We Begin at the End(48)

“You can use the weak hand,” she said, finally. “Don’t hide it on my account.”

“Symbrachydactyly. It’s when—”

“I do not care.”

He ate a marshmallow.

Robin ran up to the fence and showed her a purple plate with a clump of dirt on it. He mouthed “hotdog” and she smiled.

“He’s a cutie,” Thomas Noble said.

“You some kind of pervert?”

“No … of course not, I just …” He left it there.

Behind was woodland, out of bounds, long timbers stacked to make fencing, bleached back to bone.

“I heard you’re from the Golden State. Beautiful this time of year. I think I have a cousin in Sequoia.”

“The national park.”

He went back to eating.

“Say, do you like movies?”

“No.”

“How about ice skating? I’m actually quite good at—”

“No.”

He shrugged off his jacket. “I like your bow. There’s a photo of me with a bow in my hair when I was a baby.”

“Do you have an inner monologue?”

“My mother liked to pretend I was the daughter she always wanted.”

“But then all that testosterone kicked in and shat on her dreams.”

He offered her a peanut butter cup.

She pretended not to notice.

They watched a group of boys pass. One of them said something and they laughed. Thomas Noble shoved his hand even deeper into his pocket.

She straightened a little when she saw a boy snatch the plate from Robin. Robin went to grab it back but the other boy, taller, held it from his reach, then threw it to the ground. As Robin bent to pick it up he was pushed over.

Duchess, up on her feet and moving, eyes locked tight on the kid as Robin began to cry. She watched other girls laughing, talking in clusters and twirling their hair, a different species altogether. She hopped the fence. There was no teacher, no lunch lady watching out. She helped Robin up, dusted his shorts down and palmed his tears.

“Alright?”

“I want to go home.” He sniffed.

She pulled him close and held him till he calmed. “I’ll get us home. I promise it. I’ve got it figured, when I’m done here I’ll get a job and a place and we can go home, right?”

“I mean home to Grandpa.”

His friends stood beside, the girl and the boy. The girl came over, plaited hair, dungarees with a flower on the pocket. She patted Robin’s back.

“Don’t worry about Tyler, he’s just mean to everyone,” she said.

“Yeah,” the boy agreed.

“You want to go fix more hotdogs for the diner?”

Duchess smiled and he left her. She watched him go play, nothing more to do above it, all forgotten.

She turned and found Tyler by the fence, going at it with a stick.

“Kid.”

He turned and she knew the look. “What?”

She knelt in the dirt, rough on her knees, the sun behind.

She grabbed his shirt and pulled him close.



“You touch my brother again and I’ll behead you, expletive,” Principal Duke said, fingers steepled over his stomach, his face tight with concern.

Duchess straightened. “I never said ‘expletive.’”

Hal smiled. “Well, that’s something. What did you say?”

“Motherfucker.”

Principal Duke flinched like the word cut him deep. “Now this does give us a problem.”

Duchess could smell the coffee on his breath, the cologne splashed onto his polyester tie just about masking the body odour beneath.

“I don’t see why.” Hal, hands red, skin cracked. He smelled of the acres, outside and forest. Radley land.

“It’s the nature of the threat. I mean, beheading like that.”

“The girl’s an outlaw.”

Duchess almost smiled.

“I don’t think you’re taking this as seriously as you should.”

Hal stood. “I’ll take her out now, the rest of the day out of school. I’ll talk to her, it won’t happen again. Right?”

She might’ve fought it then, made trouble because the bedrock was laid. She thought of Robin, already making a couple of friends here.

“If he touches Robin then I can’t promise—”

Hal cleared his throat loud.

“I won’t use those words again.”

Principal Duke looked like he had more to say as she stood and followed Hal from the office.

They drove out in silence. Duchess rode up front. Instead of making a left Hal headed east, the road opening up beneath a sky that flashed silver as the sun hid. A dairy farm, steel barns the color of mint, then a town nothing more than Main and the small streets that fed it. Down backwater roads before they met pines like skyscrapers. A river beside them shone like mica as it fed the gorge, the mountain that loomed frosted white at the peaks, lazy tracks winding their way up. They climbed, Duchess craning to see back as they cleared the trees and the waterway snaked its own path. They slowed for another truck, passing opposite, a cowboy who dipped his hat.

They parked by a bluff, rock sand and dust, the pines picking up again, growing out and wide on the side of the mountain.