Just One Kiss (Fool's Gold #10)(25)

Her first thought was that she’d never seen him before in her life. Only there was something about him. Something familiar. They must have met somewhere and...

Her body stiffened as her brain filled in the blanks. She instinctively took a step back.

“Hello, Patience.”

“Steve.”

He gave her a slight smile. “I wasn’t sure you’d recognize me. We only met that one time.”

“Right. Two weeks before the wedding. You took us out to dinner and promised you’d see us at the ceremony.”

Ned’s father had made other promises. He hadn’t kept those, either. Instead he’d disappeared. She’d been shocked, but Ned had shrugged it off. He wasn’t used to anything better from his father.

“Why are you here?” she asked, her voice cold and stiff.

“I wanted to talk to you.”

“I’m not loaning you money.”

Steve’s expression turned rueful. “I suppose I deserve that. I haven’t been a very good grandfather.”

He’d been just as bad as a father, she thought. When she’d met Ned, one of the things they’d had in common was they’d both been abandoned by their fathers. She hadn’t seen hers in years, while Steve had drifted in and out of Ned’s life. When they’d talked about what they’d been through, Patience thought they had learned the same lesson. That it was important to follow through. To commit.

Instead, Ned had learned how easy it was to walk away.

Maybe it wasn’t fair, but she blamed Steve for that lesson. On a personal level, she wasn’t sorry to have Ned gone and had no interest in having him back. But this wasn’t about her. Lillie was the one who suffered without her father.

He glanced around at the empty storefront. “I heard you’re opening a coffeehouse.”

“Something like that.”

“Congratulations. That’s very exciting.”

She crossed her arms over her chest and watched him. “That’s not why you’re here.”

“No, it’s not.”

He wore a white shirt tucked into jeans. Not the least bit threatening. Still, she couldn’t help thinking she could make a dash for the back door if she had to.

“I’m not the man I was,” he told her. “For years, I had lousy priorities. I lost my wife and my son because of that.”

“You didn’t lose your son,” she told him. “You walked away. There’s a difference.”

“You’re right. I take responsibility for what happened with Ned. I’ve tried to see him, but he has no interest in me.” His green eyes grew thoughtful. “I can’t blame him for that, but I do wish things had been different.”

She tensed. “You’re here because of Lillie.”

“I’d like a chance to get to know her.”

She wanted to tell him no. To scream at him to get out of here and never come back. Lillie didn’t need another male relative breaking her heart.

“I’m retired now,” he went on. “I have been for a few years. I took stock of my life and realized I’d focused on the wrong things.” He gave her a slight smile. “I went into therapy and figured out what I’d done wrong. I want to do better, be better, for my granddaughter.”

“Can you think of a single reason why I should trust you?”

Steve shook his head. “Not one.”

She could feel herself getting angry. She wanted to scream that nothing about this was fair. Instead, she spoke the truth.

“I blame you for Ned’s behavior. He did what you taught him. He walked away. Do you know he never sees Lillie? He signed away all rights to her so he wouldn’t have to pay child support. She’s a sweet, smart little girl and I’m the one who had to explain why she doesn’t have a daddy anymore. For now she accepts what I’ve told her, but what do you think is going to happen when she’s older? When she figures out that her father simply wasn’t interested in her? How much do you think that’s going to hurt?”

“I’m sorry.”

“Being sorry isn’t good enough. It’s bad enough that Ned left me, but he also abandoned my daughter and I’ll never forgive him for that. There is absolutely no reason for me to trust you with Lillie. Not ever.”

He held out his hands, palms up. “You’re right. There is no reason to trust me. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m Lillie’s grandfather and I want to get to know her. I want to be a part of her life. I’m asking for a chance with her.”

“What’s the plan? Are you going to show up a few times, get her to like you, then disappear and break her heart?”

“No,” he said quietly. “I’ve moved nearby. I want to be close to the only family I have left. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to earn your trust.” He hesitated, as if he had more he wanted to say, then shook his head. “Please think about it,” he added.

Patience hated that an outright no wasn’t an option. While there was nothing he could say that would make her trust him, that wasn’t the point. If Steve wasn’t a complete jerk, then Lillie deserved to know her grandfather. She deserved to have more family, more people to care about her.

Steve pulled a business card out of his shirt pocket. “Here’s my cell number. I’ll be around. You can limit my visits, supervise them or make me post a bond.” He gave her a quick smile. “Whatever it takes, Patience. I’m sorry for how my actions affected you. If I could change them, I would. Believe me.”