A Darkness Strange and Lovely (Something Strange and Deadly #2)(5)

I didn’t move. Allison deserved an answer, yet I couldn’t give it to her. Not when my life was threatened and every second counted. Mary clattered down the stairs. “Eleanor, I’ve got your bag!”

I didn’t even spare Allison a glance before spurring myself back into the foyer. Mary held out an old black carpetbag. Her hands trembled. “Now what?”

“Now,” I said, turning cautiously to Allison, who hovered in the parlor’s doorway. “Now I leave.”

“No.” Red flared onto Allison’s face. “You can’t just go. I asked you for answers.”

“I’m sorry,” I said, my voice flat though I actually meant the words. I had wanted to tell her the truth for so long. . . .

I shoved my left hand into my pocket, and withdrawing Jie’s letter, I turned to Mary. “This is where I will be going. I’ll telegraph once I’m in France.”

“France!” Mary cried, taking the envelope. “What’s there?”

“The Spirit-Hunters.” I shot a glance at Allison, but other than a tightening in her jaw, she did not react to this name. I could not help but wonder: did she already know that the Spirit-Hunters had not killed Clarence?

I hefted the carpetbag from Mary’s hands, forcing my mind to remain in the present. “Did you put the emergency money in the bag?”

“Aye. And your brother’s letters too.”

“Good. I’ll be going straight to the wharf.”

“I’ll take you,” Allison inserted. “To the wharf.”

“What?” I spun toward her. “Absolutely not.”

She glared. “Yes. If you are going to run off, I want answers first. You will ride with me.”

I narrowed my eyes, and she matched it with her own stare. Two girls who’d once shared tea and gossip were now bound together by death.

But then it occurred to me that if I accepted a ride, I could move more quickly. I could even say good-bye to Mama, for her hospital was on the way.

Best of all, though, Marcus didn’t know Allison. He wouldn’t recognize her carriage, and I could travel to the wharf unknown. So although part of me felt bad for accepting Allison’s offer under such selfish circumstances, most of me simply wanted to go.

“Fine,” I finally said.

Allison nodded once, and her eyes grazed over Mary. “Where will your maid go?”

“I’ve family in California, Ma’am. Eleanor gave me money for a train weeks ago.”

“You must remember to stay in touch with the solicitor,” I reminded Mary. “Father trusted him, but still—I’d feel better if I knew you telegrammed him regularly. At least until the house sells.”

Mary bowed her head. “Of course.”

“You’re selling the house?” Allison demanded. “Is that how you have enough money for a train ticket?” The look in her eyes—the implication that I’d gotten my money through some nefarious means—set my temper alight.

“The money,” I spat, “came from that sofa you complained I don’t have. And I’ll buy my steamer ticket with the money I saved by not getting a prosthetic, by pinching coins for months, by selling off all my things. I have not yet sold the house, but we have interested buyers. It should sell soon—it must sell soon, for otherwise I cannot afford Mama’s bills.”

Allison’s nostrils flared. “You could have married my brother, you know. He cared about you, and he would have treated you as well as he treated me. Then you would never have needed money and maybe . . .” Her eyes turned glassy, and her lips quivered. But she did not finish her thought. Instead, with nothing more than a slight sniffle, Allison turned and strode from the house.

Guilt exploded in my belly as I watched her go. I would have married her brother if it had come to that. Underneath his sharp exterior, he had been a loving man.

And like all the other ghosts I wanted to forget, his perfect face haunted me every day.

I towed my mind back to the present. After giving Mary a quick embrace and making her promise to leave the house immediately, I hurried outside and clambered into Allison’s carriage. Her cool poise was back by the time I slid over the velvet bench seats. The last time I’d ridden in this carriage, Clarence had been alive and we’d been on our way to the opera. It was the night he had caught me working with the Spirit-Hunters.

It was also the night he was murdered.

“Now, Eleanor,” Allison ordered as the horses clopped to a start, “tell me how Clarence died.”

“First,” I said, forcing an edge to my words—a strength I wasn’t feeling—“take me to Kirkbride’s.

I want to say good-bye to my mother.”

Allison’s eyelids twitched down. “The gossip is true then. Your mother is sick.”

I nodded.

“All right.” She rapped her knuckles on the carriage wall and directed the driver to the hospital.

Her gaze never left mine as she asked, “So your mother is sick with . . . what? Last I saw her, she was fine. What could possibly be the matter with her now?”

“Quite a lot, actually.” I had to fight to keep from growling. “Mama was never right after my father died. When I told her about . . . well, when I told her everything I’m about to tell you, it was too much.” I dropped my gaze to my bandaged wrist. “It’s even worse than the papers say, Allison. Are you sure you want to know the whole story? Ignorance is easier.”