The Library of Lost and Found(21)

Martha glanced behind her, at her job-laden floor. Nora’s bin bags looked like giant boulders and the Chinese dragon’s head grinned at her with its wonky white teeth. She didn’t want Suki to see all her stuff. “Um, I—”

But she had already pushed past and vanished up the stairs.

Martha set the freesias in some water. She moved a few of Horatio’s potted plants off the dining table and set the vase down. Staring around the room, she wondered what she could do to quickly tidy up the place, but she’d need a small bulldozer to make any impression in the next few minutes.

“I’m not sure why making an idiot of myself is cause for celebration,” she said, when Suki returned. “I’m sorry for…”

However, Suki stood with her mouth hung open. She didn’t look around at the boxes and bags. Instead she focused on one thing. “Is that a Chinese dragon?” she asked.

Martha gave a small shrug, remembering Lilian’s disbelieving stare when she first encountered the colorful beast. “It’s only the head, and it’s child-sized. I said I’d fix his ear and cheek for the school…” She trailed her words away, her offer suddenly sounding ridiculous. As she surveyed her other tasks, she couldn’t even recall volunteering to do some of them, though her notepad would tell her otherwise.

“It’s awesome.” Suki dropped awkwardly to her knees while holding her bump. Placing her hand in the dragon’s mouth, she tested the sharpness of its teeth with her fingers and ran her palm over its shiny red tongue. “Why do you need to say sorry to people?”

“For whatever you heard. For being rude.”

“You stood up for yourself. I feel quite proud of you.”

Martha wondered how anyone could feel this way about her. She pulled out her wooden chair and sat down with a thump. “How do you even know all this?”

“Horatio told me. He said he liked your traumatic reading.”

Martha hoped she meant dramatic reading. She held her head in her hands and couldn’t think what to say. Everything seemed to be failing. Her quest to be reliable and indispensable was falling apart. “I made such an idiot of myself in front of Clive, and I really want the job at the library. Sorry.”

“You shouldn’t keep saying that. You don’t owe anything to anyone. Don’t come back to the library until you’re ready. Clive can help out, for once.” Suki gave an impromptu guffaw of laughter. “It’s so like you, to tackle a dragon’s head.”

Martha opened her mouth to protest, then realized she couldn’t do it. Suki was right.

She surveyed the dragon’s head, and the absurdity of having this monstrous beast in her dining room made a small nervous laugh rise. “I don’t know anything about papier-maché.”

Suki heaved herself upright. “Well, I do. I love crafty stuff. I’ve always wanted to try papier-maché but didn’t have a project. I’ll help you, if you like? It will keep my mind off Ben.”

Martha stared at her. She was the one who helped people out. Suki was the first person in a long time to offer her any assistance.

She had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to throw a hug but wasn’t sure if it would be welcome, or if she even remembered how to do it correctly. She tensed her arms to stop herself. “I’d really appreciate that,” she said.

“Now, what did Owen Chamberlain say about your book?”

Pleased by her interest, Martha explained how she had visited the shop, and that Owen received the book to repair from one of his contacts.

“I called there again last night, after the reading group session,” she said. “He found out the book’s title is Blue Skies and Stormy Seas, and it was written by E. Y. Sanderson. That’s my nana’s full name. What’s really strange is that the stories are ones she told me when I was a child, and ones I made up to share with her. She must have written them down and printed them in the book.” She shook her head, thinking how unlikely this sounded.

She waited for Suki to tell her she was being ridiculous, as Lilian might, but instead the young library assistant folded her arms. “Well, it sounds like you’re determined to find out more,” she said.

Martha considered this for a moment. She thought about how Lilian always told her what to do, and how she obeyed without question. Just as she always did what her father wanted. Doing things for others no longer gave her the rush of satisfaction she looked for.

Instead she found herself wanting to explore the unusual feeling of freedom that she’d experienced in the arcade. She couldn’t remember the last time her nerves jingled with anticipation, and she decided that she quite liked it. “Owen is going to try and find out the name of the printer and date of the book, to see if it ties in with the date of Zelda’s dedication. Of course, that’s highly unlikely—”

“But what if it does?”

Martha flicked her hair. “It won’t do. I mean, it’s not possible. Zelda died three years before that date, so it can’t be right. Owen’s info will just clarify that.”

“And then what, Miss Marple?”

“I prefer Lisbeth Salander.” Martha shifted in her chair. “I suppose everything will go back to normal.” Images flashed in her head of saying no to the reading group, and the orange plastic crabs, and Owen and his red monogrammed slippers, and she wasn’t sure what normal was any longer.