The Not-Outcast(11)
He was all man now.
He was still fast on the ice, one of the fastest in the league, but he was definitely not the same boy anymore. He was standing there and he was virile.
The air felt like it was rippling off of him.
Smoldering dark eyes. His hair was cut short and a little darker now, but his jawline was filled out. Square. Those cheekbones, there was nothing boyish about them anymore.
Lush everything on him.
Lush lips. I wanted to burrow in his shoulders, his chest, that glorious chest and I’d gotten glimpses of the valley road on his chest and stomach and there was a reason he was heavily talked about on all media platforms. The sports shows, but also the gossip ones, not that the gossip sites had much to talk about. Cut was private, hella private, and it drove them nuts.
I had felt him when he noticed me, and it was like my lungs were inflated balloons and someone took a needle to them, unable to take in air. As he prowled over to me, I’d been unable to do anything.
He walked over to me like a predator, but I was willing prey. I was freaking out because no way was this real life.
This was just all too much.
Too fast. Too much.
But no, not at all.
I’d been in love with Cut Ryder since high school, but he had no clue. Not one. What I did know was that he didn’t remember me because I knew I didn’t look the same. I mean, my eyes were the same. Who could forget my eyes? Well, someone who never noticed them before. And come to think about it, there was only one time he looked at me. One time that I know about.
It was all weird, but damn.
Damn!
He came over and he called me ‘babe’ and that would normally sketch me out, but it was the opposite reaction with him. And he asked if I wanted to leave, and now he was holding my hand and we were leaving—I was seriously trying not to hyperventilate trying to wrap my head around everything coming at me all at once.
There’d been a driver service for the players, so we got one of those, and the whole drive to his place, a whole thirty minutes, and that was because of traffic, we had our eyes on each other. I even knew where we were going, how laughable was that? He thought I had no idea. He thought he was taking me somewhere unknown?
I could’ve given the driver directions.
I should tell him.
No.
What was I thinking?
One night.
That’s all.
One night.
After he found out, and I knew he would find out. He’d find out in the morning, for sure, and that was if everything happened how I thought it was going to happen, but one night. One freaking night. After that he wouldn’t want anything to do with me because of who I was.
But I couldn’t walk away now, even if someone was holding a gun to my head.
I couldn’t tell him. That would be the same as walking away.
Okay. Yeah. One night. I could handle this for one night.
There were no words exchanged on the ride. I mean, what could we say that wasn’t already said with our eyes and our intentions back at the party. We sat in the back, apart. He was against one side. I was at the other. The driver driving, and then we were at his place. Well, Chad’s place, too. I knew they were roommates.
Not creepy, right?
We were exiting the car now.
Just breathe, Cheyenne.
He was leading me up the walkway.
Even in the dark, I could see all the brick, but then we were inside.
And—oomph!
He pushed me against the door, reaching down and locking it.
He moved in, almost touching me.
Nope. He was touching me.
His hand was on my hip and it slid up to my stomach, moving under my shirt. He bent in, his lips grazing my shoulder and I was already melting. I reached out, both my hands to his waist, just holding him there. I needed to anchor myself to him in some way.
“Are you sure you want to do this?”
Even the question, said against my neck, was making me want to jump him. I didn’t need any more ammunition.
“What?” A slight hitch in my throat. My pulse was skipping all over the place, too.
He grazed his nose up my jawline, moving over until his lips were lingering just over mine. Not touching. But there.
“You didn’t say a word in the car. Are you having second thoughts?”
I had to bite my lip to keep a half-hysterical laugh from bubbling out. If only he knew. But I shook my head, still biting my lip, not trusting myself to say much else, all I could muster was, “Nope. I’m good.”
His hand moved to my neck, palming my head and tilting me to look up at him. He drew his head back, his eyes watching me from the full moon shining through the window. “You sure?”
I nodded, my eyes lost as I moved over his face, falling to his own mouth. I just wanted that on me, anywhere, everywhere. I’d been wanting that for ten years.
“Good.”
His hand moved.
I thought he would kiss me.
He didn’t. He so didn’t.
His other hand moved south, bypassing my skirt, pushing my thong aside, and he found my opening in point two seconds. And oooooh!
I gasped as he slid in two fingers right off the bat, sliding all the way in and up and up and up. He was almost lifting me off the ground because of how deep he was, and I wasn’t mad at all. His mouth dipped to my throat, he was already panting, and a second later, as I was breathing loud, a third finger joined in, but he didn’t kiss me. Not on the lips.