Eclipse (Twilight #3)(109)
"I'm fine," I answered, not needing the translation that Edward was about to give. "Just worried, you know."
Jacob continued to stare at me.
"He wants to know why," Edward murmured.
Jacob growled - not a threatening sound, an annoyed sound - and Edward's lips twitched.
"What?" I asked.
"He thinks my translations leave something to be desired. What he actually thought was, 'That's really stupid. What is there to be worried about?' I edited, because I thought it was rude."
I halfway smiled, too anxious to really feel amused. "There's plenty to be worried about," I told Jacob.
"Like a bunch of really stupid wolves getting themselves hurt."
Jacob laughed his coughing bark.
Edward sighed. "Jasper wants help. You'll be okay without a translator?"
"I'll manage."
Edward looked at me wistfully for one minute, his expression hard to understand, then turned his back and strode over to where Jasper waited.
I sat down where I was. The ground was cold and uncomfortable.
Jacob took a step forward, then looked back at me, and a low whine rose in his throat. He took another half-step.
"Go on without me," I told him. "I don't want to watch."
Jacob leaned his head to the side again for a moment, and then folded himself on to the ground beside me with a rumbling sigh.
"Really, you can go ahead," I assured him. He didn't respond, he just put his head down on his paws.
I stared up at the bright silver clouds, not wanting to see the fight. My imagination had more than enough fuel. A breeze blew through the clearing, and I shivered.
Jacob scooted himself closer to me, pressing his warm fur against my left side.
"Er, thanks," I muttered.
After a few minutes, I leaned against his wide shoulder. It was much more comfortable that way.
The clouds moved slowly across the sky, dimming and brightening as thick patches crossed the moon and passed on.
Absently, I began pulling my fingers through the fur on his neck. That same strange humming sound that he'd made yesterday rumbled in his throat. It was a homey kind of sound. Rougher, wilder than a cat's purr, but conveying the same sense of contentment.
"You know, I never had a dog," I mused. "I always wanted one, but Renée's allergic."
Jacob laughed; his body shook under me.
"Aren't you worried about Saturday at all?" I asked.
He turned his enormous head toward me, so that I could see one of his eyes roll.
"I wish I could feel that positive."
He leaned his head against my leg and started humming again. And it did make me feel just a little bit better.
"So we've got some hiking to do tomorrow, I guess."
He rumbled; the sound was enthusiastic.
"It might be a long hike," I warned him. "Edward doesn't judge distances the way a normal person does."
Jacob barked another laugh.
I settled deeper into his warm fur, resting my head against his neck.
It was strange. Even though he was in this bizarre form, this felt more like the way Jake and I used to be - the easy, effortless friendship that was as natural as breathing in and out - than the last few times I'd been with Jacob while he was human. Odd that I should find that again here, when I'd thought this wolf thing was the cause of its loss.
The killing games continued in the clearing, and I stared at the hazy moon.
Chapter 20. COMPROMISE
EVERYTHING WAS READY.
I was packed for my two-day visit with "Alice," and my bag waited for me on the passenger seat of my truck. I'd given the concert tickets to Angela, Ben, and Mike. Mike was going to take Jessica, which was exactly as I'd hoped. Billy had borrowed Old Quil Ateara's boat and invited Charlie down for some open sea fishing before the afternoon game started. Collin and Brady, the two youngest werewolves, were staying behind to protect La Push - though they were just children, both of them only thirteen. Still, Charlie would be safer than anyone left in Forks.
I had done all that I could do. I tried to accept that, and put the things that were outside of my control out of my head, for tonight at least. One way or another, this would all be over in forty-eight hours. The thought was almost comforting.
Edward had requested that I relax, and I was going to do my best.
"For this one night, could we try to forget everything besides just you and me?" he'd pleaded, unleashing the full force of his eyes on me. "It seems like I can never get enough time like that. I need to be with you. Just you."
That was not a hard request to agree to, though I knew that forgetting my fears would be much easier said than done. Other matters were on my mind now, knowing that we had this night to be alone, and that would help.
There were some things that had changed.
For instance, I was ready.
I was ready to join his family and his world. The fear and guilt and anguish I was feeling now had taught me that much. I'd had a chance to concentrate on this - as I'd gazed at the moon through the clouds and rested against a werewolf - and I knew I would not panic again. The next time something came at us, I would be ready. An asset, not a liability. He would never have to make the choice between me and his family again. We would be partners, like Alice and Jasper. Next time, I would do my part.