Then She Was Gone(10)

Noelle’s face formed a complicated smile when she saw Ellie. Ellie scrambled around in the back rooms of her brain for a nanosecond, retrieved what she needed and then returned the smile.

‘My best student!’ Noelle said.

‘Hi!’

‘How’s it going?’

‘It’s fine! It’s great! The maths is going really well.’

‘Oh, well, that is grand.’ She was wearing a khaki-green waterproof coat in spite of a forecast for warm, dry weather. Her red hair was clipped back from her face with tortoiseshell clasps. She had on cheap black trainers and was clutching a cream canvas bag to her shoulder. ‘All ready for the big day?’

‘Yes, totally,’ she overstated, not wanting to give Noelle an opportunity to chastise her for stopping her tutoring sessions.

‘Tuesday, yes?’

‘Yes. Ten a.m. Then the second paper the week after.’

Noelle nodded, her eyes never leaving Ellie’s. ‘You know,’ she said, ‘I’ve been using a practice paper with my other students. They all say it’s been super helpful. And from what I’ve heard through the grapevine it has a lot of crossover with this year’s paper. If you like I could give you a copy?’

NO, Ellie screamed at herself from beyond the beyond. NO. I DO NOT WANT YOUR PRACTICE PAPER. But the here-and-now Ellie, the one who wanted to spend her summer paragliding and losing her virginity, the one who was having pizza tonight and seeing her boyfriend tomorrow morning, that Ellie said, ‘Oh, right. Yes. That could be good.’

‘Now let me see,’ said Noelle, touching her lips with her forefinger. ‘I could drop by this evening. I’ll be close to you then.’

‘Great,’ said Ellie. ‘Yes, that would be great.’

‘Or … you know, maybe better still’ – she looked at her watch and then briefly behind her – ‘I’m just here.’ She pointed at a side road. ‘Literally four houses down. Why don’t you pop in now? It’ll take ten seconds.’

It was busy that Thursday morning. People passed on either side of them. Ellie thought of those people afterwards, wondered if they’d noticed, wondered if somewhere in someone’s head there lay an untouched memory of a girl with a rucksack, wearing a black T-shirt and jeans talking to a woman in a khaki waterproof with a cream shoulder bag. She imagined a Crimewatch re-enactment of these moments. Who would they cast as her? Hanna, probably. They were almost the same height these days. And a red-haired female police officer togged up in an ugly green coat, pretending to be Noelle.

‘Were you there,’ Nick Robinson would say afterwards, eyes narrowed at the camera, ‘on the morning of Thursday the twenty-sixth of May? Did you see a middle-aged woman with red hair talking to Ellie Mack? They were outside the Red Cross charity shop on Stroud Green Road. It was about ten forty-five a.m. You might remember the weather that day; it was the day of an electrical storm over London. Did you see the woman in the green coat walking with Ellie Mack towards Harlow Road?’ The screen would shift to some grainy CCTV footage of Ellie and Noelle walking together up Stroud Green Road – Ellie would look tiny and vulnerable, turning that last corner, heading towards her fate, like a prize idiot. ‘Please,’ Nick would say, ‘if you remember anything from that morning, if you saw Ellie Mack on Harlow Road, please get in touch. We’re waiting for your call.’

But nobody had seen Ellie that morning. No one had noticed her talking to a woman with red hair. No one had seen her walking with her towards Harlow Road. No one had seen Noelle Donnelly unlock the door of a small scruffy house with a flowering cherry tree outside and turn to Ellie and say, ‘Come on then, in you come.’ No one had seen Ellie walk through the door. No one had heard the door close behind her.





Twelve


Paul and Laurel buried the partial remains of their daughter on a sunny afternoon at the tail end of an indolent Indian summer. They buried her femurs, her tibias and most of her skull.

According to the forensics report, her daughter had been run over by a vehicle, her broken body then dragged some distance through the woodland, buried in a shallow grave and left for animals to take her bones and scatter them through the woods. Dogs had swarmed through the woods where she’d been found for days looking for more pieces of their daughter, but they’d found nothing else.

The police trawled local garage records for cars that had been brought in with damage commensurate with hitting a body. They also leafleted the surrounding areas, asking if anyone remembered a female hitchhiker, a passenger on a bus, a young woman with a navy-blue rucksack; had she stayed in your hostel, your home, did you come upon her sleeping rough, do you recognise this face, this girl of fifteen years old, this computer-generated woman of twenty-five? Photos of Laurel’s candlesticks were circulated. Had anyone sold them, seen them, bought them? But no one came forward. No one had seen anything. No one knew anything. After a twelve-week flurry of activity everything went still again.

And now Ellie was dead. The possibility was gone. Laurel was alone. Her family was broken. There was nothing. Literally nothing.

Until one day, a month after Ellie’s funeral, Laurel met Floyd.





PART TWO





Thirteen


Laurel hands the young girl who washed her hair a two-pound coin. ‘Thank you, Dora,’ she says, smiling nicely.