The Fandom(5)

‘That’s brilliant . . . Filthy, Frankenstein Gem . . . and it isn’t from the original . . . not canon?’ She always refers to The Gallows Dance as canon, once again reminding us of her status as a fanfic writer. She’s even started calling her own work the current, as if the original novel is totally old school in comparison. She has no idea how arrogant it makes her sound. She whips her iPhone from her Michael Kors bag and begins typing in the insult, her azure nails clicking against the screen. ‘Filthy, Frankenstein Gem – I’m totally going to use that in my next piece.’

Nate exhales sharply. ‘Write your own material.’

The Tube slows and we hear the pop of the metal doors opening. The Scooby-Doo gang pile in, shining like multicoloured tiddlywinks against the grey backdrop of the Underground. I realize we’re nearly there. Comic-Con. I inhale a shaky breath. In only a few hours, I will meet Russell Jones, Willow, and I’m dressed as the object of his desire – Rose. The Juliet to his Romeo, the Scarlett O’Hara to his Rhett Butler. I feel like stamping my oversized Imp boots in a happy little dance.

‘You know he’s going to meet hundreds of Roses today, don’t you, Sis?’

I hate the way Nate can read my mind.

The washed-out symmetry of Olympia seems completely at odds with the brilliance of the May sky and the cartoon-like figures weaving towards the entrance. We join the back of the queue.

‘I suddenly feel very overdressed,’ I say, unable to avert my eyes from the acres of exposed flesh. Princess Leia, Wonder Woman, Daenerys Targaryen – all thighs and cleavage and fake bake. I study my pale forearms and suppress a sigh. ‘And by overdressed, I mean not nearly naked enough.’

‘ . . . Are the words no little brother should ever have to hear,’ Nate says.

Katie laughs. ‘Aw, poor Violet. How do you think I feel?’

‘Like you should have come as Lara Croft,’ Alice says. ‘Seriously, girls – and boy – how am I the only one who owns a Wonderbra?’ She puffs out her impressive chest and winks.

‘I own a bra,’ Nate says. ‘Sophie Wainright’s . . . and it’s red.’ He must see the look of horror on my face, because he quickly adds, ‘Nothing dodgy. I nicked it off her washing line as a dare.’ He flicks his sandy hair from his forehead. He looks more like a pixie than a boy.

The queue moves slowly. Time moves slowly. I examine every stitch of Indiana Jones’s waistcoat, every crimson brush stroke of Iron Man’s chest. I imagine Russell Jones’s face; the bow of his upper lip, the way his hand will skim mine as we pose side by side for the camera. By the time I reach the entrance, my ticket’s pretty much dissolved in my sweaty hands.

I visited Olympia a few months ago on a school trip. Katie and Alice came too, looking slightly more normal and slightly less excited. I still remember the way the sun slanted through the wall of glass, the dust motes dancing all the way to the domed ceiling, the white lattice of the metal beams. It looked beautiful, like a vast, forgotten ballroom. Today, crammed with the vivid and slightly disorientating world of cosplay, it feels like stepping on to a film set or a different world.

‘This is awesome,’ Katie says. It’s the first time I’ve ever heard her excited about anything Gallows Dance related.

I nod. ‘Finally, she gets it.’

That tremor of excitement returns as I struggle to take it all in. Cosplayers and plain-clothed fans spill from the balcony and pack the ground floor. They talk and laugh and pose for photos – just the sheer number of them makes me feel so insignificant. Banners fall from the ceiling like great, colourful sails, boasting slogans and Photoshopped faces. Game of Thrones, Star Wars, The Gallows Dance. And the air feels almost humid on my skin, laced with the scent of hot dogs and sweat and perfume. The flash of cameras surrounds me, and it feels like I’m standing in a massive glitter ball.

‘There’s Willow.’ Alice clasps my arm, her fingers curling into my flesh like talons. For a moment, I think she can actually see him – Russell Jones – and my stomach spasms. But then I realize she’s pointing to the banner overhead, his face staring down on us like some giant, St Tropez-ed angel.

‘Come on, let’s check out the Gallows Dance stall.’ Alice strides ahead and the crowd parts, as per usual.

I can feel Nate, pushing his arm into mine like he’s scared he might lose me. And I suddenly feel the overwhelming weight of parental responsibility, Mum’s words thumping in my head: You must look after your little brother, Violet. I link my arm through his and push after Alice, elbowing several Spocks in the ribs and hopping over Captain America’s toes. I dodge another Rose, who scowls at me, and nudge past Boba Fett. He carries his helmet beneath his arm, the dark of his hair plastered to his forehead with gel. He winks at me – I mean, actually winks, like he doesn’t look like an oversized silver crustacean. Secretly, I feel pleased he winked at me and not Alice. Maybe I can be anyone . . . do anything. A smile tugs at my lips.

‘Will you stop thinking about Russell,’ Katie says, studying my face.

I glance at my watch. ‘Less than an hour now.’

‘There’ll be a queue, mind,’ Alice says. ‘Willow’s the hottest guy ever to exist in a dystopian future.’

‘Surely it’s utopian then, if Willow’s there,’ I reply.

Alice snorts. ‘Gale . . . Four . . . they’re all utopias in my mind.’