Lady Sophia's Lover (Bow Street Runners #2)(81)

“A walk? But everyone is resting comfortably inside,” she protested.

“Good,” he said in satisfaction. “Then we’ll have the entire outdoors to ourselves.”

Rolling her eyes, Sophia went to change into her lightest dress, then accompanied him on a stroll through the countryside. They walked toward the town until the steeple of the local church was visible in the distance. As they approached a grove of walnut trees, Sophia decided that she’d had quite enough exercise. Declaring that she needed to rest, she tugged Ross beneath the shade of the largest tree.

Agreeably, Ross sat with his arms around her, the neck of his shirt open to catch the occasional cooling puff of a breeze. Talking idly, they discussed subjects that ranged from the serious to the trivial. Sophia had never imagined that a man would listen to a woman as he did. He was attentive, interested, never mocking her opinions even when he disagreed with them.

“You know,” she told him dreamily, lying across his lap and staring at the dark, saucer-sized leaves overhead, “I think that I enjoy talking with you even more than making love with you.”

A lock of black hair fell over Ross’s forehead as he looked down at her. “Is that a compliment to my conversational skills, or a complaint about my lovemaking?”

She smiled as she caressed his shirt-covered chest. “You know that I would never complain about that. It’s just that I never expected to have this kind of relationship with a husband.”

“What did you expect?” Ross asked, clearly amused.

“Well, the usual sort of arrangement. We would discuss light things, nothing improper, and we would have our separate areas of the house, and spend most days apart. You would visit my room some nights, and of course I would consult with you on certain matters…” Sophia paused as she saw the odd look that crossed his face.

“Hmm.”

“What?” she asked, perturbed. “Did I say something that bothered you?”

“No.” His expression was contemplative. “It occurred to me that you just described the kind of marriage I had with Eleanor.”

Sophia sat up from his lap and smoothed her untidy hair. Ross mentioned his first wife so seldom that there were times Sophia actually forgot that he’d been married before. He seemed to belong to her so completely that she had difficulty imagining him living with another woman, loving her, holding her in his arms. Feeling a sharp bite of jealousy, Sophia strove to appear serene.

“Did you find it a pleasant arrangement?”

“I suppose I did.” His gray eyes were thoughtful. “But I doubt I would be satisfied with that now. I’ve come to want something different in a relationship.” A long hesitation passed before he murmured, “Eleanor was a good wife… but so very delicate.”

Sophia plucked a blade of grass and examined it closely, twirling it in her fingers. She wondered what had attracted him to such a fragile, excessively ladylike creature. It seemed an ill-fitting match for a man who was so robust.

Somehow Ross was able to read her thoughts. “Eleanor appealed to my protective instinct” he said. “She was lovely and frail and helpless. Every man who ever met her wanted to take care of her.”

The needles of jealousy jabbed Sophia despite her efforts to ignore them. “And naturally you could not resist.”

“No.” Ross propped up one knee and rested his arm on it, watching her lazily as she pulled at more bits of grass. Her tension must have been visible, for after a moment he asked softly, “What are you thinking?”

Sophia shook her head, embarrassed by the question that had come to mind, a question that was completely pointless and prying, and obviously born of jealousy. “Oh, it’s nothing.”

“Tell me.” His hand settled over her plucking fingers. “You were going to ask about Eleanor.”

She looked up at him, turning pink. “I was wondering how someone so fragile could have satisfied you in bed.”

He was very still, a breeze lightly lifting the lock of hair off his forehead. The consternation on his face was easy to read. He was too much of a gentleman to answer such a question, as he would never dishonor the memory of his wife. But as their gazes held, Sophia read his unspoken reply, and it soothed her immeasurably.

Feeling reassured, Sophia turned her palm upward and slipped her fingers through his. He bent over her, his lips brushing hers in a husbandly kiss. Although he had not intended the gesture as a sexual advance, the taste of him was so intoxicating that Sophia slid her hand behind his neck and kissed him harder. Ross pulled her over his lap and took full advantage of her invitation. Her arms went around his back, fingers splaying over the hard flex of muscle. She sighed and squirmed deliciously as she felt his arousal rising beneath her.

The quiet catch of his laughter tickled her ear. “Sophia… you’re going to cripple me.”

She loved the way he looked at her, the dance of silver flame in his eyes. “I can hardly believe,” she said in a passion-drowsed voice, “that a man with your appetite could have remained celibate for five years.”

“I wasn’t celibate the entire time,” he admitted.

“You weren’t?” She sat bolt upright in his lap. “You never told me that. Whom did you sleep with?”

Ross pulled the tortoiseshell comb from her hair and sifted his fingers through the rippling golden locks. “The widow of an old friend. For the first year after Eleanor died, I could not even contemplate making love to another woman. But eventually I had needs…” He paused, looking uncomfortable, and his hand stilled in her hair.