Misbehaving (Sea Breeze #6)(46)

“You didn’t answer my calls,” he replied.

“I was in class. I was going to give you a call on my way to work. What’s up?” I tried to make it sound casual.

He shook his head as if he couldn’t believe me. “Really? That’s it? We’re back to being f**king friendly?”

He was going to make me late for work. “We talked about this. You were okay with it,” I told him.

“Okay with it? Who the f**k told you I was okay with it?”

I leaned on the railing and sighed. “I know about the girls Monday night. Word travels fast. I would say that makes you okay with it,” I told him.

Krit threw down some paper he was holding and stood up. “Fuck that! You said I could sleep around. You needed f**king space. You can’t get mad because I did what you told me to.”

I reached out and grabbed his hand, hoping to calm him down. “I’m not mad. I didn’t say I was mad. I was pointing out that you taking girls backstage means you’re okay with this. With us.”

Krit crowded me and reached up to cup my face. “They weren’t you. So no, I’m not f**king okay with this. It sucks. It hurts like hell and they can’t make it go away.”

I reached up and pulled his hand from my face. “You did it, though. You wanted them enough to f**k them. That means you were attracted to them. If you had been heartbroken over this, you wouldn’t have been able to sleep with other girls. That’s all I’m saying.”

Krit closed his eyes and swore. “Don’t you f**king say that. Don’t you turn that shit on me when you said it was okay. All you had to say was you didn’t want me with anyone else, and I wouldn’t have.”

If I didn’t think it would make him angry, I would have smiled. He was so confused. He did have feelings for me. I knew that. But he wasn’t in love. He hadn’t experienced that yet, so of course he thought this was as bad as it got.

“If you just wanted me, then you wouldn’t have been able to sleep with anyone else. With or without my consent. That’s all I’m saying.”

Krit shoved away from me and started pacing. “Fuck that. It’s not fair, Jess. I was drinking. I get horny as hell when I’m onstage. It gets my blood pumping. You know that.”

I grinned this time. I couldn’t help it. “I know. And I’m telling you it’s okay. I just have other things going on right now I have to deal with.”

Krit stopped pacing and bent down and picked up the papers he had thrown down: several articles from an event this weekend, where Jax Stone and Star had performed for charity. But the photos weren’t of Jax. They were of Star, and on her arm was Jason.

“This is what you’re dealing with. This little shit. He used you. He’s f**king with your head. I saw you looking at him last weekend. You wanted him. I could taste it on you. Don’t let him f**k you up. He can’t be what you want, love. Hell, I have a hard time being what you want. You want a f**king lot. You deserve it, but he won’t be the one to do it.”

Krit started to say more and stopped. Instead he turned around and walked to his car. I didn’t watch him go. I was too busy staring at the photo of Jason and Star taken on Friday night. The same night he had called me. He had said he was going out with Sadie and Jax. He hadn’t been lying. He’d just left out the small piece of information that he was dating Star.

Krit was right. I was wanting a fairy tale. I wasn’t getting a fairy tale. I was a stripper’s daughter. Nothing more. I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. Someone I would never be. I started to wad the paper up and stopped myself. Instead I smoothed it out. I would put it away, and when I needed reminding of just how stupid I was when it came to Jason, I would pull it out again. Remind myself.

* * *

Friday night I spent extra time getting ready. I wore my shortest skirt and my tightest top. I even finished it off with the expensive boots Jason had bought me. I hadn’t been able to wear them again. But I was tired of acting like they were some shrine to him. I should be enjoying something from our time together.

My hair looked good down tonight, and I put extra eye makeup on to give me a sultry look. By now everyone would know Krit and I were over and I was free to flirt and be flirted with. It was rebound night for me, and I planned on drinking too much and dancing all night.

When I walked into Live Bay, the night was already in full swing. I stopped by the bar and grabbed a whiskey before heading over to the table where Rock was watching me with a concerned, fatherly frown. I just winked at him, which made his frown deepen. I shifted my gaze to Dewayne, who was the only other person at the table right now. Licking my bottom lip suggestively, I set my glass down and leaned forward, knowing that even though he viewed me as Rock’s little cousin, he was going to look at my tits.

“Wanna dance?” I asked.

“No,” Rock answered for him.

“Hell yes,” Dewayne replied.

“Stand up and I’ll make you sit down,” Rock warned him.

Dewayne just laughed and took a drink.

“What are you doing, Jess?” Rock asked.

“Drinking, then dancing,” I replied with a smile I didn’t feel.

“It’s not like you,” he replied.

“No. It’s exactly like me. This is me, Rock. I’m done pretending to be someone else. Now, why can’t Dewayne dance with me?” I asked, turning to pout at Dewayne, who looked very amused.