To Desire a Devil (Legend of the Four Soldiers #4)(10)

Whereupon Lottie burst into tears.

FOUR AND TWENTY and never even an offer.

The thought repeated in Beatrice’s head all the way home, a nasty little chant. She’d never put her unmarried state into such blunt terms before. Where had the time gone? It wasn’t as if she spent her days mooning about, waiting to start a life when the right gentleman finally presented himself. No, she led a busy life, a full life, she reminded herself, albeit somewhat defensively. Because Uncle Reggie had been widowed the last ten years, she’d practically grown up learning to hostess for him. And while political teas, dinners, house parties, and the yearly ball might be a tad dull, they were quite a job to manage.

To be fair, she had been courted. Just last spring, Mr. Matthew Horn had seemed quite interested—before he’d shot himself in the head, poor man. And she’d once come very close to an offer of marriage. Mr. Freddy Finch—the second son of an earl, no less—had been dashing and funny and had kissed her so sweetly. He’d escorted her for the better part of a season several years ago. She had enjoyed their outings—had enjoyed Freddy—but not, as she finally realized, in any special way. She was happy to go with him on a carriage ride, but if he had to call off for some reason, she was only a little disappointed. Her own complacency she might’ve lived with, but she’d suspected that Freddy’s emotions were no more entangled than her own, and she couldn’t live with that in a marriage. When she married—if she married—she wanted a gentleman who was wildly, passionately in love with her.

A man who would never abandon her.

So she’d broken it off with Freddy, not in any dramatic way, but simply by seeing him less and less often, eventually drifting away from him. She’d been correct in her assessment of his emotional attachment, too, because not once had Freddy protested her drawing away. A year later, he’d married Guinevere Crestwood, a rather plain lady who ran a tea party like an army campaign.

Was she jealous? Beatrice stared out the carriage window while she examined her feelings, taking care to be quite honest with herself, for she despised self-deception. She shook her head. No, she could honestly say that she was not jealous of the new Mrs. Finch, even if her toddlers were quite adorable. The adorable toddlers might grow up to have Guinevere’s enormous canine teeth for one thing, and for another, well, Freddy was funny and charming and quite nice-looking, but he hadn’t been in love with Beatrice. Perhaps Freddy had fallen passionately in love with Guinevere, but Beatrice rather doubted it.

And that was the crux of the matter, was it not? None of the gentlemen whom she’d driven in carriages with and danced with and strolled with had been interested in her with any real depth of feeling. They complimented her gowns, smiled as they danced with her, but never truly saw her—the woman behind the facade. Perhaps a marriage without passion was enough for Guinevere Crestwood, but it wasn’t enough for her.

She remembered now coming home from a ball, a year or more ago, and strolling into the blue sitting room and just gazing at Lord Hope’s portrait. He’d seemed alive with passion. Next to him—even as a flat, painted image—all the other gentlemen she knew faded into the background like transparent ghosts. He was more real, even then when she’d thought him long dead, than those flesh-and-blood gentlemen who’d squired her only hours before.

Perhaps that was the real reason she was still a maiden at four and twenty: she’d been waiting for a man as passionate as she’d dreamed Lord Hope was.

But was he that man?

The carriage stopped before the Blanchard town house, and Beatrice descended the steps with the help of a footman. Usually at this time she met with Cook for their weekly consultation about menus. But today she went straight to the kitchen and asked to have a tray prepared and apprised Cook of her change of plans. Then she mounted the stairs to the third floor and the scarlet room, the tray in her hands.

George, the footman stationed outside the scarlet room, nodded at her as she neared. “Can I carry that tray for you, miss?”

“Thank you, George, but I believe I can handle it.” She glanced worriedly at the door. “How is he?”

George scratched his head. “Ornery, miss, if you don’t mind me saying so. Didn’t like the maid coming in to tend his fire. ’E was yelling at her something awful in that Frenchie language—or so I think. Don’t speak the lingo myself.”

Beatrice pursed her lips and nodded. “Can you knock for me?”

“Certainly, miss.” George rapped on the door.

“Come,” Hope said.

George held the door open and Beatrice peeked in. The viscount was sitting up in the big bed wearing a loose nightshirt and writing in a notebook on his lap. His knife lay outside the covers by his right hip. He seemed composed enough now at least, and she exhaled a grateful breath. His cheeks no longer held the hectic flush they’d had the last two days, though his face was still gaunt. His long hair had been braided into a tight queue, but his jaw was still covered by his thick black beard. The top two buttons of his nightshirt had been left undone, and a few strands of dark hair were revealed, curling against the snowy cloth. For a moment, Beatrice found her gaze fixed on the sight.

“Come to tend to me, Cousin Beatrice?” he murmured, and she jerked her gaze up. Knowing black eyes met hers.

“I’ve brought some tea and muffins,” she said tartly. “And you needn’t sound so snide. You’ve scared most of the maids, and George said you yelled at one just this morning.”