Until Cobi (Until Her/Him #7)(35)
God he’s big, so big it almost hurts to take him as he starts to pound his hips into mine. I slide my legs down to wrap around the back of his thighs then lift my hands over my head, placing them against the headboard as he rides me hard and fast. When his fingers find my clit again, I make a noise I’ve never made before, crying out as an unexpected orgasm rushes over me, sending my mind into darkness. My body shakes and my pussy convulses around his hard cock. Never, never have I felt anything like what I’m feeling as he rides me through my orgasm. When I come down from my climax, I focus on his face above mine and lift my hands to his jaw, sliding my fingers along the scruff on his cheeks.
“I need to feel all of you,” he says, pulling out of me suddenly and stripping me of my clothes then removing his own. When he enters me again and his warm, hard body settles over mine, I close my eyes. I have never felt more connected to another person than I do right now. I have never felt more complete. I wrap myself around him and bury my face in his neck, not wanting him to read the look on my face or to see the tears I feel gathering in my eyes.
“Fucking look at me, Hadley.” His harsh words force my head back and I meet his gaze. When our eyes lock, he brings his hand up to rest against my cheek then he closes his eyes, slowing his thrusts. When his eyes open, I stare into them as he kisses me again. He stops moving and rests his weight on me as my heart thunders in my chest. This kiss is different than the others we’ve shared. I know without words he’s telling me that I’m his, and that he’s never letting me go.
With his mouth locked on mine, his hips start a slow, torturous circle, his cock hitting a spot inside me over and over in a slow tempo while his mouth devours mine. Our eyes stay locked as another orgasm starts to build within me, making my stomach muscles bunch and my hands on his shoulders tighten. I feel him get even bigger and know the exact moment he comes, because his orgasm sets mine off. I slide my hands into his hair and keep his mouth fused against mine as we ride out the wave of pleasure that has enveloped us both. When he drags his mouth from mine and rests his head in the crook of my neck, I wonder if he knows he’s ruined me forever.
“You okay?” he asks, leaning back to look at me and capturing my face between his palms. Still breathing heavily, I jerk my head up and down in a silent yes. He smiles, kisses my lips, and then rolls us to the side. As he slides out of me, I let out a small whimper. “Did I hurt you?”
“No.” I rub my face against his chest while my arms around him tighten. “Not at all.”
“You know what this means, right?” At his question, my muscles bunch and my lungs stop working. “I’m never letting you go, Hadley. I might have been able to do it before you gave yourself to me in this bed, but there is no way I could do it now.”
I close my eyes as tears threaten to spill from between my lashes.
The truth is, I want to believe he wants me.
All of me.
I just don’t know if I can trust him. I don’t know him well enough to trust he’s being honest when he says he wants me for more than just this moment. Having the childhood I did, I learned at an early age that actions speak louder than words, that just because someone says they care for you doesn’t mean they do, and that just because someone is supposed to love you doesn’t mean they will. My parents taught me that harsh lesson early on in life.
“You’re mine. I know you don’t get that yet, but I promise you, baby, there is nowhere safer for you to be than with me.”
“I always feel safe when I’m with you,” I admit before I can think better of it, and his arms around me pull me impossibly closer to him.
“That’s because you are safe,” he says, each softly spoken word brushing against my forehead where his lips are resting.
“Be patient with me.”
“Promise,” he agrees quietly.
I close my eyes and hold onto him. I don’t tell him that I don’t know how to trust him, that I don’t even know what love is. I don’t tell him that the two people in this world who should have shown me never did. I want to open up to him about my past, but instead, I press my lips together and fight back tears, refusing to give into them.
I press my nose into his chest and breathe in his scent. Eventually, I fall asleep in his arms, cocooned in warmth, feeling safe like I always do when he’s near me.
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I smell the scent of bacon and my stomach rumbles before I even open my eyes. I sit up in bed and look around then down at myself. I’m still completely naked, my nightgown and panties nowhere in sight. After searching through the tangled blanket and sheet, I find both items of clothing and get up out of bed, slipping them on. With the door open, I can hear Cobi in the kitchen and the television on as I go to the bathroom to brush my teeth.
After I splash some cool water on my face, I look at my reflection in the mirror. I look different. I don’t know if it’s what happened last night or what has happened over the last few days, but I don’t look like my old self. The look in my eyes seems more sedated, and I feel more secure in who I am.
When I head out of the bathroom, I’m greeted by Maxim, who leans into my side. I scratch him behind his ears, and his big brown doggie eyes meet mine. He’s adorable, and I had no choice but to fall in love with him since the moment we met.
“Come on.” I run my fingers through the fur on the top of his head one more time then go into the main living area of Cobi’s townhouse. I once again let out an uncomfortable sigh as I head for the kitchen. Cobi’s place is awesome, with a view of rolling hills out his kitchen window and a small manmade lake just outside a sliding door and back deck. His place is two stories, the garage and storage on the main floor then upstairs is the living area, two bedrooms, two and a half baths and an open floor plan. The unit is new, as in it was only built a few months ago. It’s in a part of town that is only now being built up with grocery stores, coffee shops, and fast food restaurants.