Hearts Divided (Cedar Cove #5.5)(12)

“What did you do?” Ruth breathed. She leaned closer to her grandmother.

“Whatever we could, which in the beginning was pitifully little. The Germans suffered more casualties in traffic accidents. At first our resistance was mostly symbolic.” A slow smile spread across her weathered face. “But we learned, oh yes, we learned.”

Ruth was still having difficulty taking it all in. She pressed her hand to her forehead. She found it hard enough to believe that the sketch of the female in this worn poster was her own grandmother. Then to discover that the fragile, petite woman at her side had been part of the French Resistance…

“Does my dad know any of this?” Ruth asked.

Helen sighed heavily. “I’m not sure, but I doubt it. Sam might have mentioned it to him. I’ve told only my friends Clara and Winifred. No one else.” She shook her head. “I didn’t feel I could talk to my sons about it. There was too much that’s disturbing. Too many painful memories.”

“Did you…did you ever have to kill anyone?” Ruth had trouble even getting the question out.

“Many times,” Helen answered bluntly. “Does that surprise you?”

It shocked Ruth to the point that she couldn’t ask anything else.

“The first time was the most difficult,” her grandmother said. “I was held by a French policeman.” She added something derogatory in French, and although Ruth couldn’t understand the language, some things didn’t need translation. “The police worked hard to prove to the Germans what good little boys they were,” she muttered, this time in English. “I’d been stopped and questioned, detained by this pig of a man. He said he was taking me to the police station. I had a small gun with me that I’d hidden, a seven millimeter.”

Ruth’s heart pounded as she listened to Helen recount this adventure.

“The pig didn’t drive me to the police station. Instead he headed for open country and I knew that once he was outside town and away from the eyes of any witnesses, he would rape and murder me.”

Ruth pressed her hand to her mouth, holding back a gasp of horror.

“You’d trained for self-defense?” Paul asked.

Her grandmother laughed. “No. How could we? There was no time for such lessons. But I realized that I didn’t need technique. What I needed was nerve. This beast of a man pulled his gun on me but I was quicker. I shot him in the head.” She paused, as if the memory of that terrifying moment was as clear as if it had happened only hours before. “I buried him myself in a field and, as far as I know, he was never found.” She wore a small satisfied look. “His mistake,” she murmured, “was that he tightened his jaw when he reached for his gun—and I saw. I’d been watching him closely. He was thinking of what might happen, of what could go wrong. He was a professional, and I was only nineteen, and yet I knew that if I didn’t act then, it would’ve been too late.”

“Didn’t you worry about what could happen, too?” Ruth asked, not understanding how her grandmother could ever shoot another human being.

“No,” Helen answered flatly. “I knew what would happen. We all did. We didn’t have a chance of surviving, none of us. My parents would never have discovered my fate—I would simply have disappeared. They didn’t even know I’d married Jean-Claude or changed my name.” She stared out at the water. “I don’t understand why I lived. It makes no sense that God would spare me when all my friends, all those I loved, were killed.”

“Jean-Claude, too?”

Her eyes filled and she slowly nodded.

“Where was he when you were taken by the policeman?” Paul asked.

Her grandmother’s mouth trembled. “By then, Jean-Claude had been captured.”

“The French police?”

“No,” she said in the thinnest of whispers. “Jean-Claude was being held by the Gestapo. That was the first time they got him—but not the last.”

Ruth had heard horror stories of the notorious German soldiers and their cruelty.

Helen straightened, and her back went rigid. “I could only imagine how those monsters were torturing my husband.” Contempt hardened her voice.

“What did you do?” Ruth glanced at Paul, whose gaze remained riveted on her grandmother.

At first Helen didn’t answer. “What else could I do? I had to rescue him.”

“You?” Paul asked this with the same shock Ruth felt.

“Yes, me and…” Helen’s smile was fleeting. “I was very clever about it, too.” The sadness returned with such intensity that it brought tears to Ruth’s eyes.

“They eventually killed him, didn’t they?” she asked, hardly able to listen to her grandmother’s response.

“No,” Helen said as she turned to face Ruth. “I did.”

Five

“You killed Jean-Claude?” Ruth repeated incredulously, her heart hammering wildly.

Tears rolling down her cheeks, Helen nodded. “God forgive me, but I had no choice. I couldn’t allow him to be tortured any longer. He begged me to do it, begged me to end his suffering. That was the second time he was captured, and they were more determined than ever to break him. He knew far too much.”

“You’d better start at the beginning. You went into Gestapo headquarters?” Paul asked, moving closer as if he didn’t want to risk missing even one word. “Was that the first time or the second?”