Bitter Spirits (Roaring Twenties #1)(80)

“I didn’t hit anything!” she said, then something caught fire behind her eyes. “And guess what—I loved every second of it.”

A goddamn challenge. Wicked little girl . . . he wanted to . . . Christ alive, he didn’t know what he wanted. He looked at Aida.

“Go on and be mad at me,” she said, just as defiant. “It was my idea, and I don’t regret it. She did just fine. Might’ve scared a few of your neighbors, but some of them looked like they needed a little excitement.”

He counted breaths, staring down at them while the staff grew quiet.

For a moment, he didn’t know what he was thinking or how he felt. A strange numbness took root inside his chest. Looking on the scene in front of him, he expected to be reminded of the accident . . . to feel the same fear he’d felt during the weeks after, every time Bo drove him somewhere, every time Astrid got in a car. Sometimes he’d wait outside for Jonte to return with her, making himself sick with worry while he remembered the sounds of the accident . . . remembered how he’d been pinned by the steering wheel, unable to move as he called out to Paulina and his parents and no one answered.

But forcing himself to think about those things was different than the memories coming without warning. And he was forcing it, wasn’t he? As if he were testing himself.

He stared at his baby sister, trying to will his mother’s face in place of hers, but all he saw was Astrid’s rebellion. Behind her, Aida offered him a patient smile that made his insides quiver. He wanted to pull her into his arms and hold her; he wanted to scream at her. For God’s sake, didn’t she understand what he’d been through today? He’d been fighting for her—threatening people, pushing his lawyer, ordering up black magic from Velma to get revenge on the people who nearly killed her . . . ringing the house every few hours to check on her like a nervous mother bird.

He felt raw on the inside. Overwhelmed. Defeated.

“Did you see me?” Astrid asked Bo, a little breathless and puffed up with pride.

Winter cut a sharp look Bo’s way. If he said one single word of encouragement to her, he’d pummel the boy’s head into the pavement for pulling a Judas and siding with the girls. But his assistant just stuffed his hands into his pockets and rocked on his heels as he locked gazes with Astrid. He didn’t give her a verbal approval, but he might as well have applauded—anyone could tell he was fighting back that damned smart grin of his.

“I wasn’t great, but I think I’ll manage it better next time,” Astrid said proudly.

“Not bad,” Aida agreed, poking his sister affectionately on her arm. “Not bad at all.”

Christ. They were all teamed up against him, and witnessing Astrid’s burst of self-confidence, Winter had the sinking feeling he was on the wrong side of this argument. His own guilt and fear had prevented his sister from experiencing this moment of happiness.

And in one day, after losing everything she owned—after nearly being burned alive in her own bed—Aida had done what he was never able to do: she’d stepped into his home and swept away two years of melancholia hanging over the household.

Winter tried to say something, failed, and headed into his home.

TWENTY-SIX

AIDA GAVE WINTER SOME TIME TO CALM DOWN. QUIET FURY HAD transformed his face into something she barely recognized. She’d overstepped and pushed him too far. God only knew what was going on in that mind of his right now. He might be thinking of the accident. She probably made the memory fresh for him again and could only imagine how painful it could be.

Maybe she was wrong to think his life could be changed with a simple push, and maybe this wasn’t the right way to go about it. Too much at once. She should’ve thought it through instead of acting on impulse.

Night fell, and the temperature on the porch dropped as the fog began rolling off the bay. Leaving Astrid chatting with Bo, Aida struck out into the house to find Winter. He wasn’t in the kitchen. Wasn’t downstairs. Wasn’t inside his study.

The mirrors.

God, she hoped the staff hadn’t already seen to her request. Hopefully Greta had sense enough not to listen to her. She approached his bedroom door, heart hammering with dread. It was closed. She rapped lightly, and hearing no reply, almost walked away. But considering that she hadn’t heard one word from him all day, if she didn’t at least try to talk to him, she might be sleeping on the sofa in his study.

She opened the door. Winter was standing in his shirtsleeves on the opposite side of his bed, staring into the corner. The dressing mirror had been moved there. He wasn’t looking in it, but rather looking at it. As if it were an alien enemy breeching the safety of his room.

Aida closed the door behind her. “That was my doing, too, I’m afraid. I didn’t do it to hurt you. I just . . .”

He didn’t turn around to look at her. “You just what?”

“I just wanted you to see yourself as I did.”

“And how is that, Aida?” He sounded weary or sad. Maybe angry. She wasn’t sure which.

She stood behind him, catching both their reflections in the long mirror. The planes and contours of his long face were changed by shadows, his eyes downcast, feelings shrouded. “I see someone strong and resilient. Someone who pushes himself hard and expects others to do the same. Someone smart and fair. Decisive. Protective. I see a good man.”