Fancy Pants (Wynette, Texas #1)(90)

Something snapped inside her. She thrust the flower back at him and returned his attack in an angry whisper. “Why don't you pin it on! That's why you bought it, isn't it? So you can grab a feel right now instead of having to wait till the dance!”

She stopped, horrified by her outburst, and dug the fingernails of her free hand into her palm. She found herself silently praying that he would understand how she felt and give her one of those melty looks she'd seen him give other girls, that he would say he was sorry and that sex wasn't what he'd asked her out for. That he would say he liked her as much as she liked him and that he didn't blame her for what he'd seen Billy T doing.

“I don't have to take this crap from you!” He knocked the flower out of her hand, turned his back on the stadium, and strode angrily away from her toward the street.

She looked down at the flower lying in the gravel, ribbons trailing in the dust. As she knelt to pick it up, Joanie Bradlow swept past her in a butterscotch jumper and dark brown Capezio flats. Joanie had practically thrown herself at Dallie the whole first month of school. Holly Grace had heard her giggling about him in the rest room: “I know he runs around with the wrong crowd, but, ohgod, he's so gorgeous. I dropped my pencil in Spanish and he picked it up and I thought, ohgod, I'm going to die!”

Misery formed a hard, tight lump inside her as she stood alone, the bedraggled mum clasped in her hand, while the crowd jostled past her toward the stadium. Some of her classmates called out a greeting and she gave them a bright smile and a cheery wave of her hand, as if her date had just left her for a minute to go to the rest room and she was waiting for him to come back any second now. Her old corduroy skirt hung like a lead curtain from her hips, and even knowing that she was the prettiest girl in the senior class didn't make her feel any better. What good was it to be pretty when you didn't have nice clothes and everybody in town knew that your mama had sat on a wooden bench most of yesterday afternoon at the county welfare office?

She knew she couldn't keep standing there with that stupid smile on her face, but she couldn't go into the bleachers, either, not by herself on homecoming night. And she couldn't start walking back to Agnes Clayton's boardinghouse until everybody was seated. While no one was looking, she slipped around the side of the building and then dashed inside through the door by the metal shop.

The gym was deserted. A caged ceiling light cast striped shadows through the canopy of maroon and white crepe paper streamers that hung limply from the girders, waiting for the dance to begin. Holly Grace stepped inside. Despite the decorations, the smell was the same as always—decades of gym classes and basketball games, reams of absence excuses and late passes, dust, old sneakers. She loved gym class. She was one of the best girl athletes in the school, the first to be chosen for a team. She loved gym. Everybody dressed the same.

A belligerent voice startled her. “You want me to take you home, is that what you want?”

She spun around to see Dallie standing just inside the gym doors leaning against the center post. His long arms were hanging stiffly at his side and he had a scowl on his face. She noticed that his slacks were too short and that she could see an inch or so of dark socks. The ill-fitting slacks made her feel a little better.

“Do you want to?” she asked.

He shifted his weight. “Do you want me to?”

“I don't know. Maybe. I guess.”

“If you want me to take you home, just say so.”

She gazed down at her hands where the dirty white ribbon on the mum was woven through her fingers. “Why did you ask me to go out with you?”

He didn't say anything, so she lifted her head and looked over at him. He shrugged.

“Yeah, okay,” she replied briskly. “You can take me home.”

“Why'd you say you'd go out with me?”

She shrugged.

He looked down at the toes of his loafers. After a moment's pause, he spoke so quietly she could barely hear him. “I'm sorry about the other day.”

“What do you mean?”

“With Hank and Ritchie.”

“Oh.”

“I know it's not true about you and all those other guys.”

“No, it's not.”

“I know that. You made me mad.”

A little flicker of hope flared inside her. “It's okay.”

“It's not. I shouldn't have said what í did. I shouldn't have touched your leg like that. It was just that you made me mad.”

“I didn't mean to—make you mad. You can be sort of scary.”

His head shot up and for the first time all evening, he looked pleased. “I can?”

She couldn't help smiling. “You don't have to act so proud of yourself. You're not that scary.”

He smiled, too, and it made his face so beautiful her mouth went dry.

They looked at each other like that for a while, and then she remembered about Billy T and what Dallie had seen and what he must expect of her. Her brief happiness faded. She walked over to the first row of bleachers and sat down. “I know what you think, but it's not true. I—I couldn't help what Billy T was doing to me.”

He looked àt her as if she'd grown horns. “I know that. Did you think I really thought you liked what he was doing?”