the phone on the bedside table and scratch behind Winston’s ears. Otherwise I’ll go mad.

It’s a challenge to get my fingers under the plastic cone, but Winston seems especially grateful for the attention. He bows his head and nuzzles my hand, demanding a more aggressive scratch, like Alan used to give him.