Play It Safe(20)

In other words, get on wherever just get on.

I nodded and stood.

In short order I had my jacket on, my scarf on, my purse strapped on, Gray had my bag in the back of his truck and we were on our way to town.

It was very early morning and still dark so I still couldn’t figure out what it was, where he lived. Ranch or orchard. But it didn’t smell like ranch though I couldn’t say I knew what that smelled like. Still, if there was livestock close, it had to smell like something.

What I did see was that his truck was not only beat up it seriously needed a cleanup. Someone had a sweet tooth if the plethora of candy bar wrappers were anything to go by. They also had a taste for salty if the big, empty chip bags were any indication. There were also crunched pop cans, wadded what looked like receipts and gum wrappers, the car mats were caked with mud and there was a thin layer of dust everywhere.

I took my mind off what I was certain in a weird but fascinating way would be cleaning up his truck and the fact that I really, really wanted to do it and I pulled myself together.

“How’s the cut?” I asked.

“Not the first. In this town, probably not the last. I’ll survive,” Gray replied again intriguingly and again I wanted to ask and again I wouldn’t.

“You stick around, she’ll come around,” he said quietly and I looked from the road to him.

He looked good in profile.

I already knew this. Still, it hit me and in a way I knew instinctively it always would hit me. If I lived a life that was the kind of life I was free to make connections and we connected, we held strong, I knew his beauty, no matter how time wore on it, would always hit me. It might eventually come as a surprise, still, there would be times it would hit me.

“Sorry?”

He glanced at me then back at the road. “You stick around awhile, Gran, she’ll come around.”

Oh my.

He wanted me to stick around. He wanted his Gran to have a chance to come around. He actually thought that would happen.

I looked back at the road too but when I did it, I did it fighting tears.

Gray kept talking.

“She’s had six men in her life, three of them good. Her Daddy, her husband and my father. All three of those men are dead.”

I closed my eyes.

His father was good, probably like him.

His father was also dead.

I did not like that.

Gray kept going and I opened my eyes.

“Leaves three sons who are no good. Part of how they’re no good, including my Dad, they got shit taste in women. Their choices but still, she bore the brunt of that. She’s cautious, trained that way by a mean Momma and then a lifetime of puttin’ up with bad women. But, you stick around, she’ll come around.”

His grandmother read me like a book. She’d never come around.

And he was clearly like the men in his family. If he was attracted to me, he had shit taste in women.

He’d also said “including my Dad” which meant his Mom was a bad woman.

I didn’t like that either.

I said nothing.

Gray kept driving.

We made it to town and he pulled into the parking spot outside my hotel door. I already had my key out.

Casey’s car was nowhere to be seen. He was having a very good night.

Lucky him.

Hand on the handle, I turned to Gray, opening my mouth to say a firm farewell and tell him he didn’t need to help me with my bag.

He was already turned to me and he got there before me.

“You stick around, VFW steaks tonight.”

I stared, confused at his strange words.

Then I asked, “Sorry?”

“You stay another day; I’ll pick you up, five thirty. VFW, every Friday night, they do steaks.” He grinned. “This is meat country, darlin’, best beef you’ll find near anywhere and VFW steaks are the best I’ve had, bar none. You don’t wanna miss that.”

Was he asking me out on a date?

Definitely shit taste in women.

“We’re leaving today,” I told him.

“You stay, you get steak,” he told me.

“I like steak, Gray,” I said softly. “But we’re leaving today.”

His face changed, got that look, that gentle near to tender look and I braced.

“Ivey –” he started, leaning toward me but I shook my head and interrupted him.

“You know me,” I whispered.

He leaned closer. “Dollface –”

I shook my head again. “You know, Gray. Don’t be your Daddy. Be smart. Find a nice girl to take home to your Gran. You know I’m not that.”

His face changed again and the “near to” part evaporated. It was all tender.

God. Beautiful.

I could take no more.

I whipped around, opened the door and it creaked loud. I hopped out, shut it on another creak, hearing his creaking because he opened it. I ran around the back of the truck, leaned in, reached, grabbed my bag while I heard his door creak closed. I dashed around him, head down, hair hiding my face and went to the hotel room door.

I had my key in the lock when I felt his body close to my back and, lips at my ear, he whispered, “Don’t, Ivey.”

I closed my eyes but still turned the key.

Then I opened my eyes, opened the door and shot inside.