Sweet Dreams (Colorado Mountain #2)(152)
“Come inside, baby.”
“Back up!” he roared.
In the face of his wrath, I didn’t know how I found the courage but I called it up and moved closer.
“Don’t, Captain,” I begged. “Don’t make him sorry he told you.”
“Back up,” he repeated.
“Lock it down, Tate.”
“Lauren, not gonna say it again.”
“Please, please.” I got as close as I could, my hands moving to his bearded cheeks and my face getting into his so I was all he could see. “I know you’re angry. You have a right. If you need to work that out, then be a jerk. Say something mean to me. But don’t make Jonas sorry he told you.”
“Lauren –”
“You made this place safe for me. I spent ten years in a place that was unsafe. Jonas has too. Make this place safe for him too, baby. Please.”
His eyes closed and he jerked his head away, tearing it from my hands.
I bent my neck so my forehead was resting against the side of his head and I whispered in his ear, “Please, Tate. You can do it, I know you can. You did it for me. Please.”
He didn’t speak and I wrapped my hands around his neck, keeping my forehead pressed to him.
Finally, he growled, “She coulda killed him.”
“She didn’t,” I whispered.
“She hurt him.”
My nose stung with the tears but I had too much going on. I needed to get him off the bike, I needed to get back to Jonas and I needed to get him back to Jonas. I didn’t have it in me to hold them back so I let the tears go.
Feeling them slide down my face, my voice was a croak when I said, “Yes.”
“Bub,” he whispered, his voice rough.
My hands tightened. “Yes.”
“My boy.”
“Tate, please come inside.”
He fell silent then his neck moved, not forcefully, and I lifted up as his torso twisted to me. I put my hands on his shoulders and stared down at him.
“How do I make that right?” he asked, his beautiful eyes bleak and I vowed I’d hate Neeta until the day she died for making my man look that way.
I swallowed a sob-induced hiccough and shook my head. “I don’t know. I just know you will.”
It was his turn to shake his head. “You believe that?”
“I believe you can do anything.”
The minute I said it his face changed and, I swear to God, he looked just like his son did two nights before. He stared up at me with astonished marvel.
“Christ, you actually think that,” he whispered, his eyes studying my face.
“No,” I replied and my fingers gave him a squeeze. “I know it.”
“Dad.” We heard and we both turned, Tate twisting further to look at Jonas who was standing just outside the side garage door. Jonas rubbed a hand jerkily along his cheek to wipe away tears and I saw that hand was shaking. “Dad,” he repeated like he didn’t know what to say.
“You get a shower at your Grandpop’s last night?” Tate asked, his voice low and even.
Jonas blinked, openly surprised at Tate’s even tone delivering a normal, everyday question. I turned to look at Tate and saw him start to swing off the bike.
And I knew from watching him he’d done it. He’d locked down the fury. He’d found a way to control it even with what caused it and even being justified having it.
I was right. He could do anything.
I moved out of his way and Jonas answered as Tate stopped moving at my side.
“Yeah.”
I looked back at Jonas and heard Tate order gently, “Then go change your clothes, Bub, while Laurie makes breakfast.”
Jonas swallowed again but otherwise didn’t move.
Then he asked, “You mad?”
“Yeah,” Tate answered instantly.
“At Mom?” Jonas went on.
“Yeah,” Tate repeated.
“She’s –” Jonas started, I knew he was going to defend her, I opened my mouth to speak in order to intervene should that set Tate off again but Tate got there before me.
“She’s Neeta, Jonas. I know what she is. Go change.”
“It’s just how she is,” Jonas said quietly.
“Yeah,” Tate answered. “Change your clothes, Bub.”
“She can’t help it, it’s just how she is.” Jonas kept at it.
Tate walked to his son, I held back and watched Jonas brace.
Tate put his hand on his son’s shoulder.
“I know. I know it’s how she is. Don’t make it right. That shit isn’t right, Jonas. All I can say now is, it’s over. Yeah?”
Jonas, his head tipped way back to look up at his father, nodded.
Then he whispered, “She’ll be alone, without me.”
He was struggling with his decision.
I closed my eyes, fresh tears forced themselves out and I clenched my teeth against the whimper gurgling in my throat.
I opened my eyes when Tate spoke. “Her turn. I get you now.”
“Blake isn’t –” Jonas started.
“He was her choice. You’re young, Bub, but I’m tellin’ you this because you gotta know, she coulda had me. I made that clear more times than years you been alive. She chose him. Bein’ free, that means I got to choose Laurie so now she’ll never get another shot at me. You live with your life’s choices. Your Mom, she’s an adult, she’s made choices, she’s gotta live with ‘em. You’re smart, you f**k up, you learn from that. She doesn’t learn. That’s her choice too. I spent years tryin’ to shield her from her choices, didn’t work. I’m not gonna let you do it and I’m not gonna teach you that someone’s gonna shield you from shit. You gotta learn too. You make choices, they’re yours and you gotta take responsibility for them.” He jerked his head to the house and his voice got quiet when he went on. “You made a choice in there, Bub. I know you struggled with it, probably been strugglin’ with it for awhile, but it was the right one.” Tate’s hand gave Jonas’s shoulder a gentle tug. “Trust me, it was the right one.”