The Final Descent (The Monstrumologist #4)(64)

“How is the catch?” the man asks.

The boy shrugs. “Okay.” He does not look at the man. He has been taught to be wary of strangers.

“Good day for fishing,” the man says.

The boy nods. He is leaning over the barrier, watching his line, the swift dark water. It occurs to the man that he might return to this bridge in another ten or twenty years and there would be another boy with a line and a bucket and another generation of crows above the swift dark water that runs to the sea and circles back again. It is the same boy—only his name changes, only his face—the boy who stands on the bridge fishing and the crows that hop about his bare feet scrounging for a morsel. Time is a loop, not a line.

For days afterward the man cannot get the boy out of his mind. Freckled-faced, light-skinned, mouth seriously set, and that tattered old hat. One afternoon he wanders into a secondhand store and discovers a set of leather-bound stationery books. The pages are the most beautiful cream color, thick and stiff so when they’re turned there is a portentousness, like the sound of distant thunder, the ominous prelude to a storm. He takes the books home.

If he could name the nameless thing.

To name something is to take possession of it, like Adam in the primordial garden.

For the boy on the bridge, the man thinks, taking up his pen. And for all the boys for a hundred generations who drop their lines into the swift dark water to catch the leviathans lurking in the deep:

These are the secrets

These are the secrets

These are the secrets

These are the secrets:

Yes, my dear child, monsters are real.

EPILOGUE

And I was happy for a time.

Six years after the director of the home gave me the thirteen notebooks, we met for coffee at a little shop two blocks from the beach in Boca Raton, where he had retired the previous year. His hair was a little whiter and a little thinner, but his handshake was just as strong.

“You’ve finished,” he said.

“With reading them, yes.”

“And?”

I stirred my coffee. “After he was brought in, did anyone at the home get sick?”

The director gave me a quizzical look. “It’s an assisted- living facility. The average age is seventy-one. Of course people got sick.”

“High fevers, an itchy rash all over their bodies—maybe some recovered, but most wouldn’t.”

He shook his head. “I’m not following you.”

I slapped the spoon down on the table. “Have you ever heard of Titanoboa?”

“I’m guessing that’s a snake?”

“Fifty feet long, weighing more than a ton—the body would reach up to a man’s waist.”

“A big snake.”

“An extinct snake. They found its fossil in a place called Cerrejón in South America. It lived around fifty-eight million years ago.”

“Well, I can see where this is going.”

“He must have read about it or seen some television show about it, I don’t know.”

The director was nodding. “Can’t have seen a live one. He was old, but he couldn’t have been that old.” He smiled.

I didn’t. “No. Maybe not. Maybe he was just crazy. Maybe he made the whole thing up.”

He looked startled. “Well, I didn’t think there was ever a question about that.”

“Maybe he wasn’t a hundred and thirty-one years old. Maybe the journals weren’t even his. Maybe even his name was a lie.”

“His name?”

“William James Henry was the name of the man Lilly Bates married. I know that for a fact. There’s a tombstone in Auburn, New York. There’s an obituary. There are relatives. One of them contacted me. In the last notebook he hints that he stole the man’s name—he stole it!”

The director was silent for a moment, staring out the window. He blew out his ruddy cheeks. He toyed with his napkin. “Even his name? That’s not good.”

“You gave those notebooks to me hoping I could help figure out who this guy was. Six years later and I’m further from the truth than when I started.”

He sensed I was about to lose it. He tried to calm me down. “It was a long shot. I knew that. I think I told you that. It was worth a try, wasn’t it?”

“No. No, it was not. Even his name? He talks about secrets and won’t even reveal that? The whole damn thing is a lie!”

“Hey,” he said softly. “Hey. It was never about what he wrote, you know. It was about him.”

“Right, him. And at the end of it there is no him. There’s a blank, a cipher, the stranger standing behind you in the checkout line. A voice without a face, a face without a name, a secret without a confession. Who was he?”

The director shook his head. What could he say? I turned away in frustration. It was a sunny day, perfect weather for the beach. A kid was walking down the sidewalk toward the water, a fishing pole over one shoulder, a bait bucket in his hand. As long as there are leviathans in the deep, there will be boys to hunt them.

“I never should have given them to you,” the director said. An apology. “I should have read them myself.”

“I thought I could find him,” I admitted. “I thought I could bring him home. Everyone has someone. You remember telling me that?”