Romancing the Duke (Castles Ever After #1)(50)

The serving maid removed the soup and placed a platter in front of the duke. She whisked away a silver dome to reveal a beautifully browned rack of lamb.

Ransom sipped his wine. “I hope you’re not waiting for me to carve it.”

Chastened, Duncan reached for the carving knife and began to saw the chops apart, offering a serving to each of the ladies before taking his own portion. Ransom refused to take any for himself.

Izzy couldn’t help feeling awkward for him. So this was why he never joined them for meals. As the gentleman of rank at any given table, it was his task to carve the game and roasts—something that would be difficult for him to do well. Especially toward the end of the day, when she knew his vision waned dramatically.

She looked down at the lamb chops before her. Even a plate of food must feel like a test he was set up to fail. She briefly closed her eyes and tried to imagine going about cutting her meat into pieces without the benefit of sight. She might be able to manage it, with practice. But manage it with grace and ducal manners? That was less certain.

The passing and consuming of various dishes occupied them for some time. Ransom just kept drinking, which Izzy feared didn’t bode well.

As the dessert course—a lovely fresh berry tart—was served, Abigail rose from the table and returned shortly, carrying her giant bound folio. Evidently she hadn’t forgotten her promise to read.

“Here we are,” she announced. “The Goodnight Tales. We’ll start at the beginning tonight.”

Ransom muttered a curse. “Is there no escaping this?”

“Please don’t read them,” Izzy said. “He needn’t hear them at all. But if you do read, spare him the beginning, at least. My father was always embarrassed by those installments from the first few years. He didn’t consider them his best work.”

“But they’re the beginning. One must begin at the beginning. Mark my words, Your Grace. Soon, you’ll be swept up in the story of Cressida and Ulric.”

As Miss Pelham opened the cover of the book, Izzy was struck by the powerful urge to sweep herself under the carpet. Perhaps live there for the next several years. She could reign in beneficence as the almost-pretty Queen of the Dust Mites.

“ ‘Part the first,’ ” Miss Pelham read aloud. “ ‘Night has fallen over England. In a small village in the countryside, there is a cottage. A cottage with a slate roof and a candle in every window. And in that cottage is a room. A room with silver moons and golden stars painted on the ceiling. And in that room is a bed. A bed with a quilted purple counterpane. And in that bed is a girl. A girl named Izzy Goodnight, who will not go to sleep.’ ”

Cringing, Izzy glanced toward Ransom at the head of the table. Perhaps it was for the best that he hadn’t eaten anything. He looked as though he would be struggling to keep his meal down.

Miss Pelham read on, adding voices. “ ‘Papa, won’t you tell me a story,’ the little girl pleads. ‘The hour is late, my Izzy,’ I reply. ‘Please, Papa. The dark frightens me. But your tales give me such happy dreams.’ ”

Oh, God. Now he groaned. It was a faint groan, but a definite groan nonetheless. Izzy groaned, too.

And the whole mortifying experience was about to get worse. Much worse.

“ ‘Very well,’ ” Abigail continued. “ ‘Put out the light, my darling Izzy, and I will tell you such a tale. Once, in the time of brave knights and fair ladies, there lived an elegant and intrepid young lady by the name of Cressida. She had emerald green eyes and amber hair, sleek as silk.’ ”

Izzy braced herself. Here it came. Her three-word, lifelong curse. She mouthed the words as Miss Pelham read them aloud:

“ ‘Just like yours.’ ”

Miss Pelham looked up from the book and made eye contact with Izzy. “Isn’t that curious? I must admit, I’ve wondered about it ever since we met. Didn’t you wonder, too, Duncan?”

Duncan nodded. “If I’m honest, Miss Pelham, I did.”

“Izzy, this is a question you can surely answer. Why did your father write you as having emerald eyes and sleek amber hair?”

“I . . .”

Oh, Lord. Izzy never knew how to explain this. Shouldn’t the answer be obvious? The Izzy of the stories had to be different. Because no one wanted to read a story about a funny-looking girl with a mop of dark, tangled hair and pale blue eyes. Much less imagine themselves in her place. Because she, the real Izzy Goodnight, could only ever hope to be, at best, almost pretty.

Because she wasn’t good enough.

“Because her father was a jackass,” Ransom said. “Obviously.”

Abigail and Duncan gasped in unison.

“No,” Abigail said. “You’re so very wrong, Your Grace. Sir Henry was . . . well, he was the most gentle, loving father a girl could hope to have. Wasn’t he, Izzy?”

Once again, Ransom spared her the awkwardness of a reply. “Very well, I revise my statement. He was a shrewd jackass. Had everyone fooled. But if good Sir Henry was such an amiable fellow and doting father, why couldn’t he be bothered to leave his daughter the security of an income and a comfortable home?”

“Your Grace, his death was so unexpected,” Duncan said. “A tragedy.”

“It was sudden,” Izzy put in.

Abigail reached across the table to take Izzy’s hand. “It must have been devastating. The whole country was in mourning with you.”