Camden's Redemption (Gloves Off #4)(40)
“To get you to understand you’re perfect the way you are. You don’t have to prove your worthiness to anyone. There isn’t a single person who’s better than you. Not Mason, Blake, or even your brother.”
He shook his head. “That’s not true. My brother will always be a better man than me. He turned his life around and now he’s a UFC champion, has a family, and everyone looks up to him. No one looks at me like that.”
“I look at you like that.”
Sighing, he closed his eyes and then opened them back up slowly. “Why?”
I lifted up on my toes and pressed my lips gently to his. “Because I love you, Camden Jameson. It scares me to admit it, but I do, and I want you to hear it. I don’t expect you to say it back, but once all of this is over and you go back to California, I just want you to know that you can be loved. You’re more than worthy of it.”
Pressing his forehead to mine, he closed his eyes and squeezed them tight. “How can you love me?” he asked, his voice gruff. “I do f*cked up things that hurt the people closest to me. I can’t promise you that’ll change.”
“No, but you can promise me you’ll try. That’s good enough for me.”
His heated gaze landed on mine, his breaths deep and raspy. The raw energy radiating from him made me tremble in anticipation. “You just f*cked up, buttercup,” he growled low. Lifting me in his arms, he carried me off the dock and laid me down on the grass, his body hard on top of mine.
“Why is that?” I whispered. He pushed his cock against me and I moaned, desperately aching to feel him inside me.
“You have awakened something I never knew existed. It rips at my soul and scares the f*ck out of me, yet it also makes me feel alive. I don’t want to let it go. I don’t want to let you go.” Lowering his head, he kissed my cheek and trailed his lips down to my neck.
“What are you saying?” I asked.
He brushed his thumb across my lips and lifted his head. “I don’t know if what I feel is love. I’ve never had it before. But goddamn, it sure does feel like it. Whatever happens between us, I can’t let it end. Tell me you don’t want it to.”
I moaned as he lifted my tank top and bra and tossed them to the ground. “I want us to be together, Camden. We don’t know what’s going to happen once everything’s over, but I can promise you my love will not change . . . even when you go back home.”
Keeping his gaze on mine, he unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down my legs. Once his pants were gone, he settled on top of me, pushing his arousal against my hip. “My home is with you,” he murmured against my lips. “I don’t want to be anywhere else.” We stared at each other, both naked on the grass. The night had cooled off, but not too much. And the sky was so black, the stars shone brighter than I’d ever seen them.
“I’ve never made love under the stars,” I whispered.
Camden smiled and lowered his lips to my breasts. “I’m happy to be your first.” He closed his mouth over my nipple and reached down to slip a finger inside me. As soon as his fingers found me wet, he growled deep in his chest. Instead of letting him take control, I grabbed his shoulders and flipped us so that his back was to the ground as I straddled him. “What is this?” he asked, smirking.
“You made love to me last time. Now it’s my turn. You can’t always be in control.” His eyes lit up and he smiled, giving me full access to his body. Mason and my brother wouldn’t be back for some time so I knew we didn’t need to rush. Besides, it was kind of exhilarating making love on the grass underneath the stars.
Sliding down his body, I kissed my way across his stomach and felt him jerk when my lips closed over the tip of his cock. He moaned as I licked and tasted the saltiness of his skin, his dick growing harder the more I sucked. My clit throbbed with the need to be touched. I couldn’t take it anymore. Crawling up his body, I straddled his waist and he settled his hands on my hips, lifting me up. Gently, he set me on his dick but I dropped down quickly and took him in fully. Growling, he bit his lip and squeezed my ass as I took him deep. I cried out in pleasure, it felt so f*cking good.
I rode him hard, picking up speed when I knew he was close to finishing. Lifting his head, he pulled a nipple between his teeth and put his hands on my back so I couldn’t move away. He bit and sucked so hard, I was going to have marks on my body, but I didn’t care. My insides clenched. Screaming out my release, I milked him, his warmth filling me as I brought him to climax.
Grabbing my face, he pulled me down to his lips, kissing me softly. “Guys like me don’t deserve such happiness,” he murmured. “Tonight I have it, but tomorrow’s a different day. Promise me you’ll still be here.”
I chuckled and kissed him back. “I’m not going anywhere.”
THE NEXT MORNING, I woke up early with Camden by my side. Mason strolled in around three in the morning, and not surprisingly, the door to the spare bedroom was shut when I walked past. I wondered if he found anything out after Camden and I left.
Yawning, I padded to the kitchen and started up a pot of coffee. Camden and I didn’t get much sleep once we’d gotten inside; I needed something to wake me up. If we weren’t talking, we were making love. Blake was never like that. I never thought a hard core fighter like Camden could actually be so gentle. From what I heard, no one had ever seen that side to him.