The Fire Queen (The Hundredth Queen #2)(65)

That son of a scorpion. He did not turn me in. He is on my side. His outburst was to throw off the guard. Still, his accusation that Kali does not care for me tore deep. Why hasn’t she come to see me? Is it true she is fighting to wed the prince? Or is she firm in her conviction to free our people?

Movement on the hill draws my gaze upward to soldiers altering the rank board. The second trial must be through. The guards take down Kalinda’s name, leaving Citra’s and Indah’s.

I blink rapidly, my optimism stuttering to a halt. Anu would not let Kali lose. Her fate is to save the empire. I sent her away so she could fulfill her godly purpose. She cannot lose.

Other men notice Kali’s name has been stricken from the rank board, and their murmurs fan out through camp. Not knowing she is a bhuta, they express concern for their kindred. They know, like me, that Kali would not lose without giving everything she has to the competition.

Great Anu, let her be safe.

The devastated voices around me mount, the sound of hundreds of hearts collapsing all at once. I lower my chin, flexing my jaw muscles against rising tears. The Janardanians have stripped away more than Kali’s name. They have stripped away our hope. The foreigner who wins the throne will not care for the good of our families.

“Captain Naik, your presence is requested in the sick tent.”

Two guards wait before me. My chest crowds with panic. I can only think of one reason why they would call me to the quarantined area.

I hurry past them. First Kali and now Yatin? The gods would not be so cruel.

At the far end of camp, more sick tents have been erected and roped off. The white canvases are marked with deep-red crosses stained into the side with black currant juice. A man in a long blue tunic and shortened trousers waits outside a tent for me.

“Captain Naik,” the stranger says, “I’m caring for Yatin. He’s asked for you.”

The healer opens the flap, and I duck inside. Improvements have been made since I was last here. Lanterns hang from the overhead bamboo poles, and mosquitoes swarm the lights like snow flurries in a blizzard. The tent is packed with men lying on floor mats. The sick cough and shake with chills. I crouch down over Yatin while he sleeps. Sweat coats his forehead.

“I’ve made him comfortable with a sedative,” the healer explains. “He’s young and robust, but he’s very ill. You should be prepared for either outcome.”

I can think of two outcomes, recovering or perishing, but I will only accept the first as Yatin’s fate. The healer sets a basket of supplies down near us and goes to check on another patient. A familiar vial nestles within the basket—the neutralizer tonic that blocks bhuta powers. The healer carries it with his remedies. I do not think. I pocket the vial and then take hold of my friend’s hand.

“Yatin.”

“Deven,” he rasps. He sounds as though the desert is lodged in his throat. I reach for the ladle in a nearby water bucket and trickle a drink over his lips. Yatin opens his clenched hand to reveal a small silver object. “Give this to Natesa. Tell her I wish . . . I wish she could have met my sisters—” He breaks off in a coughing fit and drops the ring.

I pick it up and examine the lotus flower design on top. I cannot bring myself to consider the circumstances that would cause me to give Natesa the ring for Yatin. I push it back into my friend’s palm. “Give it to her when you’re better.”

Yatin holds the ring out, his arm quivering from the exertion. “Please. Just in case.”

My nose burns with restrained tears. If I take the ring, it will make this real. And this cannot be real. “You hold on to it. It’ll remind you what’s waiting for you when you’re better.”

Yatin closes his hand around the lotus ring and rests it over his heart. Wheezing on shallow breaths, he rolls his head to the side and rests. Yatin is strong, but what if the illness is stronger? What if his purpose is finished in this life and he is needed in his next?

His fist remains fastened around the ring. I am thankful that he has a tangible dream to hang on to. My thoughts pull in, recalling my own dreams, the life Kali and I envisioned together. What a dolt I was to let her believe I gave up on that, on us.

The healer signals from the door; my visiting time is spent. I pat Yatin’s arm in parting. As I exit the tent, I slip my hand into my pocket. I have no pretty ring to hold over my heart, but I have the neutralizer tonic. I fasten my fingers around the vial and contemplate how this poison will help me get to Kali.





26


KALINDA

A hot bath washes away the mud but does not touch my numbness. I peel myself out of the cooling bathwater to dress, my wilted limbs drained of strength.

I have lost my throne. All this time I have thrashed and gnashed my teeth, trying to break free, but I am stripped bare of the only part of my life I was certain the gods had a hand in. The gods wanted Tarek to claim me. I fought that truth until I lost Jaya—and then I fought for her death to have meaning. I spilled blood to earn my throne. I held on to it with both hands as I searched for Ashwin. I wielded my rank against my enemies. I wore my nobility like a shield. I stood upon my throne to see into the future, dreaming of a better empire. Having my title taken is like tumbling down endless stairs. I am falling for an eternity, with no means of stopping.

You can turn to the Voider.

The errant thought sprouts from nowhere. I try to pluck out the terrible idea, but it grows roots.