Turtles All the Way Down(41)

“Seems unlikely,” I said.

“Very. Mr. Pickett loves that about Tua—how successful she is. He loves that at forty, she’s probably still in the first quarter of her life.”

“So he leaves his whole estate to her?”

“I can think of worse uses for a fortune,” Malik said.

I wasn’t sure that I could.

“But what fascinates me most, and is the focus of my research, is their molecular evolution rate. I apologize if this is boring.” In fact, I liked listening to him. He was so excited, his eyes wide, like he genuinely loved his work. You don’t meet a lot of grown-ups like that.

“No, it’s interesting,” I said.

“Have you taken bio?”

“Taking it now,” I said.

“Okay, so you know what DNA is.” I nodded. “And you know that DNA mutates? That’s what has driven the diversity of life.”

“Yeah,” I said.

“So, look.” He walked over to a microscope connected to a computer and brought an image of a vaguely circular blob up on the screen. “This is a tuatara cell. As far as we can tell, tuatara haven’t changed much in the last two hundred million years, okay? They look the same as their fossils. And tuatara do everything slowly. They mature slowly—they don’t stop growing until they’re thirty. They reproduce slowly—they lay eggs only once every four years. They have a very slow metabolism. But despite doing everything slowly and having not changed much in two hundred million years, tuatara have a faster rate of molecular mutation than any other known animal.”

“Like, they’re evolving faster?”

“At a molecular level, yes. They change more rapidly than humans or lions or fruit flies. Which raises all kinds of questions: Did all animals once mutate at this rate? What happened to slow down molecular mutation? How does the animal itself change so little when its DNA is mutating so rapidly?”

“And do you know the answers?”

He laughed. “Oh no no no. Far from it. What I love about science is that as you learn, you don’t really get answers. You just get better questions.”

I heard a door open behind me. Davis. “Movie?” he asked.

I told Malik thanks for the tour, and he said, “Anytime. Perhaps next time you’ll be ready to pet her.”

I smiled. “I doubt it.”

Davis and I didn’t hug or kiss or anything; we just walked next to each other on the dirt path for a while until he said, “Noah got in trouble in school today.”

“What happened?”

“I guess he got caught with some pot.”

“Jesus, I’m sorry. Did he get arrested?”

“Oh, no, they don’t involve the police with stuff like that.” I wanted to tell him the police sure as hell got involved with stuff like that at White River High School, but I stayed quiet. “He’s getting suspended, though.”

It was just cold enough that I could see the air steam out of my mouth. “Maybe that’ll be good for him.”

“Well, he’s been suspended twice before, and it hasn’t helped him so far. I mean, who brings pot to school when they’re thirteen? It’s like he wants to get in trouble.”

“I’m sorry,” I said.

“He needs a dad,” Davis said. “Even a shitty dad. And I can’t—like, I have no fucking idea what to do with him. Lyle tried to talk to him today, but Noah’s just so monosyllabic—cool, yeah, ’sup, right. I can tell he misses Dad, but I can’t do anything about it, you know? Lyle isn’t his father. I’m not his father. Anyway, I just really needed to vent, and you’re the only person I can talk to at the moment.”

The only rolled over me. I could feel my palms starting to sweat. “Let’s watch that movie,” I said at last.

—

Down in the theater, he said to me, “I was trying to think of space movies you might like. This one is ridiculous, but also kind of awesome. If you don’t like it, you can pick the next ten movies we watch. Deal?”

“Sure,” I said. The movie was called Jupiter Ascending, and it was both ridiculous and kind of awesome. A few minutes in, I reached over to hold his hand, and it felt okay. Nice, even. I liked his hands and the way his fingers intertwined with mine, his thumb turning little circles in the soft skin between my thumb and forefinger.

As the movie reached one of its many climaxes, I giggled at something ridiculous and he said, “Are you enjoying this?”

And I said, “Yeah, it’s silly but great.”

I felt like he was still looking at me, so I glanced over at him. “I can’t tell if I’m misreading this situation,” he said, and the way he was smiling made me want to kiss him so much. Holding hands felt good when it often hadn’t before, so maybe this would be different now, too.

I leaned over the sizable armrest between us and kissed him quickly on the lips, and I liked the warmth of his mouth. I wanted more of it, and I raised my hand to his cheek and started really kissing him now, and I could feel his mouth opening, and I just wanted to be with him like a normal person would. I wanted to feel the brain-fuzzing intimacy I’d felt when texting with him, and I liked kissing him. He was a good kisser.

But then the thoughts came, and I could feel his spit alive in my mouth. I pulled away as subtly as I could manage.