Anything for You (Blue Heron #5)(22)

“Snap out of it,” he muttered to himself.

He went into the kitchen, since the kitchen was where he did his best thinking.

He didn’t know too much about what Jess had been doing these past two years. She was still at Hugo’s, he knew that. Lived with her brother in a little house over near the factory, at the very edge of the residential part of town, where the houses were covered in sagging vinyl siding and the sidewalks were cracked.

A neighborhood that was far better than the trailer park.

He broke three eggs into a bowl and started whisking. Chopped some parsley and cilantro, hoping Jess wasn’t one of those people who hated cilantro. Got out the nonstick frying pan that had cost a fortune, turned on the gas and put a dollop of butter into the pan. As it melted, he opened the cupboard where he’d already arranged his salt collection, chose some Peruvian sea salt and added a few flakes, waiting till they dissolved. Sliced two hearty pieces of the peasant bread he’d bought from the Mennonite market that morning and put them in the toaster.

Above his head, he heard the shower turn off.

He told himself that he shouldn’t be so happy that tonight had been an utter failure for her, that her car was a piece of crap.

He could still feel her arms around his waist from the ride here.

He added a quarter cup of heavy cream to the eggs and whisked gently. Poured it into the pan, added the herbs and ground in some Tellicherry black pepper, waited twenty seconds, then began folding the eggs gently. Buttered the toast, plated the eggs, added a sprig of parsley and brought it out, just as she came into the bar.

The makeup from earlier was gone, and her wet hair looked darker, pulled back into its ponytail.

She looked about fifteen years old, except for the way she filled out her clothes.

“You didn’t have to do this,” she said.

“I know. Would you like a glass of wine instead of that Coke?”

She hesitated. “Okay. Just a small one.”

“What kind?”

“I don’t care.”

“Now, now. You took my class. I expect better from you.”

She sat at the bar and smiled a little. “Fine. A fumé blanc?”

“An excellent choice.” He winked at her and poured her a six-ounce glass. One for himself, too, so she wouldn’t be drinking alone, then sat down next to her.

“You’re not eating?” she asked.

“Not right now. I’m just a voyeur.”

“Pervert.” She smiled slightly, then took a bite of the eggs. “Oh, my God, these are incredible,” she said, closing her eyes. “Are they really just scrambled eggs?”

Her eyelashes were dark brown and feathery. “Thanks,” he managed. “Uh, yeah.”

Watching her eat made his chest hurt from happiness. Her hands were efficient and neat, and she savored the food, really tasting it, not like some people, like Colleen, who ate like a starving coyote; not like his mother, who ate with the careful rhythm of a chronic dieter and then binge-ate junk food later.

No. Jessica tasted. She savored. Her tongue slipped out to lick a little crumb of toast from the corner of her pink mouth, and when she swallowed, he had to look away. He took a pull of his wine or beer or orange soda or whatever the hell he was drinking. It was cold. He should probably pour it in his lap.

“So I figured stripping would be easy money,” she said, and he looked back. She was talking to her glass, apparently, because she didn’t make eye contact. “There’s this new medicine they’re trying for kids with fetal alcohol syndrome, and it’s expensive, and of course Medicaid doesn’t cover it.”

“What kind of medicine?”

“It’s something to help with impulse control and outbursts. This bread is fantastic, too.”

“The Mennonite market.”

“Right. Anyway, I figured I could strip for a few months and pay for it. It was harder than I thought.” She took the last bite of eggs and wiped her mouth with the napkin. “Those were the best scrambled eggs I’ve ever had. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” He paused. “Jess, I could always—”

“No. But I appreciate the offer.”

Sure, he’d been about to offer her money. Who wouldn’t? “Do you want to pick up some shifts here?”

“No, but again, thank you. I have a job. And another job, too, actually.”

“Okay.” If she didn’t want to work for him, well...he got that. She’d always been proud.

She sipped her wine, then set the glass down, her movements controlled and precise. Now came the moment that she’d thank him and leave.

She didn’t. “How are things with you, Connor?”

The ordinary question sounded extraordinarily intimate, given the amber lighting and the late hour. “Well,” he said, “I’m a big brother. My father and his new wife had a baby girl tonight.”

“Wow. Congratulations.”

“Yeah. My dad’s been divorced from my mom for ten days. Married to Gail for nine.”

“Speedy.”

“He didn’t want the family honor stained by bastardization.”

Jess laughed. “Interesting definition of family honor. Not that I’m one to talk.”

“I’d say you know quite a bit on the subject.”