The Leavers(14)

“Eduardo’s always asking how Mama is.” Deming watched Leon for a reaction.

“Who?”

“The guy at the bodega.” Leon’s face was blank. Deming tried again. “I saw Tommie the other day.” No answer. “Yi Ba? Can we go to Florida?”

He had never referred to anyone but Leon as his father, and when his mother had first told him he could call Leon “Yi Ba,” it had seemed a little illicit. In school, spacing out as the teacher chalked the multiplication table, trying to ignore the other kids who were hyped on sugar and rocking back and forth, busting out in Tourettes-y curse strings (one particularly restless kid liked to chant Balls, titties, balls balls titties all day), Deming would mouth his own words: Yi Ba, can you come here? Yi Ba, can I watch TV?

Leon looked up. “Florida? Why?”

“If Mama’s there, we’re not trying hard enough to find her. What if she’s in danger?”

“She’s not in danger.”

“But how do you know?”

“I know. She’ll call soon.”

“Mom?” Michael asked. “Can we go to Florida?”

“No,” Vivian said.

“I want to go to Disney World,” Michael said.

“No, no, no, no.”

As Deming scooped rice out of the pot, a clump fell on the table. “Don’t waste food!” Vivian swept the spilled rice onto her plate and took his bowl away. “Maybe your mama left because she was tired of feeding such an ungrateful boy.”

She took Deming’s plate to the sink. “Don’t listen to her,” Leon said. “She didn’t leave because of you. We’re all going to stay together, you and me and your mama. We just have to wait.”

Vivian said, “I’m going to the store.”

Leon went to work. Michael fell into the couch like it was eating him. Deming didn’t know what he was doing here. Leon wasn’t his real Yi Ba, Michael and Vivian not his real cousin and aunt. If his mother ran away with another man, he had to let her know that she couldn’t get rid of him that easily. He grabbed clothes and stuffed them in a plastic bag.

“Stop blocking the TV,” Michael said.

“I’m going to Florida to find my mom.”

Laughter from the studio audience rattled out. Michael stared at Deming, his eyes enormous behind his glasses. “Then I’ll go, too.”

“Are you serious?”

“Of course. We’re brothers, right? Like brothers.”

“Okay, then we have to hurry.” Deming dumped a ball of Michael’s clothes into the bag. “We have to go now.” He took his keys, tossed Michael’s shoes at him, and they moved out the door.

“How are we going?” Michael shouted as Deming ran up University, taking a right on 192nd. He didn’t know which store Vivian had gone to, which block she’d take back to the apartment. “My shoelace!”

“I have a plan,” Deming said, though he didn’t. As they neared the subway station they heard a train pulling away, and they ducked into the stairwell, panting.

“I don’t have a MetroCard,” Michael said.

Deming swung the bag of clothing against his leg. It was heavier than he’d expected. “Me neither.”

“I’m going to tie my shoelace now.” Michael bent down, tied one loop, then another.

“I don’t have any money,” Deming whispered.

“We can ask my mom maybe.”

“She won’t let you go if you ask her.” Michael looked so serious, so trusting. He couldn’t ask Michael to leave Vivian. Then they would both be without mothers. “Let’s go home.”

“What about Florida?”

“Another time.”

They turned back. “I’m hungry,” Michael said. Inside the bodega, Deming lingered in the aisles, fingering a candy bar, but Eduardo’s bushy white beard kept catching his eye.

“Whoo,” Eduardo whistled from behind the cash register. A giant metal fan batted warm air around. “This stinking heat.”

“It’s a heat wave,” Michael said.

“How’s your mama doing? She all right?”

“She’s great,” Deming said. “And we’re late for dinner.”

They walked out with nothing. By the time they got to their building, his arm ached. He asked Michael, “You seen Tommie lately?”

“Not for a while.”

They paused outside Tommie’s door. Deming wanted to kick it, but it didn’t sound like anyone was inside. “Where’s Pennsylvania, anyway?”

“Real far.”

Deming could see the relief in Michael’s face when they got home. He brought the bag of clothes to the bedroom, unpacked as quietly as he could, and heard Michael saying, “We went for a walk, Mom.”

Mom. Deming fell asleep on the couch, woke to drool caked on the side of his face. Much later, after Leon came home, the sky cracked open and it rained, drops splattering against fire escapes, running down rooftops, giving the air conditioners a free bath. A slow, humid breeze trickled into the bedroom, Michael’s limbs flailing in a distant dream. Deming watched Leon sleep, the rise and fall of Leon’s chest, pressing his arm against Leon’s back. He needed Leon to stay.