Avoiding Commitment (Avoiding #1)(78)

"Goddamnit Lexi!" he yelled turning around in place and visibly tensing at her words. He looked as if he were about to throw something across the room. "I already talked to Jack!"

Lexi froze in place. He had talked to Jack? She couldn't believe it. He had gone to Jack after she left in the morning which is why it had taken him longer to get here. Jack had told him everything to save his own skin. Lexi meant nothing to him. She just wanted to cry. Why wouldn't he have at least warned her that he had spoken to Clark. Unless of course she really did mean nothing to him. Everything he claimed to feel for her had just fallen away when he had been confronted by her angry boyfriend…his angry friend.

"You talked to Jack?" she whispered.

"Yes, he told me everything."

"Everything?" she asked in disbelief.

"Yes."

"But nothing happened," she said attempting to stick to her story.

"Lexi," he began shaking his head. "I already talked to Jack. Don't give me that. Now I don't want to believe him, but I need to hear the truth from you," he said facing her cowering figure. "So tell me what happened between you and Jack."

Lexi gulped even harder this time fear glistening in her eyes. She realized that she was compulsively threading hair behind her ears from anxiety. She'd never wanted things to turn out this way, but somewhere along the way everything had been flipped upside down. How could she tell Clark what had happened between her and Jack? If she just blurted out the facts, it would make her look bad. Worse than she actually was, but if she left something out that Jack had divulged he would know she was lying and hiding things from him. It was the prisoner's dilemma she had learned about in school. Except there was no winning side to giving away any information. "We slept together."

"You slept with him?" Clark asked hardly containing his disbelief. She nodded. "When?"

"May."

He did the math in his head. "Almost eight months ago?" he cried. "When did you have time? We were together all month."

She choked back tears before answering him honestly. "It was at the beach house."

"Are you f**king joking me? While I was asleep in the same house. Has it happened since then?" Lexi sighed heavily and shook her head no. "I don't believe you. You mean to tell me that you f**ked eight months ago and it hasn't happened once since then."

"No, it hasn't. We decided not to."

"Oh for your own f**king sake," he paced rapidly around the room doing anything to keep from looking at her.

"It hasn't happened again."

"How do you expect me to believe that?"

"Because it's the truth."

"I don't think you f**king know what that is." Lexi remained silent not wanting to egg on his anger. "Have you done anything else since then?"

"Yes. We kissed some and I would spend the night at his place."

"Oh you just kissed a little. You want me to believe that you spent the night and didn't f**k? I told you not to lie to me."

"We didn't do anything more."

"What about last night?" he asked cornering her.

"What about last night? Nothing happened."

"I wouldn't say nothing! I saw you at Chamber with him all over you."

Lexi's mouth dropped open. So she hadn't been manic and delusional. Someone actually had been watching her all along. She couldn't believe it. "You were watching me?"

"Yes and I'm not ashamed of it either. You would have never told me the truth, and I needed to see you guys together for real."

"I can't believe you would do that."

"I know, because I'm not the scheming scumbag who goes behind people's backs. That would be you and your little f**k buddy. I can't f**king believe you Lexi. Were you careful? Did he get checked for diseases? How could you sleep with me after you slept with him? How could you even look at me with those beautiful big brown eyes of yours and tell me you love me? When you obviously don't."

"I do love you," she said quietly.

"I don't want to hear that from your deceitful, manipulative, lying mouth."

"I am so sorry Clark," Lexi gasped sucking in deep breaths between tears.

"I still can't believe you actually slept with him" He crashed back against the bed burying his face into his hands. "You little whore."

Lexi's glazed eyes stared down at him. Her humiliation was evident. "It wasn't like that."

"You slept with him while you were with me," he said through clenched teeth. Finally, looking up at her, he said, "That makes you a whore." She brushed her palm against her cheeks forcefully. It did no good the tears kept coming faster. "After all that bullshit you fed me about you guys just being friends. After all the warnings I gave you about him." She couldn't tear her eyes away from him as his anger intensified. "Fuck, Lexi, you told me yourself that you didn't think he had been faithful with one person he'd ever been with. Why would you let this happen? How could you let this happen? Do you think you are special? Do you think he's just going to leave Kate for you? He just wanted to f**k you. And, now he's done that. Try to explain to me how that doesn't make you a whore?" he spat at her.