Highland Scoundrel (Campbell Trilogy #3)(105)
The old woman held Duncan's gaze for a long moment before turning back to Jeannie, a sad look on her wrinkled face. “I can't think of anything.” She paused. “I'm sorry, I wish I could be more help.”
It was no more than Duncan expected, but it did not lessen the disappointment. One more road had led him nowhere. Sooner or later (and he suspected the former), he was going to have to deal with the very real possibility that there was simply no proof to be found.
Chapter 21
They'd stayed only a short while longer, declining Lady MacDonald's offer of a glass of claret and cakes, in favor of returning to the inn. Duncan was anxious to leave the MacDonald stronghold—not wanting to chance running into the laird—and Jeannie couldn't blame him. Any hope of learning something important had died ten years ago.
It seemed strange and sadly ironic that both his parents had died within months of one another. She'd wanted to question Lady MacDonald further, but it was clear the subject was a painful one for the old woman, as it was for Duncan.
Not that you would know it by looking at him. She glanced over at him, so big and strong riding atop the powerful black horse, utterly in command, his handsome face devoid of emotion as he spoke in low tones with Conall. But the stoic façade did not fool her. She'd seen the flash of pain in his eyes when Lady MacDonald had spoken of his mother's death.
Jeannie's heart went out to him. She, too, had lost her mother without being able to say good-bye. Worse, she knew, was the lost opportunity to confront the person who'd caused so much pain.
It was only a few hours past midday, but already the light had begun to wane as they navigated the narrow path back to the village, which consisted of a handful of buildings that had sprung up around the port. Duncan seemed preoccupied and for once Jeannie was not inclined to disturb him. Did he blame her for delving into a painful past unnecessarily?
She didn't blame him if he did. By the time they reached the inn, her stomach was tied in knots. She'd been so certain they would find something. Now she just felt foolish—impulsive—having dragged them across the sea on a silly madcap adventure. It felt distinctly like something her mother would have done. Shame crawled up her cheeks.
Duncan had a quick conversation with the men—she assumed giving them instructions for the evening—before joining her and leading her to the small private chamber he'd secured for her, for them, she hoped.
The inn was more of a large cottage—a two-story stone building with a thatched roof that hadn't been built with men of Duncan's build in mind. With his broad, muscular shoulders, he could barely negotiate the narrow wooden staircase up to the second floor. They reached a small landing where it appeared that three very small partitioned chambers had been created from one space. Fortunately, the room he'd selected for her was in the back, overlooking the port. It was also the most private. He had to duck his head through the doorway as he showed her inside, putting down the small bag of belongings she'd brought with her on a side table.
The room was barely functional—only a small bed, side table with basin and chair—but appeared clean.
“If you'd like, I can send for a bath,” he offered.
She nodded, biting her lip. Did he mean to leave?
“Would you care to eat your meal up here or downstairs with the men?” he asked.
She twisted her hands, looking at him anxiously. “Are you very angry with me?”
His head jerked back with surprise. “Angry? Why would I be angry with you?”
She gazed up at him, tears in her eyes. “You didn't want to come, but I wouldn't let it go. I'm sorry for dragging you all the way—”
“Stop.” He cupped her chin and tilted her face to look deep into her eyes. “You've nothing to apologize for. You didn't drag me anywhere. I should have come years ago—when my father asked me to. It was I who was foolish with pride. I didn't want her to think I needed her.”
He was only trying to make her feel better, which only succeeded in making her feel worse. “You think I'd learn my lesson by now. Whenever I feel something strongly it always seems to get me in trouble.”
“We aren't in trouble.” She shot him a glare and he grinned. “Well, no more trouble than I was already in.” He smoothed his thumb over her cheek. “I love your passion—your joie de vivre. In truth, it was what first drew me to you.”
Passion and joie de vivre? She supposed that was one way of looking at it. “I think my father used to call it flightiness.”
Duncan's expression hardened. “You aren't your mother, Jeannie. You follow your heart, but not without thought. Stop punishing yourself for her mistakes.”
She nodded and pulled away. “I didn't mean to keep you. I know there are things you need to do—”
“They can wait.” He closed the door behind her and reached for her, pulling her into his arms. His eyes bored into hers intently. “Leave with me. We can sail to France right now. Within the week we can be in Spain. You shall want for nothing and we will be safe.”
Jeannie gasped, her eyes searching his face. He seemed to be in complete earnest. “But I can't.”
“Don't you want to be with me?” He challenged, bringing her closer so that she nested into the hard crevices of his body. “I love you, Jeannie. I've never stopped loving you. I'd hoped that you loved me.”