This Heart of Mine (Chicago Stars #5)(113)

He pulled his head out of the refrigerator and saw Lilly standing just inside the kitchen door. It was eleven at night, two weeks and one day since Molly had left. It was also four days since he'd fired the Huberts, and everything had turned to crap.

Training camp started in a couple of weeks, and he wasn't ready. He knew he should tell Lilly that he was glad she'd stayed to help out, but he hadn't gotten around to it, and it made him feel guilty. There'd been something sad about her ever since Liam Jenner had stopped showing up for breakfast. Once he'd even tried to mention it, but he'd been clumsy, and she'd pretended not to understand.

"I'm looking for rapid-rise yeast. Amy left a note that she might need some. What the hell is rapid-rise yeast?"

"I have no idea," she replied. "My baking is pretty much limited to box mixes."

"Yeah. Screw it." He shut the door.

"Missing the Huberts?"

"No. Only the way she cooked and the way he took care of everything."

"Ah." She gazed at him, amusement temporarily overriding her unhappiness.

"I didn't like how she treated the kids," he muttered. "And he was making Troy nuts. Who cares if the grass gets mowed clockwise or counterclockwise?"

"She didn't exactly ignore the kids. She just didn't pass out cookies to every scamp who showed up at the kitchen door like Molly did."

"That old witch shooed them off like they were cockroaches. And forget about taking a few minutes to tell the kids a story. Is that too much to ask? If a kid wants to hear a story, don't you think she could put down her damn Lysol bottle long enough to tell 'em a story?"

"I never heard any of the kids actually ask Mrs. Hubert to tell them a story."

"They sure as hell asked Molly!"

"True."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Nothing."

Kevin opened the lid on the cookie jar, but closed it again when he remembered the ones inside were store bought. He reached into the refrigerator for a beer instead. "Her husband was even worse."

"When I heard him tell the kids not to play soccer on the Common because they were ruining the grass, I figured he might be doomed."

"Slytherin."

"The B&B guests did love the Huberts, though," she pointed out.

"That's because they don't have kids here like the cottage people do."

He offered her a beer, but she shook her head and got a water tumbler from the cupboard instead. "I'm glad the O'Brians are staying for another week," she said, "but I miss Cody and the Kramer girls. Still, the new kids are cute. I saw you bought more bikes."

"I forgot about the rug rats. We needed some Big Wheels."

"The older kids all seem to be enjoying the basketball hoop, and you did the right thing hiring a lifeguard."

"Some of the parents are a little too casual." He carried his beer over to the kitchen table, took a seat, then hesitated. But he'd already put this off long enough. "I really appreciate the way you've been helping out."

"I don't mind, but I do miss Molly. Everything's more fun when she's around."

He felt himself growing defensive. "I don't think so. We've had lots of fun without her."

"No, we haven't. The O'Brian boys keep complaining, the old folks miss her, and you've been grouchy and unreasonable." She leaned against the sink. "Kevin, it's been two weeks. Don't you think it's time to go after her? Amy and Troy and I can take care of the place for a few days."

Didn't she realize he'd already thought about this from a hundred different angles? There was nothing he wanted more, but he couldn't go after her, not unless he wanted to settle down forever as a married man, and that was something he couldn't do. "It wouldn't be fair."

"Fair to whom?"

He poked at the label on the bottle with his thumbnail. "She told me… She has feelings."

"I see. And you don't?"

He had more feelings than he knew what to do with, but none of them were going to make him lose sight of what was most important. "Maybe in five or six years things will be different, but I don't have time right now for anything but my career. And let's be realistic—can you see Molly and me together long-term?"

"Without any trouble."

"Come on!" He shot up from his chair. "I'm a jock! I love being active, and she hates sports."

"For someone who hates sports, she's an excellent athlete."

"She's okay, I guess."

"She swims beautifully and dives like a champ."

"That's just from summer camp."

"She plays an excellent game of Softball."

"Summer camp."

"She knows everything about football."

"That's only because—"

"She plays soccer."

"Just with Tess."

"She's studied martial arts."

He'd forgotten about that kung fu move she'd put on him last winter.

"And she told me she'd played on her high school tennis team."

"There you go. I hate tennis."